Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds!!!!! *sigh*

When the office door has Been Closed.

Hotch was standing at his window. His thoughts were racing. Getting to grips with everything was harder than he had thought, he new it would be hard coming back to work, but he never realised it would be like this. The separation anxiety was killing him.

But that wasn't all it was. Since Hailey he had left him he hadn't even been on a date, he was so hopeful they would work something out, then by the time he realised that was going to happen and was ready to move on, the reaper happened. Then she died and now the idea of another woman was like betrayal. He knew it wasn't, but that's how it felt. But now staring out of his window, all that was going through his mind were pretty much sordid. All of a sudden he had fantasies and what was worse was they were mainly about a certain co-worker.

Hailey had told him to show his son the meaning of love. But all he could think about the last few days is sex. He needed some release. To be fair it would be well earned. He had held out for Hailey for longer than he maybe should have.

He jumped when he heard a knock on his door, it was open and then heard her voice.

"Hotch can I ask you favour?"

It sent a shiver through him. He couldn't hold back anymore. He turned to face her. She must have seen the fire in his eyes. The hunger within them. She had been the star of more than one of his fantasies.

"Hotch....are you okay?"

"Yes, what's the favour?"

"I was going to ask if I could extend my new year's holiday, Will wants to spend new year's eve with his family, new year's day with mine. So it's going to take longer than....are you sure your okay? You look...err...strange"

He walked towards her she was still stood by the door. He moved around her and closed the door. Then closed the blinds to his office.

"Hotch wha....." he placed his lips upon hers, he never gave her chance to resist. He was slowly losing control, especially when she seemed to respond and as soon as she did, he lost it. He pretty much pinned her against his office door, deepening the kiss as much as he physically could.

He knew this was wrong. She was engaged to be married, she was his subordinate for heavens sake!

But she tasted to good to be true. He needed her, he needed this, this moment with her.

She felt the heat racing through her, before she knew it she just had sex with her boss against his office door!

What had she done! Hotch nestled his head into her neck. They both controlled there breathing and Hotch pulled away.

"JJ....I'm....I" she straitened herself up and ran from his office.

What had he done? Not only had he broken the cardinal rule. He had destroyed the trust he had with one of his closest friends. Because of a fantasy! He had lost control, for the first time in his life. How the hell had this happened.

He knew that was it, the team would notice, one of them would have to leave. Or if Strauss found out it would more than likely be the end of the BAU, he hoped it would just be the end of his career, that he hadn't just destroyed hers.

He couldn't bear it if he had just ended both of the career's. What about Will? She is engaged! If she tells him....what will he do? What will he say? And to who?

He had seriously messed up this time. Big time!

JJ headed out of the office, Hotch had not emerged from his office. His blinds were still closed and so was his door.

Why did she let him do this? Why had he done this? She had never felt this confused, it was scaring her.

When she got home, she looked at her husband to be, she gave him a weak smile. He questioned her about her day. But all she could think about was Aaron fucking Hotchner.

She brushed him off saying she had just had a hard day. He seemed to back off.

The night for her was awkward. Will had noticed. But kept his nose out, he knew she had a hard job. He knew if she wanted to talk about it she would.

She watched her son, the consequences for herself and Hotch's actions were going to be severe, to say the least.

She was lost in thought when her phone buzzed, she never even noticed it. But Will did.

"Honey, it's Hotch, he had sent you a message, you want me to read it?"

She panicked! Shit "No it's fine, I got it" she grabbed the phone of her fiancée.

"Hey, what's got into you?" he smiled at her. She gave him a wide smile

"Nothing...just very protective over my phone you know that"

"What you hiding?"

"Well me an Hotch are having a passionate affair" she gave him a wry smile. She wish she hadn't said it. Because if it came out know he will think she was mocking his trust in her.

"Yeah right okay, darling. Of course you are" he walked away laughing.

She Read the text message

"Sorry"

That was all it said. She typed her reply out and sent.

"I think we need to talk"

He didn't take long to reply to that.

"okay, I have a lot to say and no doubt so do you x"