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Jade

Her hair draped over her shoulders and her eyes were soft as she laughed with the group. I watched her eat her salad but not in a creepy way. No I was just pondering her existence, just trying to figure her out. She came out of nowhere and took our breath away. I hated that.

Tori just slipped into our group so easily it was almost mesmerizing.

I used to be mesmerizing. There was a time when people would come up to me once every week asking about my writing but now they only wanted to hear her sing. Hell, even I wanted to hear her sing. She had a throat like a tidal wave that crashed into you in the most powerful yet softest way. It was disgusting.

Tori turned her head to me and caught my eye. She smiled softly and lifted an eyebrow so I quickly jerked my head away. I hated when people smiled at me. What were they so happy about? Out of the corner of my eye I see her lower lip jut out in a tiny pout before she turned back to the group.

"You and Jade were so cute in that play!" Cat almost sang while twirling a lock of hair on her finger. "Thanks cat. It wasn't all that bad after our, uh, date." She blushed, "I don't know about Jade but I had fun." I scoff. She looks towards me as if she wants some sort of response. I squint and sip my coffee, "Sometimes when I'm around you people for too long, I imagine spooning my eyes out. " Then I grabbed my things and left. I hear Rex say, "Can someone spell bitter?"

I open my locker and begin to switch out books when I notice soft footsteps behind me. I sigh dramatically knowing exactly who it is and hoping she'll take a hint. She doesn't. Instead Tori leans on the lockers bordering mine stealing beck's signature stance.

"Hi." She says quietly looking at me. I stay silent. Her eyes are burning holes in my flesh as she studies me for any sign of emotion. My body stays firm even though my self-esteem is slowly crumbling. It's been like this since she showed up. This whole inferior complex, yea, I never had it until now. Suddenly when I'm around her or she's singing or I even think about her I feel insignificant. I take one more sip of coffee before saying, "Do you need something?"

"Are we ever gonna talk about this?"

"I'd prefer if we didn't" I shoot back as I slam my locker and turn to leave. As if she'd expected it she simply falls in step with me as I head to class. Part of me wants to apologize (a very feeling for me) for everything I'd done to her. But I don't. I just walk.

"So where's Beck? Normally you guys are inseparable." Tori asks breaking the silence. "We broke up." Her head quickly turns to me and her eyes bulge out so much I imagine them jumping out of her head. "It's really not a big deal this time. We just realized that the relationship had run its course so put your eyes back in their sockets."

We happen to have the next class together, English, so we walk in side by side. Class hasn't started yet so she sits next to me until the bell rings. I can feel her eyes on me. "Like what you see?"

"Yes." She replies. I can feel the redness creeping across my cheeks but I keep a straight face. "Fag." She kicks my seat and laughs, her entire body shaking like a happy earthquake as she does. It doesn't annoy me like it used to. Then the bell rings and she's gone but I pretend not to mind when my eyes fall on a note where she sat just moments ago. I peel it open and read,

I'm sorry. We'll have to face it sometime.

The paper suddenly feels heavy so I drop the dead weight into my bag. I know she was right. Tori was always right. It wasn't supposed to happen that way but it did and nothing can change that. It was on our playdate after we got away from those creeps. We were eating and talking for what seemed like the first time. She was telling me about some sappy Nicholas Sparks movie while I was trying to teach her something about real romance.

"Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is one of the only romance movies I like so take notes. 1. It didn't have all that gooey shit in it. It was raw, it was real. I mean they did things couples do but it was completely different from rom-coms. They could live without each other they just knew they didn't want to." She rolled her eyes as I preached, " 2. It represents the type of love I want, quirky and strange but still beautiful. Even having their minds erased couldn't keep them apart."

"You just like how twisted it was!"

"Well that too." We both laughed and I wrapped my pinky around hers. I didn't even notice what I was doing at first. It was such an innocent action for someone so far from innocent.

Tori must have noticed that too because her smile grew so large I wondered where her face went. She was probably just glad I was being nice. Extremely nice seeing as I even offered to drive her home.

After our actual performance I asked her if she wanted to grab some food. "A little celebration for a wonderful scene." I called it. She smiled and accepted like I knew she would. She laughed at all my jokes even though most were at her expense ( I even said I hoped her next boyfriend got small pox.) Despite my snarky remarks she giggled annoyingly and did her best to hide her excitement.

I guess neither of us could.

At the end of the night she looks me in the eyes, puts her fingers above her lips as a makeshift mustache, and uses her man voice to say, "You're so good. How could you love a sappy, weird, idiotic, hopeless romantic loser like me." Then I kissed her. Or she kissed me. Or maybe we just kissed each other. Either way it happened and I couldn't shake my smile as my body caught on fire.

Yea, I know we'll have to face it sometime.