Deadened Heart
Stop! Wait! Please Don't!
I love her.
Do it! It's necessary! She deserves it!
This is for revenge.
What should I…
Who am I…
…These two conflicting voices are?
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Gripping the steel in my hand tighter as they argue.
Young voice, old voice.
High voice, low voice:
Sharper, threatening,
Passionate, menacing.
Fingers twitching, trigger tightening.
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Mother, Father, Nannally, Euphie,
"Lelouch?"
Speaking to me dazedly,
I did this to her.
Everything is my fault.
It was so right and then so wrong in seconds.
Too heart breaking,
I don't believe I can stand this;
Red does not suit her.
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Decisions are forever,
And I can feel that other masked figure
Filling up the crevices of my doubt and…
"Goodbye, Euphemia."
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Release of tension along with something else…
That first voice is gone.
But so is she.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this poem! I hope you enjoyed it. If you want to, drop me review; because, in all honesty, it will take you less than two minutes to write one and it will fill up your 'Good Things I Did Today' quota. : )
Well I just finished watching Code Geass a couple a days ago and it was tragic. Very, very tragic... But that's why I enjoyed it so much! Talk about angst! Anyways if you didn't completely understand what the poem was about I'll explain it.
Spoiler warning! This is what I think might have been going through Lelouch's head as he watched the SAF fall and as he shot Euphie. I tried to write in an abstract style with no rhyming to distill the sense realness and 'did that really just happen?' that I felt while watching the episode. I purposefully made this choppy to create a sense of tension.
My idea for the two voices which Lelouch mentions are Zero and Lelouch's better side, the one that says Euphie was his first true love. I think of Zero and Lelouch as seperate personalities, although similar, they are different as well. At the end I imagine the better part of Lelouch stepping between Euphemia and gun while Zero finally takes control and shoots the gun. Figuratively killing Lelouch's heart and literally killing Euphemia.
Until next time - Kuroi Fushichou