Hello all! Nothing to really sum this up, you just have to read it! Reviews are very welcome, too!: D
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Twilight or any of its characters for they are the property of the rightful owner; Stephanie Meyer. I really wish I owned the Volturi, but unfortunately she owns them, too. :'(
The sun was out every day, bringing its warmth with it. But he felt he could never feel the warmth it brought. He felt so trapped in Volterra, only leaving when directed by his masters. He could see Heidi every day and feel her warmth and happiness, or maybe even Gianna. But it wasn't the same. The women were different from Felix's sun. Heidi could be the most seductive woman he had ever met, and she had seduced him before—multiple times, in fact. Gianna was quiet usually, only speaking when she had something to say. But you didn't have to look hard to see what she really wanted. The only reason she was putting up the nice act. She wanted immortality, something Felix knew she wouldn't be getting.
They meant nothing to him, only his sun did. What he could not stand any longer was the feeling of not being able to touch it, to stop seeing and to step up and feel. Only he felt he couldn't do that. That if he did he would be stepping way out of line. But he hasn't seen the looks he receives. The looks he receives that are begging him to take that step. How much the other wants to take that one step turned into need, but neither knew.
Heidi continued to seduce him, and he let her. He felt she was the one thing that he could have. But because of his cowardice his sun slowly gave up hope. He didn't know how easily he could have it all, how he could have everything he had ever wanted. Such a coward he was, pretending he didn't desire him, and he never did or will. He would warn himself how close his "sun" was to giving up on him. But, alas, he waited too long. Now he was truly hopeless, only Heidi to turn to, because his one desire would never speak to him again…he repeated it to himself over and over again.
Demetri would never speak to him again.