"Sebastian!" I yelled out.
"Yes, young master?" Sebastian said once he was in front of my desk in my study.
I frowned at him, looking at my demon butler. I shook my head before getting out of the chair. I walked over to Sebastian, watching him with my one eye.
"Get me some tea and something to eat." I sat on my desk, my legs crossed over each other as I mess with my green coat before looking up at Sebastian.
He nodded and walked off as I picked up the paper, reading about a new criminal. I sighed quietly, frowning a bit as I continued to read.
"Sebastian, did you know about this?" I turned the paper over once he walked in, showing him the headline on the paper.
"No, my lord."
"Have we received any letters from the queen?"
I got the same response from him, "No, my lord."
I sighed and got off my desk, grabbing the tea from the tray. I paced the room as I held the paper in the other hand, reading it as I frowned and sipped my tea. I was troubled that the queen wouldn't ask for my help yet, but she'd ask me soon, correct? I shook my head and put the paper back on my desk before sighing quietly.
"Is something wrong?" I jumped mentally as I heard Sebastian's deep voice. I looked at him, seeing his smirk.
"You're still in here? Don't you have to make lunch or something?!" I almost seemed to yell at him.
He looked at his watch and his eyes widened a bit. "You're correct, young master. I must me going."
I sighed again as he walked out of the room. I started to organize my desk since I had nothing better to do. I took off my eye patch as I worked, rubbing my eyes as I blinked, looking up at the walls. I slowly laid down on my desk as I had flash backs of my past, the fire, the pain, then Sebastian coming to save me...
Sebastian...
I sighed quietly. I seemed to grow fond of him... I liked him a bit more than a master should, but maybe those feelings are because he's saved my life...
"Only to take it again." I whispered.
"Take what, master?"
I jumped and landed on the hard floor of my study, growling up at Sebastian.
"Never do that again!"
He avoided that, "Why is your eye patch off? Did you want to give me an order?"
"No. I just wanted it off." I frowned at him before looking at the tray of food. I scoffed. "I'm not hungry... Give it to some wild cats outside or something." I got up off the floor, grabbing my eye patch and trying to put it back on.
I felt two, strong hands helping me. "I don't need your help!" I pulled away after he was done.
"Wild cats?" He asked, smirking.
"Yes! No, you may not have any!" I walked to my room, a scowl set on my face.
I sat down on my bed, pulling off my eye patch again before throwing it to the ground. I hated how he treated me like a child sometimes...! I sighed, I guess that's just how butlers acted. But none of the butlers did that type of stuff before the fire...
I closed my eyes and sighed, slowing my breathing and curling up into a ball. I heard the door open and light footsteps walking over to me. I felt my bed dip a bit and a small sigh.
"Young master... I hope you know what I do for you is not out of our contract, but because I-" Sebastian was cut off by a loud crash out in the hall. He sighed again. He started to undress me as I pretended to be asleep, putting me into a night gown before kissing my cheek and whispering in my ear. "Sweetest dreams, Ciel..." I felt my hair being pushed back before I heard my door closed.
My eyes flew open after a few seconds, my cheeks heating up. Did... Did he just kiss me? And... Did I enjoy it?

I woke up to a light touch on my cheek. I groaned and slowly got up, rubbing my eyes. I gasped quietly when I saw Sebastian right there in my face. I blushed a bit, frowning quickly.
"I thought I told you to stop doing things like that to me." I whined.
He just laughed and started to dress me.
I scoffed and rolled my eyes, moving to the side of the bed as I watched him put on my shoes. I crossed my arms over my blue coat, frowning down at him.
"Is everything alright, young master?" Sebastian asked as he finished.
"Yes, yes. Now... Leave me be." I watched him walk out of the room.
I quickly touched my eye, gasping as I realized he didn't put on my eye patch. I scowled and looked around for it, trying to figure out where I threw it last night. I sat on my bed and pouted a bit once I couldn't find it. I laid back down on my bed, closing my eyes as my stomach growled.
"Breakfast, sir." Sebastian said after opening my door.
I nodded and looked at him before he smirked, knowing I couldn't find my eye patch. He set the tray down in my lap as I started to eat.
"Found it." He said once he bent down to look under the bed. I stared at his butt, blushing deeply and quickly looking away... I was NOT just doing that... Was I?
He climbed on my bed behind me, putting on my eye patch as I ate.
"The queen has requested that you take a break from your detective work because it's your fourteenth birthday tomorrow." Sebastian told me.
I sighed. "Whatever she wishes. I'd rather not stop, but since she wants me to..." I finished eating and adjusted my eye patch, sighing quietly.
"Leave me, Sebastian... Until my violin lessons." I said as I got off my bed, seeing him still sit there. "Or I'll just go to my study..." I watched him smirk as I left the room and into my study, seeing today's paper on my desk. I started to read.
Killings... Cops are 'tracking him down'... Blah, blah, blah. Why couldn't I help? It's my birthday. What about it? It's nothing special... Just reminds me of how I was brought on to this miserable planet... To be honest, I wish my mother couldn't have children... I wish my aunt could. It wouldn't ruin my mother.
She was strong... But my aunt wasn't. She loved my father and she couldn't have him... She was happy when she could have a child of her own, but then she wasn't when it was taken away.
I shook my head as I read before something caught my eye. 'Jack the Ripper... Back?'
No. She isn't back. She's dead. She almost killed me. But I loved her...
I threw the paper to the ground, frowning. "No!" I screamed at the paper before walking out of my studies and into the garden.
Everything I love seems to go, hm? That's why I can't be happy... That's why I can't truly tell Lizzie how much I do adore her. I don't love her... But I do like her. As my cousin, not a bride-to-be.
I walked around the garden, feeling the snow hit my cheeks as I look up in the light gray sky. I ripped off my eye patch in frustration, stomping away from it as I walk into the woods that surrounded the manor. I walked and walked, feeling the trees and twigs and anything else there was pulling and tearing my jacket. Angry tears came to my eyes. Fourteen years... Fourteen years I've been on this earth and I've done nothing but cause problems!
"Why?! Huh?! Why do I have to be put in this miserable hell?!" I screamed out. I looked at the falling snow, seeing how quickly it covered my path. I sat down on a log and scowled before I sighed, loosing all emotion. I stared up at the sky, blinking slowly.
"This isn't hell, master. Hell is an evil place were demons like me come from," A dark, deep, perfect voice whispered in my ear.
"You act as if you're a monster, Sebastian." I sighed and turned to look at him, but he wasn't there... Not even foot prints in the thick snow. I shook my head and turned back around before gasping, opening my mouth to scream before a gloved hand covered my mouth.
"Now, now, sir, you mustn't scream. Someone will think you're getting killed." He smiled, showing his perfect white teeth.
I frowned, growling quietly as I lifted my left hand to slap him. He quickly caught it with his other hand, my mouth still covered.
"Come on... You must be cold. You're even paler than me..." He lifted me up in his arms and ran back to the manor.
"Your cloths are ruined." He said as he laid me down on my bed, undressing me. I felt his warm hands on my body and shuddered, biting my lower lip.
"I'm freezing... Now shut up..." I whispered, shivering now.
I looked at Sebastian as he started to take off my shirt. I frowned a bit before pulling him into a hug, shivering even more as I felt his warmth.
"Master, what are you doing?" He said,a bit unsettled.
"Trying to keep warm..." I whispered as I closed my eyes, his arms wrapping around me in a soft embrace...
"Sebastian... "
"Yes, young master?"
I paused for a second, waiting, counting my rapid heartbeats before I whispered some more.
"Kiss... Me..."
Sebastian looked at me before roughly pressing his lips against mine, kissing me. I kissed back just as roughly, pressing my slightly naked body against his. I kept myself close as his tongue slid over my bottom lip. I slowly opened my mouth, but before he could enter, I pushed him away, scooting away.
"Out. Now." I said in a serious tone. I watched him bow and walk out.
I kept my shirt on, seeing that it was the only thing I had on at the moment and curled up under my covers, emotionless...
"It was just a kiss..." I kept whispering.
It meant nothing...
Right?
I didn't have feelings for a man!
D-did I...?