Title: I Don't Love You

Word Count: 716

Summary: included in story discription

Characters: 12th Doctor, Clara Oswald, with mentions of Danny Pink and the 11th Doctor

Song: "I Don't Love You", by My Chemical Romance

*Authors Note at the bottom

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

He tried his hardest to like Danny. He made Clara happy, which made him happy. But that didn't mean he had to like him. It hurt the Doctor- she hurt the Doctor, but she didn't know; she couldn't know. He knew, of course, that his eleventh form's departure shattered her; but he figured she, of all people, would understand. After all, it was she who had been there for all the others.

He was still the same man inside; he just looked older (than he would care to admit). He still loved her. The Doctor had experienced many painful things in his long life, but this may just have been the most painful thing he had ever experienced.

It hurt to see her so happy without him. It was worse than having an army of angry Daleks chasing after him. But all along he knew, in some way or another he would lose her, whether it be her physical existence or her heart. He wasn't surprised. If anything, he was expecting it to happen. But all the hours and hours of preparation couldn't save him from the dreaded heartbreak.

Sure, he'd experienced it before, but it had always been the other way around- he usuallt left them. it pained him to see is companions go, but Clara was different- Clara, his Clara, was impossible. He couldn't just let her go.

She was impossibly beautiful, impossibly kind, and impossibly, she didn't love him quite the same way he loved her anymore. He was too late- he was always too late to say it. But she had told him, though not directly. He had noticed the way she would get all red when his eleventh self would hold her hand. He noticed how she would smile when his eleventh incarnation would kiss her forehead. (Maybe that's why he wasn't a kissing person now) He missed the way she laughed at his old childish self- he missed the bantering. And maybe, just maybe, he missed her looking at him like he was the prettiest thing in the room. (Though he believed he was still. She just didn't see it.)

She looked at him differently now. He pretended not to notice; he acted like he didn't care. He did though, he did care, he cared absolutely too much. He cared far more than he cared to admit. That is why he is so rude all the time. He puts on a show so she doesn't have to see what is happening to him. She hurt him. He's envious of humans and how they get to live their own little infinities while keeping the same face. (Yes, he is indeed envious of the little pudding brains.)

It's not that he didn't like Danny, just, she moved on so fast. She didn't even bother to tell him she had started dating this- this, boy. And apparently, she didn't think he would want to know that he was now her boyfriend; all the times that they shared together and she didn't bother to even hint at him that this Danny fellow was dating her. (Okay, she did hint. But he didn't really want to listen to her breaking his heart.) He felt that she didn't trust him. And that hurt him.

So, he manned up. He faced the pain of the bitter heartbreak and tried his hardest to act like a tough old man. So far, she was buying it, and as long as she thought he was happy. He was okay. Not good, not bad, not fine, not alright- just okay.

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

This is a thingy i wrote in science today and i though why not share it with the world...

the song is 'I Dont Love you' and its by My Chemical Romance. go and check it out because its FABULOUS! * throws sparkles *

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