Disclaimer : None of the characters belong to me. Twilight belongs to Stephanie Meyer.

A/N : The story mainly contains Jacob POV and Emmett. However changes in POV will be indicated. This story will go through angsty, romance, porn and etc. I'll make sure to warn you at the beginning of the chapter.

A/N : This is a completed story. But I wrote it as one whole story and I didn't separate it chapter by chapter. So, I guess it will be around 4 to 5 chapter. And I'll update it regularly but I like reviews so please let me know what you think (reviews). Enjoy! :)

Warning : Angsty,

CHAPTER 1 : THE BEGINNING

Jacob POV

In The Forks High, if you were a new kid in the school, everyone practically knew everything about you before you can even introduced yourself to them. Today, I'm a new kid at Forks High, and I never get to tell my name on my own without every person I met said it first. It was awkward though I already knew that the first day of school is always going to be awkward. You don't expect it to turn out different.

So, yes, everyone knew about me but they don't know my secrets. Which I'm grateful because of it. Because really it's not like they can read minds. So I never have to worry about that. Now, I got my class schedule in my hands. Humm okay, what class will go to torture me first this day? Ahh, Maths. GREAT.

Alice POV

I was practically squealing and jumping around like a 5 year old. My family is taking a holiday on said "camping trip" which is the usual excuse we used for the school when the weather is sunny here at Forks. I bounded through the door of my brother's room before sitting on his couch like I owned them.

"Owh! I'm so excited to go to school tomorrow! Can't wait!"

"What's the matter? Saw new toy in your head?" My brother, the big buffoon, Emmett asked turning his back at me while his hands on the keyboard playing Counter Strikes.

"Yes. And I'm sure you're going to love him". I said and waited for his reaction. He knew who the person I'm talking about is. I've been seeing the boy in my visions for the past couple of weeks. And in every vision I saw Emmett with this boy. They're definitely going to be a pair. Emmett having heard what I said, his body tensed, his hands stopped. I smiled. Ahh, he's been waiting for the boy. I knew this will be great.

"Emmett?" I asked as seeing my brother was silent like a statue. I sighed. This means that I have to knock some senses into him.

"Em, you knew that you can't keep pretending that nothing's going to change. Everything will change, Emmett. I've seen them. I've seen you and him".

Emmett let out a deep sigh. He took an unneeded breath. "Alice, I'm not gay." He closed his eyes and standing away from the computer desk. He looked at me while crossing his arms on his chest.

"It doesn't matter, Em. You and he will still going to be together. Even you decide that you don't want to be with him, it won't happen. I still don't understand why your decision doesn't change my vision. But the fact that you refuse to acknowledge that he is your possible mate in the future is really getting on my nerves. Why, Em? Why you do this?" It frustrates me that I didn't know why Emmett doing this to himself when he knew he can get the chance to be happy again in his life. Vampires knew the power of our mate to us. It's equally powerful to the call of human blood.

"Because I'm not gay! That's why!" He practically yelled at me. There are few times in the past when Emmett can get really angry. He rarely gets angry. But right now, he's not angry but being stupid. I shook my head. Unbelievable.

"Did you stoned your head and suddenly became so narrow minded? We're not living in the 19th century, Emmett. Where gay people was frown upon. We of all people should know. Because we have live through the cultures, through centuries. We saw how humans changed and we changed too. Gay people are now being accepted by the society every day. They shouldn't be discriminated just because they love someone of the same sex. Love loves regardless any genders."

"I... I'm just.. I'm not ready, Alice. I can't suddenly change who I am for the past 70 years. I can't. I... I don't know how to.". Emmett slumped with his shoulders. His eyes staring at the floor. I'm sad to see my brother like this. But at least, now he's facing the truth rather than hiding from it.

"Emmett, trust me. When you love someone, everything falls easy on you. I know things weren't that great with you and Rosalie. But she's moving on now. You should do the same. Don't dwell on the past. Besides, you haven't seen the boy yet. How do you know you're not going to fall in love with him the moment you set your eyes on him?" I smiled at Emmett. He looked at me and frowned.

"That's impossible, Alice. Even I didn't fall in love with Rose the first time I set my eyes on her." He chuckled. I laughed. Owh, Emmett you're just that oblivious, did you know?

"Emmett, you just have to wait and see." I smiled before I went out of his room. And then I stopped in front of his door.

"Emmett, just try okay. You won't lose anything." He smiled at me and then move to the railing of his balcony. I took a breath watching him looking into the forest before closing the door. Now, that's done, I wonder what Jasper is doing, I've been meaning to show him my new lingerie.

Emmett POV

I don't know what to say. I don't know what to think. For the first time in my life, I have no idea what to do. What would you do when the life you always knew suddenly change? That it will never be the same again? That someone going to come into your life and change everything you knew? Frankly speaking I've never felt like this in my whole dead and undead life. Not even breaking up with Rose make me feel like this.

I've always knew that Rose and I will never stay together. How can us when we're just completely the same to each other. We're both were very dominant in the relationship. Even in our bed, she likes to be on top in which no position I would let myself to be lead on. We're both like to fights. That is what we always did. We always argue. I love her but I'm not in love with her. This I know all along even though I never admit it to anyone except Rosalie. Deep down, I never felt complete. Not surprisingly, she felt the same to me. We have been together for so long; the relationship doesn't incite us anymore. This is why we decided to separate. It's better than trying to stay together and hurting each other.

After the divorce, I thought that I will never find other person again. I was finally free. But then Alice told me about her visions. Visions of me and a guy. Together. I was shocked. Me and a guy? As lovers? I couldn't imagine it, touching a guy, kissing a guy, having sex with a guy! Oh god! How am I supposed to do that?

I love boobs. I love soft supple skin. Red lips. Long flowing hair. I love eye fucking narrow waist with curvy hips hugged by short skirt match with high heels. I love girls not guys! I tried to change the vision by deciding that I don't want to be with this guy, but, it didn't work. I'm still going to end up with this guy.

It scared me. That no matter what I do, this stranger is going to be my mate. Seriously, I have no idea how he looks like. But Alice assures me time and time again that this guy is beautiful. I find a hard time to believe that because Rose is the most beautiful person I've ever met. Nobody can pass her. So knowing your future forever tied up with someone you never knew is frightening.

I don't know how I'm going to face tomorrow. I pray that tomorrow will come easy and still hoping that some miracles happen that will divert my impending future.

Jacob POV

I woke up shortly after I fell asleep in the class. I looked at the clock, another 30 minutes before schools over. Still got a lot of time.

I thought about my dream just now. Well, for the past couple of weeks I've been dreaming about a guy I never met. I couldn't see his face I only saw his body. Every time I dreamt about the guy it's always the same dream. The guy standing on top of a cliff looking at me. And his eyes, I remember his eyes. Unnatural honey gold colour. Weird. How can a person have that eye colour?

Doesn't matter because now that dream which haunted my nights have starting to get me sleepy during the day. Sometimes I fell asleep on the couch while watching How I Met Your Mother which is again weird because I never fell asleep during my favourite show. Then yesterday while unpacking some of the stuff in the garage of our new home at Forks I suddenly tripped from the chair landed on my butt. The toolbox which I held then flew into the air and almost fell unto my head. It irritates me because at that time I was actually revisiting my dream in my mind about the guy or more precisely, the guy's body.

I blushed and suddenly realised that I'm still in the class. I looked around me. Owh, I didn't realised that there are quite a number of classmates that is actually looking at me now. I blushed again and turn my eyes down. Some of them are whispering and I assumed about me.

Today has been suffocating for me. Wherever I went girls and guys smiling at me, some of them bothering me by offering to tutor me if I'm interested. I'm not used to other people outside the reservation at La Push. I've always been with Sam and the gang. They're like my brothers. But after what happened... Ugh, I'm not going to think about that now.

The smiling and all the advanced gestures are okay. However, the whispers and the looks I got, I'm not used to it. It seems that those things only happen when I went to Forks to visit Charlie. I've always been in the reservation my whole life. So people there they all knew me since I was born there. So there are no looks or staring and whispering.

However, things were different when I came to the town of Forks to visit Charlie. Whenever people see me, they all looked at me like they're in some kind of trance. I don't know why. I'm not too bad looking I think for people to look at me that way. Yet they all did. And it got even worse when we moved here. This is why I guessed how everybody in Forks High knew everything about me. So, getting people to know me is not a problem. But getting to know people is a problem for me. I wished I can be invisible. I would if I could.

After my Math class, I was suddenly getting flocked by one person named Mike Newton. I was prepared to get to my next class when Mike Newton came to me all smiling and grinning.

"Hey, Jacob. So I was wondering if maybe you want to know where your next class is. I can show you there if you want." He said with that wide smile of his. He seems friendly and a good guy although I knew he is the jock of the school. Yeah, jocks are a classic stereotype of male athlete. You don't have to date one to know one. They're all the same. But what the heck? This guy offering to show me my class which I really need to know where. So I smiled at him and nodded.

"Okay. Thanks". We walked to the front door of the class and to the corridor. As usual people started looking and whispering. But now, even more so when I walked beside Mike. I continued my pace try not to be bothered by the surrounding. I turned to look at Mike. While we walked Mike was shaking hands with some of his friends and laughing. He's also slapping each other's back with his football teammates. He seems so happy and free. I assumed he's just like that with his friends. He noticed that I was looking at him. So I smiled again at him and his face blushed.

"Sorry. I don't think I knew your name." I said.

"Mike." His smile was infectious as he put his hand out. I shook his hand.

"What? Just Mike? That's it?" I asked.

He laughed. "Mike Newton." He said. Newton... I thought. Owh he must be Jack Newton's son.

"Owh. So your dad owns the grocery store then?" I asked.

"Yup, that's my dad. Though people didn't usually refer me to my dad. I don't want to. Not used to people to get the wrong idea that I live under my dad's shadow. After a while people just called me Mike and people knew me as Mike. It was hard at first but all that I achieved now is all my own effort". He said proudly.

I just nodded at what he said. I understand the familiar situation. I smiled and looking at the steps I'm climbing. My class was at second floor which is one I didn't have with him. Mike turned to me and put his hand on the back of my shoulder.

"Well, that's just enough about me. I want to know about you. Why don't you sit with us during the break? I'll introduce you to other guys." He smiled tried to look charming while hinting at more than friendly means while his hand started to wander lower on my back. I immediately stepped away from him.

"Uhh... Yeah. Cool" I said stuttered. His smile gleaming on his face.

I entered my second class and waited begrudgingly for the break. I planned not to eat during the break as to avoid Mike, but my stomach couldn't handle the noise it made. So after the bell, I went to the cafeteria and picked my meal. I tried to find some secluded area to avoid the penetrating stares and looks and Mike but, Mike was faster. He appeared suddenly from behind me and grabbed my hand and led me to his tables. He introduced me to his friends. There's Angela, Eric and Jessica. They're friendly except Jessica who gives me nonstop glares and half-scowled-half-smiles when I said something that makes the others laugh and when Mike put his hand on my shoulders or my arm.

After that, all my class was with Mike and the group. Mike insisted that I must sit beside him during the class for the whole day. I wanted to say no but somehow I couldn't. I could never turn down a friend. That is my both strengths and weakness. I remembered the pack asked me to fetch them at Port Angeles, after they were arrested for DUI. Luckily, Charlie helped out a bit, of course on my father's request. I miss the pack. Every night since I moved to Forks, I cried listened to the howling sound I knew was one of them. But there's nothing that could've change what happened. They had made their decision and I had made mine.

The bell rang. I startled as I felt a single lone tear on my cheek. I quickly wiped it off. I must get home now. I picked up my bag and walked home. I must go to somewhere. I need to clear this off my head. My steps quickened and I ran before I knew a van coming fast towards me.

Alice POV

I was sitting in my room when suddenly a vision appeared in my mind. I saw Emmett he was alone and sad in the forest. I saw the rest of my family are sad too seeing Emmett being miserable. What happened?

I thought with the boy, Emmett are finally going to be happy? Why Emmett would be alone and sad? He should be with the boy.

I try to search my mind on the visions to see if there's anything about the boy. But nothing. There's nothing. God, if my vision can't see someone that means that they're... No! It couldn't possibly be! I fell to my knees on the floor.

"Emmett". I whispered low. In a flash Emmett entered along with my husband, Jasper. Jasper immediately hugged me and calmed me. He rubbed circles on my back. Emmett worried with how I looked on the floor. It must worry him since I never acted this way. I saw that he's trying to figure what had happened.

"Alice. What happened?" He said before he sat down in front of me while holding my face in his hands.

"What happened?"

I have to tell him. It breaks my heart. But it must be done. I said while my lips trembled as I looked deep into his eyes.

"Emmett... He's gone"

Emmett POV

My hands dropped from Alice's face to my thighs. I couldn't believe what Alice said. It's like I can't hear what she said although I can perfectly hear what she said. It played like a broken record in my mind. My mate died? What? How the hell did that happened? I shook my head. Still having hard to believe.

"But... But Alice. The vision showed me and him together. Why changed?" I stuttered. By now the family have gathered in Alice's room. They already knew what happened.

Alice shook her head. "I don't know Em. I don't know. But he's gone. And you'll be sad and miserable for the rest of your lives."

My heart dreaded. I felt something had been punched through my chest. I knew that I don't want to mate with the guy but that doesn't mean I want him to die. No! I don't want that! Even though I'm a monster but I will never want to take someone's lives or want someone's lives be taken. I killed him. I fucking killed him!

Edward hearing my thoughts quickly came closer to me. He touched my shoulder. "No, Emmett. You didn't kill him. Whatever your mind told you, you need to know that you don't kill anyone especially your mate."

I looked into his eyes. "That's impossible! I didn't accept the fact that he was my future mate. Whoever he is, guy or girl, I shouldn't reject him. At least I should accepted him. But I didn't. I fucking rejected him. And now he died. It's too late. I killed somebody, Edward"

After all the denying, only after my mate was gone, now I realised that my mate was bound to me. He's dead because I rejected him. I shouldn't live. How can I act a crime towards my mate when all he did was nothing? It was unacceptable!

I stood up and walked away from my family. I went outside the house and went into the forest. I need to be away from all this. I need to be alone.

Normal POV

It's been four days since Emmett went into the forest after his mate died. The Cullen's are worried about him. But they didn't look for Emmett. They understand that Emmett needs time to be alone to process everything that had happened. One can only guess the pain of losing a mate but can never feel or understand it.

It's different for vampires when they lose a mate. Each vampire faced the pain differently. Some felt the pain unbearable and they couldn't live without their mate so they have to kill themselves. Some went into a coma because of the shock they received about their mate's death. Some left in sadness and sorrow that they couldn't feed, their body weak and lifeless but not wither like humans. Some went on a killing rampage consumed by blood lust.

Emmett in this case was different. His mate is dead and what he did in the forest is just wandering around. At first consumed by guilty, he knocked down quite an area of trees. After that he went to the cliff and sat there, thinking. And he never moved since.

Emmett didn't went into a coma due to unbearable lost and sadness. He didn't felt that way. But he felt guilty. Guilty for even thinking that something would happen to change his future just because he doesn't want to fall in love with a guy. He wished that he could turn back the time so that he could save his mate's life. He wished he didn't make the mistake. Wished that he could accept his mate and try. But its too late. He couldn't do anything to change the past. So he sat there, emotionless. Staring into the ocean. He didn't want to go back to the house. But he knows he needs to get back to his family.

His phone rang. The caller name appeared on the screen. Alice. He pushed the green button.

"Emmett! Thank god you picked up. Emmett, my vision changed! I don't know what happened! He's not dead. And he's coming to you now"

What?! His mate is not dead? He's alive and he's... coming? Emmett immediately stood up. His mate is alive!

That's when a scent hit him. The most delicious scent he ever smelt his whole life. He felt someone approaching him. He turns his back. For the first time his eyes met his mate.

TBC

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A/N 1 : Sorry that this is a very long chapter. I know that you all must've been waiting for the sex part. But just another one more to go and then you'll get to read it.

A/N 2 : There's a new changes I did in this chapter. So for anyone who have read this before I did some changes but it's not that much. Just a couple of lines that I think doesn't fit into the whole story - and some of them are complete and utter shit. Heheh :)