Disclaimer: I don't own Lie To Me in any way, shape or form.
Rated T because I'm paranoid.
A/N: Hey! Welcome to my first foray into the world of Lie To Me fanfiction! I've written (and write) for Glee and Rookie Blue - under the Pen Names GingerGleek and RookieGinge, respectively - but this is my first LTM fic. I'm so exicted!
I actually wrote the other oneshot I'm about to post before this one, but I decided I wanted this one to be first. Anyways, I really appreciate you clicking on my story and choosing to read it! I hope you enjoy it, and the fics I plan to write in the near future!
Spoilers for 'Depraved Heart'. Sort of a tag for the episode, but sort of not ... if that makes any sense. It's short, I know, but bear with me; a lot of things I write will be.
Wow, long AN, sorry ... but on with the fic!
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He hates lying.
Not only is he generally bad at it, but he despises the concept. (Because he hates being lied to; hated his mother lying to him when he was little about anything and everything as though he didn't ever deserve the truth, hates anyone he knows on a personal level lying to him now.) He despised himself right now, because he's been committed to Radical Honesty for far too long to throw it away like this. (It's too late, though, now.)
He just knows that Foster can see through him, despite the muscle relaxants he took. She knows how much he disagreed with her decision; he had every motive to call the SEC and do what he did. But he also knows that she has trust in him, that she wants to trust him now … and that she'll leave their conversation where it is for the time being.
He almost wishes that she wouldn't. He hates having this lie hanging over his head; (hates that he forced it upon Ria as well, pushed the burden onto her shoulders because he couldn't bear it alone). He doesn't by any means think he made the wrong decision; not morally. He couldn't let the real culprit walk away and let someone else, someone who loves them, take the fall for something they didn't do; but at the same time, he recognizes that – as far as his job is concerned – he stepped over a line into a boundary that he can't easily come back from.
He wishes it was all out in the open, though.
Too bad he's too much of a coward to do it himself.
Because he doesn't want to get fired; doesn't want to see the disappointment written across Foster's face when she knows his guilt positively instead of as a speculation, doesn't want to see the anger on Lightman's. He loves this job, love the fact that this kind of job even exists.
(He never thought that he'd end up doing something stupid enough to jeopardize it.)
This is part of why he hates lying; all the problems it causes, not to mention the additional lies required to keep up the original … the intricate web of falsehoods one must keep up with, and for what? Chances are that if something needs to be lied about, it probably shouldn't have been done in the first place (or, at the least, there are people who think it shouldn't have been done).
In his experience, things like that have never caused nothing but trouble; whether he thinks he was right in doing them or not. That's why he tells the truth. Whether it's tactless, or forward, or bordering on flat out rude or disrespectful, he speaks his mind. Because lying by omission is still lying, as much as white lies are.
And he hates the whole lot of it.
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