*Prologue*
Even though she knew he had a girlfriend, she couldn't stay away from him. It had been like this for two years. She had Matt. And Damon had Katherine. But, there was a draw, too strong for either of them to fight. Although they had never uttered the word "love" to each other, they knew. But saying it made it all to real. You can't be in love with someone who had a girlfriend or boyfriend. Or at least you shouldn't.
Driving to California, her mind on a million things, but it all revolved around one person. Damon. Yes, she was there to track down a producer, whom she had hoped would like her voice and personality enough to sign her. She knew her shots were thin to nothing, but she had to try. You'd think shed be nervous. But again, her thoughts had been on nothing but the blue eyes that seemed to follow her everywhere. She loved him, she knew after the first couple of months. And then he met Katherine. Technically, she couldn't get mad because, she had Matt. But yet, it didn't stop her from the rage and jealousy she had in her. So that night, she had made love to Matt in a way she had never dreamed of before. She knew it was wrong the second it was over.
When Damon had started showing up at her work, and asking to take her for lunch, she jumped at the chance. She lied and said how happy she was for him. Praying her eyes were not betraying her. If they did, he didn't say anything. It went on for two weeks, before he gently leaned her up against his car and kissed her. It was a quick kiss, but it still sent shocks to her body. And so they continued. Having lunch together every day. The kisses became more urgent, and passionate. It wasn't long before they were checking into a hotel room for "lunch". She never said anything to him about her feelings for him. and neither did he. It was an unspoken agreement, almost.
Hearing angry swearing and honks, she was pulled from her thoughts about Damon. She didn't realized she was sitting at a green light. She went through the light and pulled over. Grabbing her phone she sent a quick text, turning off her car she waited.
*Hey, what are you up to?- Lena
*Just out grabbing a bite to eat before work. What's up? Miss it here already? -D
*Yeah, actually my mind has been on a few things.-Lena
*Things..? Sounds hot. -D
*PERV...I mean with us, Damon.- Lena
*Yeah.. I knew it was coming-D
*Me too. Listen, I know you're with Katherine, but there's something I need to say. I'm in love with you, Damon. I have been for two years. I've tried not to. But I cant. Just please don't push me out of your life. -Lena
She didn't realize she had been crying until a tear had landed on her hand as she was typing. His reply came a minute later. Brushing the tears from her cheeks she opened the text.
*I wont push you out of my life. But nothing can ever be anymore than what it is, Elena. I love you, yes but I just cant. It would be wrong. I want to make things work with Katherine. -D
*How is sleeping with me not wrong? Or anything we do not wrong?-Lena
The reply seemed to take years. And her patience was running thin. Just as she was about to hit the call button, his reply came.
* it is.. But I cant stop. Ive known how you felt for a long time, only because Ive felt it. You're amazing Elena. And Matt is lucky to have you.-D
*Katherine is lucky to have you... Ill let you go, and try not to love you. But its hard.-Lena
*I know, baby. Lets just see how things work out. You never know. ;) -D
It had been a couple of days since then, with many wonderful conversations to fill the days while she was away. They talked about everything. Her favorite song, his favorite movie. Their favorite colors. It seemed like their relationship had hit its peak. And she was thrilled. Until that fateful morning.
She woke up to nothing on her phone from Damon. Very unusual. She got in the shower, humming. She had to warm her voice up for the producer. He had agreed to hear her sing, as long as she showed up on time.
After singing for the producer, and finding out that she was indeed going to get signed, she was again disappointed to find nothing on her phone from Damon. So she forwarded her good news to her brother, and two best friends, and him. Their reply's came almost instantly. Still nothing from Damon. Caroline had called to freak out about her best friend was going to be a "superstar" and that she should be her manager. After agreeing with Caroline that it would indeed be a good idea, she rushed off the phone to see if anything was there from Damon. Still nothing.
When she got into her hotel room, she decided to binge watch her favorite T.V show, Buffy the vampire slayer. She fell asleep around the same time Buffy and Spike were having sex on the balcony of a club. Waking up, She checked her phone again to see nothing from Damon. Biting her nails she decided to call him. He picked up on the third ring.
"Elena?" He chocked out. His voice groggy.
"Um, yeah, I haven't heard from you all day, I was getting worried. I wan-" He cut her off before she could finish what she was going to say to him.
"Elena, I cant talk right now." Click.
She stared at the phone in disbelief. He hung up her. How could he hang up on her? Forcing tears back, she ordered room service and a bottle of tequila. She was on her fifth shot when a text message came through from Damon.
*I told Katherine everything. She had a right to know-D
The tears she had been holding back came running out like a waterfall.
*So this means that we cant talk anymore?-Lena
*I'm sorry-D
She was really crying now.
*Don't say sorry. You're not sorry. -Lena
She wasn't surprised to see nothing back from him. She knew it was done. She curled herself up next to her bottle of liqor, and cried herself to sleep.