Put one Paw in Front of The Other
Eclipse From Leah's point of view
Hello my name is Leah Clearwater and I am a wolf. Well part of the time anyway it is what I associate myself with more than anything. People think that I am a female dog and they would be correct in that assumption but what if dear reader, everyone was against you from day one? What if you had to spend almost every waking minute with a guy that you love and hate at the same time. I have had a hard life and I have my rights in being bitchy.
For example, two years ago I was a happy kid in high school with a boyfriend that I loved and I thought loved me. The next thing I know he is missing presumed dead, I look everywhere for him but can't find him. Where is my Sammy. Then he comes back and I know something has changed but I don't know what until he is dating my cousin. My cousin! The ultimate betrayal of kinship. They settle down and when you hear your cousin has been injured a part of you feels concerned and another part believes that she got what she deserved. Stealing away your Sammy like that.
If that is not enough your father the man you have always counted on to be there for you dies. I was utterly and completely alone no father no boyfriend and no friends just a kid brother. Then he gets sick and all hot. The next thing you know he is hanging out with Sam and his friends. After so much that has happened to you the one thing you could count on your brother is gone he has joined the enemy.
All of a sudden I feel strange, power course through me building on my anger it gets bigger and bigger until something snaps inside of me and then refines itself I am a wolf and my ex boyfriend is in my mind. He tells me that the legions surrounding our tribe are true and it is your responsibility to protect the tribe against vampires. I want nothing of him and his band of freaks, no matter how many times he explains impression to me it sounds like a cop out.
Then Jacob who you thought was meagerly emo becomes the happiest go lucky guy in the world. His friend Bella had decided to see him regardless of the fact that she is still seeing that leech.
Jacob goes so far as to invite her to our bonfire, our time to hang out and be normal teenagers. As if we could ever be normal with Quil impressing on a teenager and all the other weird shit we have to deal with. She looks at me every time she gets a chance, there is no way that I will let that leech lover see how much I hurt inside, I keep that hidden from even the pack.
The night of the forks graduation approaches and Jacob Quil and Embry actually go to an after party. Then I am informed of the fact that we will be fighting against newborn vampires, with not so much as an as your leave. We depart and find the Cullens had assembled on mass, Bella's boyfriend Edward I believe his name was our spokesperson and then another of them did some demonstrations. It was all so boring.
I must have been daydreaming because by the time I emerged from my inner, inner walls of my mind the pack is getting ready to go. The next weeks are nothing but preparation for the vampires and then the day finally arrives.
You get left outside, treated as though you were a pup when you are almost as old as the leader, you sulk until you get your chance a vampire escapes and you chase after it. Stupid Jacob fallows you and just when you have the thing he "saves you." getting him wounded in the process.
While he is recovering the stupid female vampire lover decides that she loves her man of ice more than Jacob. She then invites all of us to her wedding. Now that is a laugh as if I would be caught dead at a vampire party let alone a wedding.
Jacob meanwhile goes all catatonic and surly again, I would not mind except for the fact that it was bringing down the pack. You talk to him and explain how you should get over her and he launches Sam's name at me. The pack knows very well how difficult a subject Sam is to me I run off into the woods my mind in turmoil until Sam orders me to become human again. He is clearly playing favorites again, yeah Jacob lost someone he loved to another, big whoop so did I and they never acknowledge the difficulties I go through each day.
I would give anything to not have these wounds hurt so much. Don't you see reader I am portrayed as the big bad wolf because I am different. It seems no matter how many obstacles I face there will be one more around the corner.