Lover After Me
chapter 1
Jade- Well, this darn little idea won't leave me alone so I'm going to do something about it.
Ryou- Please note that these feelings are not her own but only come from somewhere deep inside her messed up head.
Bakura- And she is totally lying if she says she is normal.
Jade- I had a pixie stick and jelly beans for breakfast today. That is totally normal for a teenager, ne?
Ryou & Bakura- Ano, not really..
XOXOX
Here I go again I promised myself
I wouldn't think of you today
It's been seven months and counting
You've moved on
I still feel exactly the same
It's just that everywhere I go all the buildings know your name
Like photographs and memories of love
Steel and granite reminders
The city calls your name and I can't move on
I slowly lower the cold, softly shimmering blade to my arm, a grim smile across my face. Applying a steady amount of pressure, I draw lazy patterns into my skin. Watching the crimson, life-giving liquid pool around the blade amuses me now, just as it has for the last seven months.
He was my everything, I thought we'd be together forever. But he left me, saying it wasn't working out. I didn't understand but maybe I was just blind. Blind to the truth. Lost in my own little world.
Don't get me wrong, we're still friends, just not as close as before.
He called yesterday, but he has no idea how much I'm hurting. He thinks everything is back to how it was before... I try not to let anyone know. Except my yami, he knows. But not even he, knows I cut myself like this.
Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me
As soon as I'm satisfied that I've bleed enough, I press down slightly on the self-inflicted wound with a clean damp towel. When the bleeding stops I pull my school jacket sleeves down over the tender, soon-to-be scars.
It's raining outside, so I decide to take a walk. Aren't I smart? I feel so alone though, walking down the nearly deserted street. I've now noticed just how dependent on him, I was.
Am I all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway
So this is my new freedom
It's funny
I don't remember being chained
But nothing seems to make sense anymore
After walking for a while longer, I check the time. Shoot, I was suppose to get dinner started and I was already ten minutes late.
Without you I'm almost twenty minutes late
Turning quickly, I slip and fall on the wet sidewalk. Figures I would land on my arm, I can already feel the warm liquid trying to seep through the thin jacket. I hear someone call my name and there he is, standing in front of me. I take his offered hand and pull myself up, praying he won't notice the blood. Luckily, if he did see he passed it off as water.
Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me
"Um, thanks." I say, turning to leave when he asks; "What are you doing out here anyway?"
I turn my head, giving him a small smile, "I could ask you the same thing.."
He laughs nervously, "Well, I guess we're even then."
I feel the pain in my arm and say goodbye quickly.
When I arrive home, I am greeted by my not-so-happy yami, wearing an apron? Instead of threatening me, like I was expecting, he sent me upstairs, mumbling something about not looking so well. I nod and slowly climb the stairs and enter my room.
I know I should check my arm and change clothes but I flop down on my bed anyway and in a second I'm being dragged under by heavy sleep...
And time goes by so slowly
The nights are cold and lonely
I shouldn't be holding on
But I'm still holding on to you
I awoke three hours later and decided to go for another walk. Did I mention it was still raining? Again, aren't I smart?
I wasn't paying any attention to where I was going, but I found myself standing on his porch, whispering his name over and over. The house is dark, I don't think anyone is home. That's good, I don't need to make a fool of myself anyone.
Here I go again
I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today
But I'm standing at your doorway
I'm calling out your name because I can't move on
I hop off the porch and start to leave when I hear laughing. It's his laughter and he's coming home. Someone is with him and as I duck behind a nearby bush I get a glance at who he's with.
Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me
My heart shatters...
XOXOX
Jade- Hm, I left a lot to the the imagination, ne?
Bakura- She's giving you one hint as to who 'I' and 'he' are.. the narrator is a boy and 'he' is a hikari..
Ryou- And since she forgot at the beginning, Jade owns nothing except a bag of jelly beans and one and a fourth of chocolate bunnies. The Lover After Me belongs to Savage Garden.
Jade- Please review, and if you have any guesses as to who 'I' and 'he' are, leave it in the review. All flames will be used to burn Joey and Marik, both of who I am mad at for various reasons..
Bakura- Ya know, I think she and Tea would make great friends someday.
Ryou- Jade would have to introduce Tea to the wonders of sugar though..
Bakura & Ryou- shudder