A/N: Here goes nothing.

Blah blah blah I love Ed/Envy blah blah blah inspiration blah blah blah.

For those interested in the themes, check out the profile of Moonlit Water Sunny River. I would post a link, but I'm laaaaaazyyyy….

This series is dedicated to Kitty.

Ed/Envy 100 Themes Challenge - "Alchemy and Absolution"
Theme 1: Opposing Forces

I love him.

I hate him.

I love him.

I hate him.

I'm picking out infinite petals off the metaphorical flower, and I can't decide.

I love him.

I hate him.

When he's with me, the person who appears…is kind and gentle. Caring. Things that one normally wouldn't apply to a fucking embodiment of sin. But it's true.

Envy becomes almost human. When his myriad psychoses aren't urging him to brutally murder everyone and everything.

I love him.

I hate him.

I can't fucking decide.

I love him.

I hate him.

Every part of the hidden Envy, the true persona buried underneath the sadism and the delusions of grandeur, I have completely fallen for.

I love him.

I hate him.

But he is a murderer. And no matter how peaceful he seems, he still has that capacity.

I love him.

I hate him.

And I can't ever forgive him for Hughes.

I love him.

I hate him.

Dammit, Envy. You have forced me into this…this pain. To stop the Homunculi, you're either going to have to die, or switch sides. And the real you can't exist around the others. It vanishes.

I love you.

I hate you.

I can't stand the thought of seeing you die. It would kill me just as thoroughly.

I love you.

I hate you.

But I can't let Father's plan happen.

I love you.

I hate you.

I love you.

I hate you.

What the fuck am I supposed to do, Envy? I can't decide which voice to listen to. I can't decide if this is worth the risk.

I love you.

I hate you.

I would miss you.

I have to.

I need you.

I don't need you, life will go on.

I wouldn't want to live without you.

I would die anyways if Father succeeded.

I love you.

I hate you.

I can't decide.

~Fin

A/N: Well, hopefully this makes some sense. So, to clarify something: the first five themes will all be one series, because I can. So! Look out for Theme 2, "Hate," very soon!

And gods, I'm sorry for how ridiculously short these themes are turning out to be...my first-person stuff never lasts long enough. Unless I'm writing a theatrical monologue. Actually, a dramatic first-person reading of an Ed/Envy would be freakin' hilarious as an audition.

This is Eliza, signing off! Peace out.