Title: Things I'll Never Say
Author: Beloved
Feedback: belovedplankhotmail.com
Fandom: Smallville
Warning: m/m interaction going on here (eventually) in other words - SLASH!!
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Rating: PG13for eventual slash and light swearing
Disclaimer: None of it's mine (apart from the small thing vaguely resembling a plot) and never will be
Stares dreamily off into the distance at the thought of TW and MR belonging to her
Summary: Clark decides to tell Lex everything. And offer him everything in one fell swoop
Note: The song, and title, is from an Avril Lavinge song of the same name.
Author's Note: A huge thanks to all of my tremendous beta's: Robin, Chibimom, ShadowVamp and Abi!
NB: This fic is a birthday gift to my friend Louise – know as Emerald Embers
Clark wiped his eyes again; to stare at the small, silver object he continued to twist round his fingers. He was sitting, huddled up in a corner of the caves – again.
He and Lex had been 'together' for a while now (not that many people knew about it), and Clark continued to run to the caves every time they had a fight about his powers.
These fights were usually brushed off after a few days apart. Clark would miss Lex too much to stay away and Lex loved him enough to overlook it all. But, as always, Clark worried over how long Lex would put up with it. This had been their biggest fight yet. Clark had not seen Lex for almost 2 weeks, and it was tearing him up inside.
He looked back down at the object in his hands, and the tears started to fall once again. Once he had come of age, a hologram of Jor-El from the caves had informed Clark about Kryptonian mates – that one person, with whom he would share everything, be everything, the other half of his soul. Even way back then, when he was first told, he knew (subconsciously perhaps, but he knew) that it was Lex. He loved him. Forever. Completely. And it tore him up inside that Lex thought Clark could not trust him.
Clark had entrusted Lex with his heart, and would trust him with his life, he would gladly die for Lex. It was not really that Clark did not trust him with his secret – he seriously thought that Lex's knowing would help keep his secret!
But Clark had come to a realisation. He was not afraid of Lex revealing his secret, he was afraid that, on top of all the lies, it would simply be too much for Lex, who had told him so many times that a friendship could not last when based on lies. He was more afraid of losing Lex than anything else. But Clark knew that they could go on forever with his secrets. If he could not prove to Lex that he trusted him, he would lose him anyway.
At that, Clark wiped his eyes, and nodded decisively.
"I'll tell him. I'll tell him everything. I'd rather he leave me by choice, than have my secrets and lies tear us apart."
He looked down at the now slightly grubby silver ring in his hand, and smiled slightly.
"And hopefully, once he knows absolutely everything, we'll be happy. Both of us."
With a final swipe at his eyes, Clark sped off home, his head filled with plans.
Author: Beloved
Feedback: belovedplankhotmail.com
Fandom: Smallville
Warning: m/m interaction going on here (eventually) in other words - SLASH!!
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Rating: PG13for eventual slash and light swearing
Disclaimer: None of it's mine (apart from the small thing vaguely resembling a plot) and never will be
Stares dreamily off into the distance at the thought of TW and MR belonging to her
Summary: Clark decides to tell Lex everything. And offer him everything in one fell swoop
Note: The song, and title, is from an Avril Lavinge song of the same name.
Author's Note: A huge thanks to all of my tremendous beta's: Robin, Chibimom, ShadowVamp and Abi!
NB: This fic is a birthday gift to my friend Louise – know as Emerald Embers
Clark wiped his eyes again; to stare at the small, silver object he continued to twist round his fingers. He was sitting, huddled up in a corner of the caves – again.
He and Lex had been 'together' for a while now (not that many people knew about it), and Clark continued to run to the caves every time they had a fight about his powers.
These fights were usually brushed off after a few days apart. Clark would miss Lex too much to stay away and Lex loved him enough to overlook it all. But, as always, Clark worried over how long Lex would put up with it. This had been their biggest fight yet. Clark had not seen Lex for almost 2 weeks, and it was tearing him up inside.
He looked back down at the object in his hands, and the tears started to fall once again. Once he had come of age, a hologram of Jor-El from the caves had informed Clark about Kryptonian mates – that one person, with whom he would share everything, be everything, the other half of his soul. Even way back then, when he was first told, he knew (subconsciously perhaps, but he knew) that it was Lex. He loved him. Forever. Completely. And it tore him up inside that Lex thought Clark could not trust him.
Clark had entrusted Lex with his heart, and would trust him with his life, he would gladly die for Lex. It was not really that Clark did not trust him with his secret – he seriously thought that Lex's knowing would help keep his secret!
But Clark had come to a realisation. He was not afraid of Lex revealing his secret, he was afraid that, on top of all the lies, it would simply be too much for Lex, who had told him so many times that a friendship could not last when based on lies. He was more afraid of losing Lex than anything else. But Clark knew that they could go on forever with his secrets. If he could not prove to Lex that he trusted him, he would lose him anyway.
At that, Clark wiped his eyes, and nodded decisively.
"I'll tell him. I'll tell him everything. I'd rather he leave me by choice, than have my secrets and lies tear us apart."
He looked down at the now slightly grubby silver ring in his hand, and smiled slightly.
"And hopefully, once he knows absolutely everything, we'll be happy. Both of us."
With a final swipe at his eyes, Clark sped off home, his head filled with plans.