Rin POV
Hi there. I know you would not say hi back to me because I know you do not like me.
You do?
Thank you!
I am a bit different and weird if you compared me with other Japanese people. Even if I am a Japanese Person, which I already am, I do not like reading hiragama words. That's why I never try to bother to read it. I understand Japanese but I always have problem when it comes to writing them. All of my friends think I am weird just because I do not know how to read Japanese and they often bullied me. They called me names and made fun of me saying that ' I am an alien from another planet or something ' behind my back. I am a person too, like them, and I have feelings too! Sometimes, it's just too painful for me to live in this world. They never get me and never even tried to understand me. Sometimes, I kept asking myself. Why am I even born for? Why am I here right now? I am really grateful that my parents gave birth to me but I really wished that they never did.
"Rin! Please read the next paragraph!" My English teacher called.
"Okay," I stood up and started to read the paragraph full of English words. "Japanese language is borrowed from Chinese. At first, the Japanese used many Chinese characters from Chinese words, as they did not have any equivalent. Eventually, the Japanese adopted them into their own language, using the characters for Japanese words for the same meanings."
"Good Job!" the English teacher exclaimed out. "Everyone, you should followed Rin's ways of reading and improving her English."
"Pff… Show off," I heard Miki mumble while looking all piss off.
They did not understand me! They knew that I loved reading English novel and they knew my English were better than them but yet they still think I am showing off my talent for English. Why can't they understand and just accept me for who I am…
The next bell rang, and our subject has changed from English to Japanese, my worst subject of all the subjects I am taking! Our teacher walked into the class with her hands carrying our mini test I took last class. Oh boy, I know I didn't do well.
"Kagami Rin!" She handed me my test paper. "It was really bad! Please Improve. F!"
The whole class laughed at my grade, even my friends. It was really embarrassing! My face was redden as an apple and my friends didn't stood up for me, again.
It was break time! I was taking out my lunch box when my so called friend, Neru , walked up to my desk.
"Hey Rin! Wanna follow me to the school's canteen?" she asked.
"No thanks," I simply replied her.
"I understand," Then she moved on to Miki.
"No thanks," I heard Miki replied.
"Oh come on! Please`~" Neru begged her.
"Oh fine," Miki signed out and both of them disappear from my side. Neru never even tried to ask me twice and beg me when I said no but yet, she did it to Miki. It really hurts my heart when I think about it. She never tried, she never even think of trying it to me.
'I need to sing' I thought to myself. I stood up and ran out of my class. To where, you asked? Well, there is only one place that I could sing to express out all my feelings and that is, the school's rooftop. It is really a great place to be when I have a feeling like this. There is usually no one here since the school's garden place is a famous place for student to enjoy their lunch.
This town of night
Is lit by a light
The sound of a creaking gear and a wheel
It echoed as I walked
I don't even have an address to go to
And I'm not able to walk well
Why must I have been born?
Why is my heart the colour of silver?
In distant old days, that person spoke to me
"You are a special doll"
Dancing and singing
As he praised me
Even now I sing, always
He will not awake his eyes and also sing
Why must I have been born?
I'll only continue singing for eternity
Someday I'll sleep
And go to the wonderful place where that person is
My wish does not come true
I sing, live and break alone
Time passes
And I even forget songs
I hurry to the place where that person sleeps
While I drag my cracked body
I fall down many times
The place where you're able to see the sea is attached with flowers
Now, I'll go to sleep
Together with that person
My wish will come true
"It was enough that you lived alone"
I heard that person's voice, it was close by
In my dreams, I heard the voice many times
It resounds kindly in my heart
A peaceful light
Envelopes me
And I smile
I smile
I stood there and stared at the ground. It kinda makes me feel a little better. I loved to sing more than anyone. My friends do not know about me and my singing talent and I planned to keep it that way or else they will say that I am showing off again.
"Were you the one who sing that song?" A voice asked me. Shit! I turn around and saw a young blonde haired boy who has the same height as mine. "Well, were you?" he stands there and waited for my replied.
I quickly brushed pass him and ran away as fast as I can so that he couldn't chase after me.
After school, my friends and I were walking out of the school front gate.
"Seriously Rin! There is a different between writing Japanese and English! English is really hard and you find it easy and on the other hand Japanese is really easy but you find it hard to write! You are a weirdo!" Miki laughed.
After that, my friends and I went separate ways home. Actually, I was the only one. My friends are taking the same bus home and I was taking the train. I stood there as I watch the bus that my friends are ridding home drove away. I could see that Neru and Miki are enjoying laughing with each other on the bus, without me.
I walked my way to the train station and bought myself a ticket. I was waiting for the train under the subway and I felt that someone I staring at me. Someone is! This is getting creepy. Ah! The train arrived! Many people were rushing out of the train and some were rushing in. I dashed into the train and it's was a bit crowded today. I couldn't find a seat so I have to stand up.
"Ah! It is you!" The person who is standing in front of me exclaimed. I look up and it was the blonde boy from earlier at the roof top. "Nice to know we were taking the same train home. What your name? "
"Kagami Rin," I replied in a dull voice as I look away to another direction.
"Mine's Kagamine Len!" He smiled. "Were you the one who sing that song earlier?"
I gave him a nod.
"You have such a wonderful voice," he praised me. My eyes grew widen as he say that to me. It is the first time that someone has praised me.
"Ah, the next stop is mine," he said. "What grade and class are you from?"
"I-I am a 10 grader and I am in class 3" I stuttered.
"Great! It's been a nice knowing you , Kagami Rin!" He gave me a peace sign and got off the train.
"Rin! Welcome home!" my mom greeted me as I enter my house.
" I'm back mom!" I shouted out.
"How was school? Any interesting happen?" She asked me.
"No," I lied. "It is the same as always but I have fun today mom! My friends were great!" I lied again.