Broken Wings

A/N: This is from the iPod Challenge I put up last night, I really like how #4 turned out so I wanted to make something of it. This is A/U and OOC. I hope I did a good job. The title of this story comes from a Flyleaf song.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own anything…I wish I did though.

"I, Tori Vega, am typing this for someone to find when I go missing later tonight. I will take my own life, you will find my body out on the beach, it will look like I am sleeping but I insure you I am not. I will over dose on Insulin, I have friends nobody knows about and all I had to do was spend every penny I had to get them to give me the Insulin. Anyways, you probably want to know what has driven me to do such an extreme thing? Well, you see, I'm in love with her, you don't really need to know who, but I love her with everything I am and I don't want to see her get hurt. She'll never love me, hell she doesn't even like me really, but I couldn't help but fall in love. And before you start thinking this, I am not offing myself because I'm gay, I've known for a LONG time now, and I've tried so hard to get over her. I'm doing this because I know that if she finds out my feelings, it would cause her pain and hurt her relationship, I will not be responsible for her pain.

I will always love you,

Tori Vega"

I typed this with tears rolling down my face, I knew I was doing the right thing, it had to be the right thing. I already had everything planed, today would be the last day I would ever get the pleaser of laying my eyes upon the beautiful Jadelyn West. I saved the document to my desktop as "I will always love you" knowing that someone will look at it.

I got up and showered, couldn't die stinky now could I? When I pulled my shirt over my head, I took a good long look in the mirror, I ran my hands over the fading white lines on my stomach, I haven't cut in a long time, nobody knows that I was doing it to begin with. I guess they will know soon enough.

The day was dragging on and on, all I wanted to do was get it over with, my heart was breaking more and more every time I saw the woman I love. Jade was giving me funny looks all day, like she knew something was wrong. Maybe it was the fact that I hadn't talked to anyone all day, not a word.

"HI HI!" Cat yelled at me, I had been avoided everyone all day, so I'm guessing that she was happy to see me.

"Hi Cat." I said, not really happy that she was there, I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts. I was going to do it, but something deep, way deep, inside of me told me not to, but I had to. "What do you want, I kind of just wanna be alone today?" Cat looked sad, like she was going to cry.

"I just wanted to make sure you were okay, you've been all weird." She told me before walking off.

I looked across the hallway, over to Jade's locker, I tried to breath, I couldn't though, the pain was to much. I watch as Jade kissed Beck, they have been together for three years now, and I wasn't going to get in between them. I love her, and she's in love with him. I hate myself because I want to tell her how I feel and I use everyone to try to forget my feelings. I know she is my one.

"Yo, Vega!" Jade yells across the hallway, she caught me staring. "Just because you have a thing for my man doesn't mean you can just stair at us while we make out. Creepy much."

I looked down and walked away slowly. I couldn't let her know, she needs Beck, she love's Beck. "Vega, wait up." I look back to see Jade running towards me, Beck no where in sight. "What's up with you? Not that I care or anything, but you've been acting weird lately." She looked me in the eyes. "You can tell me, I can't promise not to laugh though." She smirked.

I stood there silent for a minute or two, "Jade," I whispered, looking anywhere but at her. "It's not fair if I tell you, just leave me alone." I started to walk away again, but, she grabbed my wrist and spun back to her.

"TELL ME DAMN IT!" she yelled. I looked at her, knowing that I could never really tell her, I didn't trust my words, so, I did the only thing I could think of, I leaned in and kissed her.

I kissed her with all the love and passion in my heart. "I love you, Jade West, and I hate myself for it." I whispered against her lips before turning and walking away. I looked back before I went through the doors, she was still standing there, shocked. "I love you." I whispered one last time before leaving, this would be the last time that I see Jadelyn West, I couldn't rune her life, so I will take my own tonight.