"You nearly died today,' he says. 'I almost shot you. Why didn't you shoot me, Tris?'
'I couldn't do that,' I say. 'It would have been like shooting myself.'
He looks pained and leans closer to me, so his lips brush mine when he speaks."
We kiss and I rest my head on his shoulder, intertwining my hand in his. I close my eyes and try to sleep just a little, but my mind is running as fast as the train. As we continue on the train farther towards the edge of the city, I feel his breath on the top of my head and smile as he kisses the top of my head. It doesn't even matter that my brother and his father are right next to us, this is the first time in a long time that something feels right.
I am startled back into consciousness with the sound of Tobias' yell. I jolt up and see him, blank-faced and sitting across the car. I wipe my wet cheeks and clear my swollen throat, pained by screaming in my sleep as my dreams were plagued with thoughts of Will and Tobais killing me while under the simulation.
Caleb and Marcus, now sleeping, didn't seem phased by the scream; making me wonder if I had also slept through many. I slowly approach him and take his hands in mine. He looks up at me after a few minutes and continues to just stare into my eyes. I remain calm and rub my thumb against his palm. I move to embrace him and he turns away, screaming once more and burying his head in his hands. I start to cry and he screams again. I notice his pain as he hears me cry and try to stifle my tears. I slowly begin to speak to him.
"Tobias Eaton. I am in love with you. Please talk to me." I say calmly.
"HOW?" he screams breathlessly. "HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME? I HURT YOU!"
"That wasn't you, Tobias." I plead. "You didn't hurt me. You never could."
"THAT IS BS!" he screams "IT SICKENS ME THAT YOU WOULD LET ME DO THIS TO YOU!"
"Tobias, listen to me!" I cry. "I love you; nothing will ever stop me from loving you. I don't understand why you are so upset with yourself. Will you please stop? I can't do anything else."
"I'VE BEEN AWAKE, JUST LISTENING TO YOU SCREAM AND CRY, ASKING ME NOT TO KILL YOU, HOW DO YOU THINK I'M SUPPOSED TO REACT?"
"IT WAS JUST A DREAM. PLEASE LISTEN TO ME!" I yell.
He stops yelling and turns back to his corner. I take a deep breath and sit myself on his lap. He hesitates, but I don't allow him to push me away. I put my hand on his cheek and move my lips close to his, I speak, our lips touching; "You are mine. I am yours. We are each other's. You are my love, forever and always." I pull him close to me and kiss him. He reluctantly kisses me back, but soon complies and we become consumed in one another, forgetting the reality of the hell-hole of a world we now live in; being us. Just us. Together forever and always.