A/n: Disclaimer I do not own the Clique!

This one-shot is very personal to me because it is about my ex-boyfriend and if you know me at all you would know that I rarely ever write anything about my own life or the people in my life so it truly does mean a lot to me. I think a lot of you will be able to relate to this one-shot as well and I hope you enjoy it. Even though I know my ex will never read this it is still good to let go of everything that you have built up inside of you, mostly the pain that has been captivating your soul.

Thanks everyone for being amazing readers!

Peace, love, and Halo.

If you and I lived in a different world and we were both different people, we would still be together. If you and I never lost faith in the world we wouldn't be broken. If you and I actually tried we could have saved love.

"I heard that he is with that skank Olivia Ryan." Alicia said as she tried to earn some gossip points, but I didn't care about the points all I cared about was him.

"She's not a skank, she just has his love." I said as I climbed out of the Ranger Rover it was the truth, Olivia never did anything wrong, he just doesn't love me anymore so I can't be mad at some poor innocent girl for that.

"Oh well Mass, you deserve someone much better than him." Claire said nicely trying to obviously cheer me up but I don't want to "cured" I like being broken in some weird way.

"Thanks Claire, but I really don't want to deal with the male species right now." I told her the truth then I walked up to the familiar brick building and entered BOCD high for the last time.

I won't lie it pains me to see him holding her hand in the hallways and it is a dagger in my heart when he tilts up her chin to kiss her. If he only knew how much I would kill to be her. I, Massie Block would love to be Olivia Ryan and I never thought that I would ever say that.

"Hey Mass, what's up?" Derrick Harrington asked me as I slammed my locker shut trying to rid the picture of you kissing Olivia Ryan out of my mind. Derrick and I have had a rough past but we are best friends now and I have you to thank for that.

"Just heading to class," I paused as I saw your eyes blaze through mine from across the hall. I don't know why you are staring when you have the perfect life in your hands now that I'm gone. "Walk with me?"

"Sure." Derrick said and I smiled for the first time but it was only to show you that I can move on too but it's all an act. I don't want to move on but you are forcing me too. If only you and I could have worked through our differences than maybe it would still be me and you instead of you and Olivia and Derrick and I.

Flashback:

"Tell me something I don't know." You said with your signature smirk that makes my knees grow weak every time you lips curl up in that sexy and mischievous look that you wear so well.

"Well I secretly want us to be more than what we are now. I can see myself with you in the future and I like-no love how easily this is going so far." I told him the truth because I can trust him with anything which I never thought I would be able to do with anyone.

"I can see you being my wife someday and that is a promise." you said before you leaned in and kissed me with so much passion it almost frightened me.

End of flashback:

You lied you never kept that promise instead you broke up with me and you took a piece of me that I will never get back and that piece is my heart. Sometimes I wonder if I could go back to the day I met you, would I turn the other way or would I still chose you?

Five Years later:

"Massie, you look beautiful." Dylan, Kristen, Alicia, and Claire gushed as I stepped out of the dressing room. I knew they were right that I do indeed look beautiful but that is how you're supposed to look on your wedding day, right?

"Can I talk to the bride alone?" Your voice sent chills up my spine when you made your presence known. I invited you but I never thought you would come since we haven't seen each other yet alone talked to one another since high school ended.

"What are you doing here?" I asked wondering why you would show up after all of these years.

"Well it is your wedding and I wouldn't miss it for the world." You said nicely as you stood in front of me in your all black Armani tux.

"It could have been your wedding too if you kept your promise," I stabbed coldly because even after all these years the pain is still here. "You know sometimes I wonder if we lived in a different world and we were different people if we would still be together?"

"I don't think much would change, we just were caught up in a fantasy it wasn't real love," You said meanly and it reminded me of the all times you were so blatantly mean to me for no apparent reason. I wonder if you were truly born cold blooded? Or if that too is an act. "We didn't know love back then and now we both can see that our love wasn't worth it. We would have failed."

"You never gave us the chance to know because you were too scared of getting hurt of opening yourself up to someone who could love you forever." I told him how I truly felt about us.

"It was never worth the fight."

"Cam, you gave up not only on me but you also gave up on the world and what kills me is you still don't know that I would do anything for you. How much is it going to take for you to see that I truly loved you and I would have given you my all?" I asked you because I want to know the answers to all my questions that I have been asking myself over the years. Do you still love me enough to turn back time? Or will you runaway like you did before?

"Goodbye Massie." and with that said I watched you fade out of my life forever. Even though you didn't answer my question, your body language said it all. Love wasn't worth it for you and I need someone who believes love is worth it. I found the guy who believes love is worth it and in a couple of minutes I will become Massie Jillian Harrington even though in my dreams you and I never parted our ways and I am still yours. However that is why dreams are not reality because reality is never that good as your dreams.

"Bye Cam." I said to myself but it was the relief of all the pain that I had built up over the years that I agonized over you.

If you and I lived in a different world and we both were different people...it wouldn't change a damn thing because you and I are too different to be with each other. Our love would have failed to live on.

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