Many people find my silence strange and my doctor calls it a conversion disorder, which is a psychosomatic condition brought on by suppressed stress or a stressful incident. However, to me, it feels like my brain has ambushed my body, blind sided my conscious mind and is keeping me hostage in a prison I can't seem to escape.
"EMMA" my mother calls from the kitchen, breaking me out of my thoughts and I sigh, because I know what her calling me means.
I duck my head, as I sit upon the edge of the bed and take a deep breath to gather up my courage to go through another day of hell.
By hell, I mean another day at school. Where I am often harassed but mainly talked about because I am different.
Another minute then passes and I hear my mother call my name again and I sigh and stand up.
I then quickly take a look in the mirror that is upon the wall, to make sure that I look okay. I have tied my hair up in a ponytail and have applied a little make up, to cover up the darkness under my eyes from the lack of sleep. I hope it is not to noticeable and I unbutton the top of my favourite fennel shirt that I am wearing so I don't feel to suffocated.
Yes everything looks okay, I then think to myself before then grabbing my rucksack that is upon the bed and my glasses that are upon n side table and I make my way to the front door. Where I see my mom, who is waiting by the door with a lunch box.
"Good morning Emma" she greets me happily and I force a smile in acknowledgement. Before then putting on my boots, that are always kept by the door.
"Are you okay?" she then asks me, and I think, everything she seems to ask me is a question. It makes me think, that maybe she is hoping that one day I will actually use words.
I however, just nod as I always do and finish putting on my boots.
"Have a good day, okay?" I then hear my mom say as I open the door and I look to her and give her a brief hug, before then making my way out of the apartment and to the black Mercedes Benz that is always waiting for me.
A long moment later, I open the car door and get inside. I then look sideways to see Regina smirking at me.
Why is is smirking at me?
I then rise my eyebrows, wanting to know why she is smirking at me and she says "Good morning to you too Em-ma" and she puts an emphasis upon the last two words of my name and it makes me feel special.
I then roll my eyes because she's being an adorable idiot and she just laughs at me.
I then can't help but smile and I turn my head to look out the window whilst thinking about Regina.
Regina Mills and I have been friends since we were seven years old and I know this because our parents have photo's of us together.
My friendship with Regina means the world to me, she is smart, beautiful and so caring. She is my only true friend, the only one that accepts me for who I am.
There have been times though, where she would beg me to tell her what was wrong whenever I was upset and she would get worked up about it because I would just dismiss it with a shake of the head.
I hated hurting her.
A few minutes later, we are outside of the school and I frown. I hate coming here, to face all the staring all the jokes and cruel words that others say about me just because I don't speak.
"Lets go" Regina then says as she turns the engine off and adds "Don't worry Emma, there's only one more week to go and were be summer break"
Yes but your summer break will be a forever break because you will have finished school, I think bitterly.
"You know nothings gonna change right" she then says, looking over at me seriously and I look into her deep chocolate eyes. I wish I could just look into those eyes all day, instead of going into school.
"I will still be driving you to school every day and spending time with you" Regina then tells me and I know she is trying to reassure me, because she will be going off to university and doesn't want to leave me behind but I think were going to be alright because her university is only about twenty minutes away, so things shouldn't change to much.
Regina then moves to get out of the car and I do the same. It is not until we have walked towards the front doors, that I start to feel sick. As other students would always whisper and talk about me whenever I appeared in the school and I wish they would find something better to talk about.
It is not until we reach the lockers, that I hear Regina say "Emma?"
I look to her.
"Are you going to be okay today?" she asks me softly and I want to shake my head and tell her, that no, I don't think I will be okay and that I just want to leave this place with her and never come back. However, instead I just nod my head and she slightly smiles at me and puts her hand upon my arm and squeezes it lightly in comfort, before then saying "I'll See you later" and slowly steps away.
I watch her go with some sadness, as I hate it when we have to go our separate ways. Its moments like these, that I wish I was one year older, so that we could be in the same classes.
I then wait until she is out of sight. Before then heading off to my first class, with my head down.
A/N Hey everyone, thankyou for reading the first chapter of my new story and if your wondering where chapter 2 has gone, I have removed it to re-edit it.
I do not own ouat or its characters.