A/N: After being left pretty disappointed with Lost Girl Season 4 I decided to write this, my take on how Season 5 should go. I have more than a few ideas, but the main two things I'll be sorting out are; getting Kenzi back from Valhalla and fixing Valkubus. It's going to be angsty, it's going to contain some pretty bad language, and it's going to end with everything fixed and as it should be. So settle back, get ready for a bumpy ride and please re-take your seats on the flying ship Valkubus.

Chapter One

Bo knew Kenzi's death was going to hit everyone pretty hard, she herself felt completely empty and numb, Dyson had thrown himself into his work, and Lauren was basically following Bo around like a lost puppy constantly asking her if she was okay. The biggest surprise for Bo was Tamsin's reaction. The Valkyrie had completely closed down. Shutting out everyone and everything that reminded her of the young human. She had spent every day so drunk that she barely remembered her own name. The warm, open Tamsin was long gone, the cold hearted, emotionless Valkyrie was back with a vengeance. The only times that Bo had seen Tamsin was when they were both at the Dal, Tamsin spent her nights passed out at Dyson's, unable to face the room she shared with Kenzi. Lauren had suggested to Bo that they get someone in to redecorate the room, removing all traces of the little Russian who used to call it home. Bo wasn't ready to do that, she wasn't ready to say goodbye to Kenzi, she didn't think she would ever be ready.

Kenzi had been Bo's link to her humanity, she made her feel normal and special all at the same time. Both girls had been lost before they met, Kenzi running from place to place from the age of 15 due to her abusive step-father, Bo running from place to place due to the fear of what she was. Kenzi made Bo realise that she wasn't a monster, she helped her embrace her inner-Succubus, made her see that she could be whatever she wanted to be. Bo didn't think she would ever be ready to let that go. There had to be a way to get Kenzi back, to bring her home, but Bo knew she would need the Valkyrie to do it. She needed Tamsin.

That morning Bo walked down the stairs of the Clubhouse, the silence was deafening, she missed the little things. The cursing in Russian, the loud music, the sound of gunfire as Kenzi saved the world from zombies. She also missed the sounds of Kenzi and Tamsin having a disagreement about who made the best coffee, the smell of pancakes as Tamsin cooked breakfast to help Kenzi get rid of the hangover she had from the night before. The Clubhouse was empty, it no longer felt like home to Bo. She spent as little time there as possible, always heading to the Dal as early as she could, or she'd stop by the Dark compound to see Lauren. Today she was going to the police station, she needed to talk to Tamsin, and if there was one person who would know where the Valkyrie was it would be Dyson.

Bo found the wolf sitting behind his desk, the desk opposite him still sitting empty. In a matter of weeks Dyson had lost Hale and Kenzi, the empty desk a constant reminder to him that things would never be the same.

"Hey…" Bo said, walking over to the desk.

"Bo," Dyson said, looking up at her, "what brings you here?"

Bo could tell from Dyson's eyes that he hadn't been sleeping, it bothered her to see him hurting so much.

"I need to talk to Tamsin," Bo said, "Do you know where she is?"

Dyson looked at the clock on the wall.

"She'll either still be asleep, getting drunk at the Dal, or she'll be at the graveyard." Dyson said.

Bo nodded.

"Okay…" she said, with a little smile, "thanks…"

"Are you okay?" he asked, "I mean I know it's a stupid question and everything, but how are you coping?"

"I'm okay," Bo said, "as for coping, I'm not, I will get her back Dyson."

Dyson nodded. He knew that Bo would go to the ends of the Earth and back to bring Kenzi home. He also knew she couldn't do it alone. He knew she needed Tamsin, he also knew that Tamsin was nothing but an empty shell.

"Don't push her too hard…" he said, "if you do you'll get a hostile reaction."

"How is she?" Bo asked.

"She's closed down," Dyson said, "I barely get a word out of her when she gets to the loft in the early hours of the morning. I don't think she's ever felt a loss like this, it's new for her and she doesn't know how to deal with it."

"Well shutting us all out isn't going to help is it," Bo said, "we're all hurting, we're all missing Kenzi…"

"Just don't expect too much." Dyson said.

x-x

The first place that Bo checked for Tamsin was the graveyard, as she approached Kenzi's grave she knew she wouldn't have to look anywhere else. The Valkyrie was sitting cross-legged in front of the headstone, a bottle of Vodka in her hand. Bo stopped near a tree, close to the grave but far enough away that Tamsin didn't know she was there. The heartbreak that was written across the Valkyrie's face making her eyes burn with fresh tears.

"Oh and another thing," Tamsin said, "leaving me alone was a shit thing to do meat-bag… I mean I knew I'd lose you at some point, but I didn't expect it to be so soon… you made me understand what living really was… and then you just fucking decide to check out before I was ready to let you go…"

The tears started to silently fall from Bo's eyes, she knew deep down that she shouldn't be listening to this, but she couldn't walk away.

"This is why I don't let people in," Tamsin continued, "this is why I don't let people get close… I can't deal with this shit… I need you Kenz… you shouldn't have even been there… I should have kept you safe…"

Bo had heard enough, slowly she walked over to the grave.

"Hey…" she said.

She saw Tamsin quickly wipe the tears from her eyes before she stood up and turned to face her.

"How long have you been here?" Tamsin asked.

"Just got here." Bo replied.

Tamsin nodded a little.

"I didn't realise anyone else would be here," Bo said, "Do you want me to leave you alone?"

"No," Tamsin said, "I'm just leaving anyway…"

Tamsin turned back and took one last look at the headstone, walking over to it she ran her fingers over the gold writing.

"Tamsin…" Bo said, tears again building in her eyes.

"Don't…" Tamsin said, not looking at Bo.

"I miss her too." Bo said.

"I said don't…" Tamsin replied, looking at Bo.

"Don't shut us out Tamsin." Bo said.

"What else do you suggest Succubus?" Tamsin asked, "we all sit around and cry about it together, sharing all our memories… she raised me Bo… she's the closest thing I've ever had to a… family and now she's gone. Without her nothing else matters."

"I get it T," Bo said, "I really do… please don't push me away."

Tamsin laughed a little.

"Whatever," she said, "later Succubus."

With that Tamsin turned and walked away, leaving Bo standing there looking at her best friend's final resting place.

"Not final…" Bo said, "I will get you back Kenz… I wish you were here to help me deal with Tamsin though, Trick told me that I need a Valkyrie to get me into Valhalla, I need her… I miss you Kenzi…"

x-x

Later that day Bo was sitting on the sofa at the Clubhouse when the door opened and Tamsin walked in.

"Hey…" Bo said, standing up.

"I'm only here to pick up some things," Tamsin said, "I'm staying with Dyson…"

"Okay…" Bo replied, "Your things are still upstairs, the room… everything is still there."

Tamsin nodded and headed up stairs. As soon as she got to the top of the stairs she stopped. The room was exactly like Kenzi had left it, she hadn't been back there since it happened. She walked over to the wardrobe where her clothes were, taking the bag out of the bottom of the wardrobe she started to put her things in it, not looking at Kenzi's side of the room. She couldn't. Tamsin walked over to the chest of drawers, opening the top drawer to get her t-shirts out, before remembering that she and Kenzi had rearranged the drawers, moving Kenzi's stuff into the top one. Tamsin clenched her jaw as she took out Kenzi's favourite over-sized t-shirt that she used to sleep in when it was too warm for PJ's. Sitting on her bed Tamsin couldn't stop the tears falling as she brought the shirt up to her face and breathed in the scent of the human who had changed her life in more ways that she would ever know.

Bo stood on the stairs as Tamsin broke down. Against her better judgement she walked into the room and sat on the bed next to the Valkyrie. Without saying a word she put her arm around Tamsin's shoulder and the blonde broke down even more.

"It's okay Tamsin…" Bo said, her own tears starting to fall, "I've got you…"

"I don't know what I'm going to do…" Tamsin said, "Every morning I wake up thinking it was all just a really bad fucked up dream… then I remember… why does it hurt so much?"

"That's what love feels like…" Bo said softly, "we'll get her back Tamsin, we'll bring her home…"

"You can't just walk into Valhalla and take a soul," Tamsin said, "it doesn't work that way…"

"So explain to me how it works." Bo said.

Tamsin wiped her tears, pulled away from Bo and stood up.

"She's gone Bo," Tamsin said, "there's no way to get her back, she's dead and there's nothing you or anyone else can do to change that."

"You can…" Bo said, "We can…"

Tamsin shook her head a little.

"No…" she said, "we can't… we've got to let her go and move on."

"Because that's working so well for you," Bo said, finally snapping, "you're hiding at the bottom of a vodka bottle Tamsin, you're not moving on, you're not letting her go."

"She's all I had." Tamsin said.

"You still have me." Bo said, "I need you Tamsin."

"I never had you in the first place Bo…" Tamsin replied, "You have Lauren and Dyson, you don't need me, you never did."

x-x

Bo was still sitting on Tamsin's bed, long after the Valkyrie had stormed out. Perhaps she had been too harsh with her. She needed Tamsin to not give up, but when Tamsin didn't fight back Bo realised that Tamsin had already given up.

x-x

Tamsin was sitting at the bar at the Dal. It didn't matter how much she drank the pain still didn't go away. Kenzi had raised her, she had given her the family she never had. She may have been Bo's heart, but to Tamsin she was everything. She was the person Tamsin could turn to when she needed to vent, when she needed to get something off her chest, she was always there if Tamsin needed her. Now Tamsin needed her more than ever and she wasn't there. Everyone had someone. Bo had both Lauren and Dyson, Tamsin had never felt more alone in her life.