You were my ocean.
Wide and vast
All powerful and controlling
Yet beautiful.
Peaceful
I remained oblivious to the fact you could hurt me, because how could something that gorgeous be evil?
So strong and silent, the warmth of your presence made me feel safe.
How could safety be a bad thing?
I was yet to learn about your façade.
Mask of beauty that stopped me from seeing the deep, dark, ugly side of you.
You twisted my perception.
Of life.
Of love.
Of beauty.
I listen to the ocean, and all I hear is you.
Your false promises.
Your lies.
Your desperate apologies and the forgiveness that was always on the tip of my tongue.
I hear the love we once had.
And the friendship we once shared.
The laughter that turned to tears.
The smile that turned to screams
I still love you
Even though I'm not sure if you ever loved me
Though I was sinking, my heart was floating
Light and happy, because you were with me
I craved a love deeper then the depths of the ocean
And you gave me that
Even though it was just for a short time
I held on to that
The rush of excitement every time I saw you
The way your crooked smile and sea green eyes made my heart skip a beat
The way your strong arms held me, keeping me warm even if it was freezing
We were beautiful
Our love was beautiful
I want to believe in something beautiful again
I wanted to be the shore to your ocean
No matter how much I push you away, you returned
Yet you never did
Because the one time I said leave
You refused to stay
Our love was so shallow
That the smallest argument, a ripple in the pond of our love became a tidal wave
They say there are other fish in the sea
But you were the one for me
And I followed you into that water, knowing I would never return
I just wish you loved as deep as I did
Because now all I have is an empty ocean
and tears in my eyes