What's the first thing that goes through your mind when you hear the word: Love?
Maybe it's of two teenagers kissing.
Maybe it's of two elders that have spent all their lives together.
Maybe you can't think of anything...because you've never really felt love in your life. Don't be ashamed...lots of people feel that way. Can I tell you a secret?
I use to be one of them.
My name is Nathan Scott. Yes, you read correctly and yes I am his son. The great and powerful Dan Scott – loved by everyone. Oh please! What a load of bull. That's all tabloid speculation. In real life he's hated by everyone...including me. He screwed me up so much that it if you knew me you would never be able to think that I could live. But I did...I don't know how I made it through those first few years but I did, yet not without scars.
He forced me to hate my brother...something which I now regret...something I promised myself I would never do again. He pressured me to play basketball...to the extent where I once used performance enhancers. Drugs – for those of you who don't understand. That night when I hit the floor there was only one thing that kept me from giving up.
Haley James.
The love of my life. She dealed with my arrogance and all the crap that years of no love causes. She fell in love with me for who I really was...and I fell for her. At first it was only to get back at Lucas...who was her best friend. But soon it turned into so much more...it turned into real love. We fought a lot...but not nearly as much as I had with Peyton, my ex. With her it had just all been about sex. But with Hales it was different. With her I respected that she wanted to wait.
If you don't know our love story by now...let me first ask: Where the hell have you been?
Okay, I'll sum it up for you. We got married at 16...she left, part of my heart died, I was hurt in a car accident, I told her not to come back, I sent the divorce papers, she came back, I rejected her and so on and so forth. In the end we got back together.
When she was in the school at the time of the school shooting she was all I could think about. I didn't care if something happened to me...all I wanted was for her to be save.
We got married again, something which you could only imagine. It was beautiful. She was radiant. And once again I realised that she was the only person for me...the only one I could ever love.
Why, you may ask, did I write this? Well...to tell you the truth I don't know. Maybe it's so that one day my daughter, Kirsti, will read it and understand how much her mother means to me. Maybe it's for my brother...to show him that Dan's hate has no power over me anymore. Or maybe, just maybe, it's for my wife... the ever beautiful Haley James Scott. So that she will read it and know that I love her with all my life...that she is the angel that saved me.
So for that I love her. For being her. For giving me a daughter. For loving me.
So as I lie here next to her I finally know what I think of when I think of the word: love.
I think...of Haley.