New Beginnings
"ITS SEVEN THIRTY ALREADY!" I moaned hitting my alarm clock sending it flying off the side. I sat up quickly and picked the clock up, thankfully it hadn't broke.
New start. New problems. Brilliant. I was new to the sleepy town of Forks I hadn't even stepped out in public yet and I hated it. I knew they would already be awaiting my arrival word spread like wild fire here. Just brilliant. Were the only thoughts I could use to describe how exactly I was feeling? I sighed. "The new girl... AGAIN!" I shouted it out no one would hear me. I was alone at the moment, no one in. Pretty much like usual they had dumped me in a little close town so they thought I would be safe. My parents really were stupid. It was sometimes funny how they called me a foolish child. For one, I was not a child! I was a teenager actually! Nearly and adult like them! And for two, they left me alone most of the time, yes your very smart mom and dad. Very smart! And three, I was not foolish; actually I did actually have good common sense!
They had left me all alone. I think I had gotten used to the feeling now, and it wasn't if anyone even liked me in the schools I went to. I always distanced myself people it was easier because whenever I did something bad would happen. I Eva-Rose was a bad luck charm. Bad thing always follow me. It was not an opinion it was a matter of fact! I hated the fact I brought bad things upon people, it's not like they want things to happen to them. I guess that was the problem with being my friend bad things will always happen. It's not fair! Because of that I had lost out on having a proper best friend.
I kept my sleepy head up picking out some clothes that wouldn't set me out from the crowd; attention was the least that I needed now. I had enough issues! Distant parents, traumatised past, no siblings after they died, no friends. God my life was beyond crappy! I rummaged through my wardrobe looking at the clothes that had followed me from the bright lights of the hot L.A. I did hate it there but still at least there I had freedom I could go anywhere. Here in Forks I wouldn't have that. Okay so maybe I would have some freedom, but what could I really do here? Go to a dinner? Occasionally go up to some place called Port Angles but with whom? I don't have friends remember?
So I put on my 'walking hazard' t-shirt which was red with white writing, I loved it, I remember some boy once calling me cute in it, as I relived that memory my cheeks became flushed sending me a bright crimson red a clear contrast to my ever paling skin. This t-shirt was one of the only things that I had kept from my brother now deceased. Car accident killed him with my sister. I tried not to think of it as one single tear trickled down my face. I wiped it off quickly distracting myself putting on my black skinny jeans and pulling on my black trench coat. I ran down the stairs and grab something to eat. Maybe something nutritional, did we even have cereal? Or anything, my parents always ate on the way to work. To be honest I rarely saw them. Now especially that Chase and Aimee were no longer there for me, my parents were even more distant. I came to the conclusion that the only reason they spent time with me was because I really had no one else. And like I said my like was REALLY crappy! My life sucks. Period!
I looked around the living room and all the things were out except a single box. I walked over to in with curiosity why had my mother left one box out it wasn't like her to do that. I opened the box slowly, I wondered if it was a joke and a million fake snakes were going to pop out at me. Then I saw them. Instantly I shut the box after seeing pictures of Chase and Aimee. I still hadn't gotten over that. I doubt I ever would. Because I'm a stupid human girl with too many emotions. I'm too empathic sometimes!
I ran towards the kitchen. I heard my stomach moan reminding me I actually need to eat something, anything. I looked in the cupboards nothing much. But the fruit bowl was filled. Apples, bananas and oranges. I smiled that my parents hadn't completely forgotten about me. I wouldn't get used to that though it would soon change in a few weeks actually that was being hopeful I'll change that to a few days if not hours. Right so it was going to be an apple for breakfast the only thing we had was some fruit well the only thing we had which I wanted to eat.
I got into a Ford Focus something my family had brought me after the untimely deaths of my siblings. It was quite sick actually to think they brought me a car after they died in a car crash. My family didn't understand me. I sat silent in the car as I waited for the heating to work in my car, it was cold in Forks, but it didn't bother me, it was so different to L.A I liked that though, it was clean and very clean here. That was nice.
Okay don't think about that crap. New school. New start. TRY MAKING FRIENDS THIS TIME! I thought to myself. Maybe I would actually listen to my own advice. Well anything could happen today. I'm gonna pray for the best! Well the best that could happen with my track record. I remember in L.A the first day I spilt Pepsi all over Miss Popular Blonde Bimbo! That wasn't good but at least she stopped people trying to be friends with me but some part of me missed getting friends. I must be annoying I always changed my mind. I hit my head with my hand trying to expel my negative thoughts.
I pulled up at the school; I sat slightly numb in my car for a few minutes before I took a deep breath and face the music. Stare death in the face. I was going to tame the lion I called school. I brushed my hair back with my hand and leant my head against the steering wheel of my car breathing slowly again. "I can do this. I can do this. Things will be fine." I reassured myself but I knew it wouldn't work. I turned the ignition off my car along with the heating and let the cool air flood into my car waking me up. I was about to tackle the bull by the horns. I would get through at least one day of high school with out screwing things up; well at least I'm hoping I do.
Here goes nothing..... Maybe after today death would be peaceful?