Hey all my fellow readers! I got this idea for a song fic when I was listening to my neases S Club 7 CD. I use to love this song and I thought it was a really good story idea. It's a oneshot songfic. I'm not really good at song fics, but I think this one is okay right? Tell me at the end.
Disclaimer: (if i must) I do not own Instant Star or Have You Ever by S Club 7.
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
I walk around the room and stop in front of her. Her wedding gown was simple but elegant. Her blonde hair is up with two thin curls on both sides of her head. She looks down at her dress and starts to fidget. I laugh. She looks so beautiful.
Tommy: You ok girl?
Jude: Yea, I'm fine. I just…I can't believe this is finally happening.
Tommy: Me either. Are you happy about it?
Jude: More than happy, ecstatic.
I look away as I put a frown on my face. She's happy, so I should be happy right? Why am I not happy? She calls my name. I put on a brave face and look at her again.
Jude: Are you ok?
Tommy: Yea, I'm fine.
Jude: Ok, how do I look?
Tommy: Amazing. I should get going though. They'll miss me at the altar.
Jude: Hey Tom, you know if you have something to say, you can tell me. You can tell me anything.
Tommy: I know. I'll meet you at the altar.
She smiles, oh man that smiles that makes me melt. I walk out of the room and walk down to the altar where three other men stood in black tux. One was Kwest, and the two other's were my brothers. Allen is my older brother and Nick is my youngest. I went up to stand next to them. I looked over at the bride's maid. The maid of honor was Sadie, then there was Kat, and Patsy (who looked pretty good in a dress I might add).
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
You just want to change the way the world goes round
I waited nervously for Jude to walk down the aisle. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I don't even know why I'm nervous. The pianist starts to play and I see Jude with her veil over her face. Stuart is arm and arm with her as the walk down the aisle and everyone stands up. I remember all the things in the past that we've been through. It makes me a little sad. I've broken her heart so many times. I should've told her everything in that room. I should've told her how much I loved her, how much I need her. I should've just poured my heart out.
She looks at me, I can tell. I can see those hypnotizing blue eyes piercing through her veil. My heart is breaking with every step she takes. She smiles at me again. I wish I could smile back, to tell her I'm happy. But I'm not.
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel, about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
She finally makes it to the alter and the priest starts as Nick takes Jude's hand. They smile at each other. Jude never takes her eyes off his as the priest says the traditional words. They've been dating for 2 years. They've been dating since I broke her heart for the last time.
I remember that day perfectly. She came over my house for dinner. I told her that I didn't think that we should take a break from each other. She screamed at me saying it was the last time I would do this to her and she ran out crying. A couple of months later my brother came to stay with me for a couple of weeks and Jude fell for him. I wish I never said that. I don't even know why. I thought it would be good for us. Especially with the press hounding us everywhere we go and we weren't even allowed in the studio alone. But, I made a mistake…and she was right to go with Nick.
Can't help but think that this is wrong
We should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Then those famous words rang in my head.
Priest: If anyone objects to this young couple to be joined in holy matrimony, speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Jude and Nick look around. This is wrong, this is all wrong. I should be the one looking into here eyes, I should be the one holding her hand. Why am I not saying anything? C'mon Quincy, speak up. Tell her, tell her now. But no words come out of my mouth. I stay there silent, regretting everything.
Now I've finally realized
It was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Why didn't I see it then? Why couldn't I see that she was the one? If I had, she would still be with me. But now, she's with Nick. She's getting married. I wish I could've gone back and time and change everything. All the way to the first time she kissed me. Then the priest finally says the words that I dreaded the most.
Priest: By the powers vested in me, I now pronounce you, husband and wife.
Everyone starts to smile and clap.
Priest: You may kiss the bride.
Nick kisses her. It's not a big sloppy wet one. It's a light one right on the lips and over within 2 seconds. Yet, you can tell how much love and passion was in that kiss. They really did love each other. All this time, I wanted to believe it wasn't true. That she loved me. But she loves him.
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel... about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
I wanted to tell her I'm sorry. I want to tell her that I'm sorry for everything. But what am I thinking. She's not going to run back into your arms if you say it. But now I don't know what could've been. I don't know what would've happened if I actually told her the way I felt. That I still loved her, and that I'm sorry. She was everything to me, and now I've lost her forever.
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see?
I wonder if she feels the same way I do. I wonder if she misses me. As they step down from the alter and walk outside of the church. Everyone follows as I stand there. Kwest comes up to me.
Kwest: You're going to be ok man?
Tommy: I'll be fine.
Even though the moments gone I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
At the reception she asks me to dance. I nod and take her hand. We dance and she smiles. Her eyes burn into me as she looks right at mine. This was it. This was my last chance to say something, my only chance to say something. So why am I not speaking any words. The song ended and she hugged me.
Jude: Tommy, thank you for everything. You're the best.
Tommy: I hope you stay happy girl.
Jude: That's all you have to say?
Tommy: What do you want me to say?
I was hoping she would say something along the lines of 'I want you to say you love me and kiss me'…but she didn't.
Jude: I want you to say a toast. I mean you are the best man.
Nick: C'mon Jude, my mom wants to talk to you.
Jude: Be right there.
She starts to walk away from me before I call her back.
Tommy: Jude?
Jude: Yea.
She looks at me curiously. She's so happy. I can't do this to her. I just can't. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how much I want her in my arms, I just can't do that.
Tommy: I'm really happy for you. I hope you have a wonderful life with Nick.
She smiles sweetly at me and nods.
Jude: See ya, Quincy.
She turns around and walks towards the table where my mom was.
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see (oooOOoo)
That's the way I feel, about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking i should know
(I should know...)
I walk out the doors and headed to my viper. I saw her at the window laughing with Nick. She looks out and sees me. She smiles at me confused. Then I finally did it. I mouthed 'I love you' towards her. She looks at me in shock. Then she turns around quickly and she won't look back. I was heartbroken. I felt like a million pins in my heart and counting. I go into my viper and she looks at me again. She watches me drive off, and I never saw her again.
cause I loved and lost the day I let
yes I loved to lost the day I let
yes I loved to lost the day I let you go...
I know it's a sad ending. I was having a hard time trying to figure out what to do with the ending. Maybe I'll make a short alternate ending...if I have time. Right now I'm preparing for Myrtle Beach. But lets see how it goes. so...REVIEW!