If I wasn't here tomorrow would anybody care
If my time was up I want to know you were happy I was there
If I wasn't here tomorrow would anyone lose sleep
If I wasn't hard and hollow then maybe you would miss me
Would it Matter- Skillet
"I'm so tired of being numb…please, someone help me feel. Please…just help me."
Matthew stood limply, staring out the window. This house was so empty. No one was there to smile anymore. After Alfred had moved out, he had grown a little more paralyzed. It had become a little harder to breathe, to walk, to scream. Finally Matthew Williams had become completely forgotten.
~~MW ~~
"Alfred, don't go! I don't mind if you stay! Every morning we can talk and laugh…we can and I'll even make you pancakes!" The Canadian forced a slight smile. "So just stay…"
"Sorry, bro! Arthur'll be waiting for me. I'll take you up on those pancakes though!" He said as he piled boxes into his truck and climbed into the driver's seat. Matthew watched with tired eyes as his brother gave a short wave, and said nothing more than a quick 'See ya'
Then he was gone. In the end, the "hero" hadn't saved him.
It hadn't started then. The pain was something he couldn't remember living without. Sometimes Matty lay in bed wondering if he had been born wanting to die. If that wasn't the case, it was more than likely that it had all come from being ignored, forgotten, unloved, and used.
"My own brother even threw me away for Arthur." He thought bitterly. "Nobody would miss me. I'll do it. Who the hell would it hurt? Fine…" He did no more than think all of these things, but it felt like the words were being screamed at him. "I'll just go ahead and die, then"
He gritted his teeth and his fist collided with the wall as he finally allowed himself to cry. He wasn't ready just yet. Tomorrow would have to come, so he could bid farewell to all that he loved. Matthew would see the sun rise one final time, and then it could end.
Just a short intro! Please stick with it! It was a request, but I'm happy to write it.
I don't own Hetalia or it's characters - They belong to Hidekaz Himeruya
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