How did this happen? Mr. Schue gave Quinn my solo. I didn't want to cry, I tried so hard not to. I don't want people to think I'm weak or selfish but I couldn't hold in the urge any longer. Quickly, I ran to the bathroom in fear of being seen by someone.
A mixture of emotions had swept me away. I was angry for so many reasons, angry at Quinn more than anything. She was given my solo, she has Finn right where she wants him, and she has the perfect body. I shouldn't be angry at her for that, it's not her fault. I know I need to get over all this, but the one thing hurting me more than anything right now are my feelings towards Finn.
Yes, I know it's totally wrong to think I have a chance of getting together with a guy who has a girlfriend, especially when his girlfriend is Quinn Fabray. And I don't just mean 'hooking up', I mean really being with him...emotionally. Not to say that I wouldn't enjoy the physical part either... I still remember the feeling of his plum lips against mine, his sweet cosmo flavoured tongue parting my lips. No! Snap out of it, he feels nothing towards me, it was a mistake, he made that quite evident by the fact that he ran off.
As I left the bathroom, with tissues in my hands brushing away the tears from under my eyes, I heard a voice call out my name. Immediately I knew who it was.
"Finn... uh... hi" before I could say anything else I felt his warm hand press against my shoulder, and it was nice, it felt comforting. "Are you okay?" he generously asked, "that was so uncool for Mr. Schue to give Quinn your solo, he knows how much glee means to you". With some confusion I replied "Why are you here? Shouldn't you be off celebrating with Quinn or something?"
"Rachel, I care about you, this has nothing to do with Quinn"
I was going to lose it; those four words 'I care about you' meant more than they should to me, way to much more. But I had to respond and I didn't know what to say, finally I just said something I thought sounded rational. "You shouldn't be here with me Finn, you have a girlfriend"
Before Finn could reply to my comment involving Quinn and himself, I started crying again and this time I couldn't just run away and hide, my knees buckled beneath me and I fell to the ground, but once again Finn was there. Instead of placing his hand on my shoulder like before, he pulled me against his warm body and let me rest my head against him, as my tears flowed out of my eyes and down my cheeks.
We stayed there in the middle of the corridor, in silence (other than my occasional sobs), for what seemed like ages, although it was probably more like 3 minutes. But then Finn slightly pulled away and the silence was broken.
"Rachel, glee rehearsal is going to be finished soon and I think we should go somewhere else before everyone sees you crying"
I didn't respond immediately, I was kind of embarrassed at my random outburst of tears. "Thanks for being here for me Finn, but I'm okay now, you can go back to Quinn."
"I don't want to go back to Quinn, Rachel I want to be here with you" and with that he embraced me as tightly as ever, softly massaging my back with his hands and let his lips find mine.
This kiss was filled with so much more passion than our last kiss; he brought his left hand to my right cheek and pulled me in closer to him with his right hand. I wasn't sure what to do with my hands, I let them brush through his hair, and it was nice, he must have washed his hair after footy practise this morning. I could feel his heart beating fast through his shirt against my right breast; I guessed that mine was beating just as fast, if not faster. Slowly Finn pulled away and whispered into my ear "I have to sort out things with Quinn but I'll come back for you". And I knew he would.