Easier to Run, an evangelion fanfic

Easier to Run

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The redheaded girl came storming into the apartment she shared with the Wimp and the Slob.
Yet again he had earned his name, this time by running away, and then left her there alone with the Slob.
She didn't know why it bothered her that he had ran away, or rather she had an idea she just didn't want to admit it.
She continued into her bedroom and put on her iPod on some random song, trying to find solace in the music, all the while refusing to admit it was a habit she picked up from him.

The haunting intro did the opposite of putting her mind at ease but she didn't have the willpower right now to change the song.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

When she started listening to the words she started thinking about why he ran away.«Did he think it was easier to run, to just away from the pain?»
«What am I thinking, of course he thinks that, he always runs away.»

Something has been taken, from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away, no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head, for years and years they've played

She had a secret locked away deep down, how she found her mother hanging in that hospital room next to that doll.
«What did I do wrong mother, why did you leave me alone with Papa and Mama?»
She could never get rid of that image.

If i could change I would, take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I've made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If i could change I would, take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I've made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

The girl kept thinkin back to all her memories revolving around the boy, how she would always beat on him, calling him a baka and a hentai.
«I know why he ran, it's because I always yell at him, I always cause him pain.»

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more.
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone.
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have.
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

«The nightmares came every night when I was in Germany, then that week when we were sleeping next to eachother, I didn't have those dreams.»
«Sometimes I even think of joining mother, then I remember my promise, never to cry again, never to be weak.»

«If he came back I should probably start being nicer to him, that old saying comes to mind «You dont't know what you have until you've lost it.»»

Just washing it aside
All of the helpnessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

«I always hide behind my tough exterior, because I don't want to let people in where they can hurt me.»

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone.

By now she had started crying for she had realized something very important, she didn't want to live in the past, and it was because of her baka roommate, somehow her feelings for the boy had changed, and now she needed him in her life.
But she didn't know where he was or how to get in touch with him, all she could do was hope that he would be back.

It's easier to run
If i could change I would, take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I've made
It's easier to go
If i could change I would, take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I've made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

!Click!

«Tadaima»

«A-Asuka? Are you crying?»