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"When I look at you, that's what I see. I see my way home."

She turned around, the wind blowing through her blonde strands as she gazed at him, obviously flattered but also highly confused by his admission. He tried to give her comfort but how was she supposed to react? She barely knew him and, in turn, he barely knew her either and, yet, she was his his way home. His North Star. Ever since he entered her life she wondered how he felt about her. At first she believed his feelings were purely platonic and they probably were but now they were standing on a ship, the dark starry sky above them and he took off part of his armor. If she didn't know better, it would have been the most romantic moment in her life but with Raymond Reddington things were never simple.

Her stomach clenched at the thought that she was only his way home. He didn't say that she was his home. What if she was just a means to an end? A single shiver ran down her spine, causing her to quiver slightly. It shouldn't bother her at all even if it was true but it did and boy, it did bother her a great deal. She craved his closeness since they entered the van but he was her sin eater after all, her savior so it was naturally although it wasn't.

His arm slipped around her smaller form, his palm moving up and down her bare arm to warm her up. If only he knew that he was the reason rather than the coldness. "Let's go inside before you'll get sick.", he suggested in a gentle tone.

Instead of replying or moving she leaned in and closed her arms around him. She released a nervous breath and buried her cheek against his heart which was hammering wildly, telling her that he wasn't as calm as he pretended to be.

"Can we just stay here? Even if just for a minute." She said quietly as she gazed up to Polaris.

With one arm around her waist, he pulled her closer and took a sip from his scotch. How could he deny her this wish when it was also his own? She was safe with him for now and he found himself surprised that her body fitted so perfectly into his like they were made for each other.

He dropped a few light kisses onto her head and breathed her in. She smelled of his soap since he forgot to provide her with toiletries in all this trouble but he didn't care because she smelled like him and the primal male that lived inside of him was beyond proud as if he had her in his possession but he didn't. She wasn't his and would never be.

"I've never thanked you!"

Her palm sneaked back to replace her head on his chest. He crocked his head and frowned as if he had no idea what she should be thankful for. Knowing him, this was most likely what he was thinking.

"Thank you, Red!", she whispered and bit down on her bottom lip. Kneeling down and placing the glass next to her feet, she made a decision. Words were fine but would never made up for what he did. There was no one left but them. It almost sounded romantic if their situation wouldn't have been so dangerous.

Slowly, she made a move to stand up and gripped his shoulders, closing the distance between them, watching his pupils dilate as their lips were only inches apart. He hadn't said anything, yet but his body language betrayed him as he stepped closer and his free hand held her at the small of her back.

His adams apple bobbed beneath the skin on his throat and he could feel his palms becoming sweaty despite of the cool air that surrounded them. What had gotten into her but he didn't dare to ask. In fact, words failed him again. The wind blew her hair directly into her face so he threw his empty tumbler blindly back into the container before he softly stroked her curls behind her ear. He gave in without even attempting to stop her as he always did. It was her decision to make and he would oblige.

Her warm lips brushed against his and it was an electrical contrast to the breezy air, eliciting a breathy hum from his mouth. He wondered more than once how it would feel to be kissed by her. He wondered if his Lizzie was shy or not, if she'd kiss him softly or rough, if her hands would wander over his back or gripping the fabric of his shirt for leverage.

She caught his lower lip between hers, using just the slightest bit of teeth before soothing the spot with the tip of her tongue. Lizzie kissed just like she made her choices, lead by her emotions and god almighty, he loved her emotions the most in this very moment as she pressed her lips upon his more firmly, her fingers clutching on his shoulder and the other gripping his skull in order to keep him close.

As if he would have pulled away anyway.

Red's hand had a steady grip on her waist, the pads of his fingers digging into her flesh that they might leave bruises but neither of them cared because, right now, they weren't so sure that this was really happening.

He felt dizzy as soon as her tongue slipped into his mouth, causing both to gasp in surprise at the intensity, and he wanted nothing more than to wrap her legs around his waist, carry her inside and take it a little farther. How could he not? He was only a man who just dined with a terrific and beautiful woman. But unfortunately this woman was also on the run, he played a significant role in her life and he held answers about their shared past in his hands and now he held also her in his arms.

No!

Pulling back a little, she lifted herself up, standing on tiptoes as her lips peppered two last kisses at the corner of his mouth. He was afraid to open his eyes again, terrified of what he might see or that he would see something he didn't want to see. His tongue ran along his lips, savoring the taste of single malt scotch and Lizzie before his eyelids fluttered open and the sight that greeted him brought him almost down to his knees.

Her smile shouldn't be so bright after she kissed him, her eyes shouldn't sparkle and for the love of god she shouldn't look happy. It was his deepest wish to see her happy but he didn't want to make her happy. Not like this.

He just shouldn't.

"What's wrong?", she asked, tilting her head to the right, frowning.

"Nothing, I was just wondering..." He flicked his tongue back and forth before he pressed the tip against the back of his teeth. "What was this?"

"Other people call 'this' a kiss."

"I know what it is but what was 'this kiss' for?"

"Consider it an experiment.", she replied in a mystical tone while her fingertips grazed the tiny hairs on his wrist.

Red let out a throaty chuckle, his eyes eagerly interested following the movements of her fingers on his arm, asking himself whether he should feel insulted or not but he was, actually, sort of relieved that she didn't say anything which would complicate their already complicated relationship.

"And what did your experiment tell you?"

"Despite the fact that you're a good kisser nothing relevant, yet.", she added with a smile and finally let go of him.

He nodded once in understanding and moved his jaw, thinking of a clever remark but Lizzie rendered him speechless and this occurred far too often recently. "What did you plan to find out?"

She shrugged and her smile brightened. "That's a silly question."

"There're no silly questions, only silly answers."

"Well, okay not silly but yours was a rhetorical question because I'm sure you already know the answer but you need to hear it from me."

He smirked in spite of himself, proud and afraid that she knows him so well even if she didn't know him at all. He never wanted to let anyone in again because it would cause unnecessary pain. "Yeah.", he confirmed in a breath and looked up to the sky.

"I won't tell you tonight though." She turned and walked back inside, swaying her hips a little more than usually and added, "Someday, if you behave."

Shaking his head, he couldn't help but stare at his North Star. She was right. Maybe, someday he would finally arrive.

Home.

Fin.

A/N: This is going to be a one shot collection of Lizzington fics. I need to go back into writing and so far I've lost my muse somehow so what's better than oneshots? :D The rating will change from chapter to chapter but a proper warning will be given. Please, feel free to review.

Ps: I haven't forgotten about my other fics at all but it seemed as if people lost interest which is understandable given my irregular updates. Sorry for that! :/