AN: Just a short fic centering on Elizabeth's thoughts, set late season 3. Written for the LJ community Sparkathon challenge for April. Write a fic based on the word 'need'.
Indispensable
(Need: urgent want, as of something requisite)
(Requisite: required or necessary for a particular purpose, position, etcetera; indispensible)
"General, we need him."
Three years ago I said those words to Jack O'Neill. Three years ago I knew it was true. I knew my expedition would need him. He was a smart military man, he had the Ancient gene. Though his record wasn't shined upon, I could tell from it he would try his hardest to save any one of us, if ever need be. Though at the time he wasn't in charge of anything (rather, being punished), I knew he was important.
My instincts with the Major held true. He is now a very capable military commander. He is doing a damn good job and I know Atlantis wouldn't last long, or thrive as well at the very least without him. He has saved many lives, daring to go out even at controversial times. I feel that if he left we would sink back to the bottom of the ocean. All that water would cascade and crash down on us and the city would be lost.
Perhaps that's a bit dramatic.
Not long after I met him I realized that whenever he stepped in a room my eyes were drawn to him. I started to take in every bit of emotion that played across his face. I noticed myself smiling at him often. I had to try hard to keep myself composed whenever he was in trouble. I felt my breath catch when we touched ever so slightly. I ached after that kiss Phoebus initiated because I wanted another one. I was in love. And falling deeper and deeper every day.
"General, we need him."
Three years ago I said those words. I told it to Jack, I told it to the IOA. And now I'm telling it to myself, but the 'we' has changed to 'I'.
I can be myself around John, I can let out my fears. He gives me a lot of my strength. I depend on him greatly. And that doesn't bother me because I feel perfectly happy, as he's holding me tight in his arms, with the fact that I need him, and the fact that I know he needs me as well.