Hay guys! XD If your reading this it means that you clicked the little button/tag thingy and want to read the story!... That, and you didn't pass over the Authors note and just skipped to the story. :P
Anyways! This is the second story I've published on fanfiction! XD *confetti and sparkles bring down upon us all* So I thank you for giving it a shot! My other story is called 'Of Shadows and Moonlight' So if you haven't read it already, please go check it out! XD
I would just like to take this time to thank my amazingly, wonderful, and fantastical editor Fanty! A.K.A. Fantasydreamer244! None of this would be possible without her! XD She's a good friend and an amazing writer! You should all go check out her stories! Especially the one called 'Listen to Your Heart' I'm currently reading that for the second time! It's just soooo good! XDDD
I would also like to give a shout out to LaurenJr! She is the one who inspired this story, and has been giving me tons of support and is the one who convinced me to start writing this in the first place! XDDD So thanks Lauren! This wouldn't have been possible without you! :D BTW she is an amazing author just like Fanty and you should all go check out her story's! Especially the one called 'Watching the Past, Present and Future' Which is the story that inspired this one! XD
Anyway! I do not own Rise of the Guardians, or The Guardians of Childhood book series. They belong to William Joyce and DreamWorks. All right, now that all that legal bull crap is that the way! XD Please allow me to present to you the first chapter ( well actually no, it's the prologue) of 'You'll Never Know'. Enjoy! :D
You'll Never Know
Prologue
Why?
I've asked myself that question so many times.
How long has it even been this way? 300 years I guess, maybe more. I can't even remember. But that's OK, there's no point in remembering that now anyway. And it would probably only make things worse.
Besides, there's not much to remember. And it's not like anyone will remember me. They didn't even know I was there. No one ever did. But maybe it's better that way. No one will be sad when I'm gone, no one will miss me, no one will even know. And I think that's what hurts the most.
I'm going to die here, all alone… And it hurts so much.
'I'm scared… I'm scared and it hurts. I-I don't want to die. I don't want to die alone! Please… Somebody, anybody! Please help me… I don't want to die. Not here. P-please, somebody please. Please make it stop. It h- hurts, it hurts so much. Please… somebody, please save me.'
B-but is there even anything to save?
So many times I've wondered, am I even here at all? No one can see me. No one can hear me. So what am I? I'm not a spirit, I'm not human. I'm…I'm nothing.
But-but I must have been something. Right? Tooth, sh-she said so. We were all someone before we were chosen.
…But, but was I even chosen? The moon's never spoken to me. Not once. I don't think even he knows I'm here.
But it doesn't matter. No one cares. No one knows. Nothing or not, I'll be gone soon enough. A fitting end I guess. I lived every day completely alone, and now I'll die alone too. But it's probably better this way. At least the pain will go away. I won't have to be alone anymore. I won't be lost anymore.
I have so many regrets. So many things I wanted to do, to say. I-I just wanted for someone to see me. Someone - anyone to see me, anyone. Just to tell me that I was here, that I exist. That I'm not just…nothing.
I wanted to tell Pitch everything. I wanted to tell him how important he is, how important fear is, how it protects us. But that he's more than just fear. I wanted to tell him that he doesn't have to be alone. That… he's a Guardian to.
I wanted to hug Sandy. To cry and tell him how glad I was when he came back. Even if his dreams always hurt me.
I wanted to Tell Bunny about what really happened on Easter. What happened in Pitch's lire, in Antarctica, about how Jack got Jamie to believe in him, and about the blizzard of 68 too. I wanted to tell him it wasn't Jack's fault, none of it. I just wanted him to know.
I wanted to ask Tooth about my memories. If I really was someone, then she should have them, right? Then I could finally know. Who I am, who I was, why I'm here, and… why I'm so alone.
And…and Jack. There's so many things I regret. But staying with him is the only thing I don't. Even if he never knew I was there. Even if staying with him is what caused me so much pain. I don't regret it. You were the only person I had in my life. The only thing that gave me any hope, even after all this time. You were the one thing that made me feel like I wasn't just nothing. That maybe I was there. You gave me something to hope for, something to live for. And after I met you, I found something I wanted even more than just being seen. So that even if no one ever saw me, not even once, I would still know that I'm here. That I'm not just nothing.
I wanted a name.
I wanted you to give me a name. Just to tell me that I'm here, that I exist. I wanted that more than anything. So I would know that I'm not just nothing. That I'm worth something, anything at all. That I mean something. That's… that's all I ever wanted.
I-I don't think that's too much. Just a name. Just that one little thing. I-it's a-a-all I ever wanted… Just a n-name. I just w-wanted him to give me a n-name…
But it's too late now. I-I'm going to die. And no one will ever even know. No one will miss me, n-no one will even care… It h-hurts. It hurts so, so much…
… Jack. There were so many things I wanted to tell you. And now I'll never even get the chance.
Jack. I wonder if he'll still be able to fly when I'm gone… Oh well. Even if he can't, he'll be OK. I know he will. That's just the way he is. He can find happiness in anything.
A-and now he won't have to be alone anymore. He… he finally has the family he's always wanted. He has a home now. And, and that's so wonderful Jack. I-I'm s-s-so happy f-for you… so happy. A-and you have your memories now to. You finally… you finally know who you are. A-and those kids. They saw you Jack. They saw you. T-they believe in you. That's a-all you ever truly wanted. Y-you're a Guardian. And you never h-have to be alone again. I I'm so h-happy for you Jack. I'm so happy.
I-I'm even happy that you w-won't know when I'm gone. Y-you won't be sad. I never want you to be sad.
I wonder what will happen now. W-where will I go when I die? Heaven? Hell? Or will I just… disappear? I would like to believe there's a God. T-this world… It's so beautiful. And there are so many wonderful things in it. S-so many wonderful people. So I b-believe you must be there. And th-that if I'm really here, then you know. That you see me. I would lo-love to believe that. So, so much. That when I die, I won't have to be alone anymore… B-but I just don't know.
Who am I kidding? I'm alone, a-and t-t-that's never going to change. E-even hell won't w-want me. It doesn't matter anymore. Nothing dose-…
As her tears begin to freeze from the frigid cold, as the wind stills and the world goes silent, and her body slowly begins to still it's trembling. Just as the hope she has so desperately held on to all these years finally begins to fade away. A light dusting of white begins to fall from the darkened sky.
...Snow? W-why would… Jack.
Even when it's all over. Even when every piece of my hope is gone. Even when I've finally given up on everything. And even when I'm just laying here, waiting to die… You still save me.
… I have so many regrets. But the one thing I regret most… is that you'll never know. You'll never know that you weren't alone. You'll never know that there was someone who always believed in you. You'll never know that you gave me a reason to hope, to live. You'll never know how much you saved me.
But most of all. I regret that you'll never know… how much I love you.
Wow. 0_0 Total cliffhanger ending, right?! XD But don't worry! This story is far from over! XD Unless that is of course no one cares. T-T If that's the case I think I'm just gonna let it die. So review and let me know what you think if you don't want that to happen! XD
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