A/N: Well, here's my first Tales of Symphonia ficcy on here but it's not very good. I wrote it just off the bat and it kinda just came to me because I wanted to write about Zelos who's one of my favorite characters It's kinda depressing though(Emo Zelos! lol). It's pretty much a summary of Zelos's thoughts throughout the story and right before he-SPOILER: dies in one of the endings. I hope you think it's okay though.
Disclaimer: I do not own Tales of Symphonia though it would be nice too.
Does contain spoilers!
Pairings: Well only a slight reference to Sheelos but that's it.
I was never meant to be born. If I was never born Seles would be better off and not to stay in the Abbey all her life. Being the chosen sucked as well. I want to live freely and do whatever I want but that was not the case. I was pretty much born to die but if that's the case then why was I born? Oh yeah, regeneration. Bull Shit. Sure I get the ladies, ah yes the ladies, but why can't I just be free like everyone else. Seles hates me at that. She couldn't care if I were to drop dead tomorrow. Her life would be better off that way. Oh well. To have some fun I even joined Lloyd's group as a spy to watch what they do. I revealed my true intentions once we got to the Tower of Salvation. I hurt them and betrayed them. It's not like they trusted me anyway. Even if I did that I admit I was starting to get attached to the little group of theirs. It was the first time I felt I belonged anywhere. The group had a human, the Chosen of Sylvarant, two Half Elves, an un-aging girl, and a criminal. But even if I wished I could fit in completely, I never will. I was there to betray them to begin with therefore I could not be apart of their determination, their strength, their friendship, NEVER. Though their ideals were ridiculous. A world where everyone could be excepted, you gotta be kidding me. That was their downfall. Lloyd's also trusted people way to much for his own good. But even though their dream was stupid and impossible, I wanted to be apart of it still. Of the warmth that they shared. I am coward though so I join the winning side instead of those that are dear to me. I even hurt her, whom I would never want to but did anyway. I'm pathetic. I now lay here in my own blood about to die. That's okay though, I was getting tired of living anyway. I tell them to destroy my Cruxis Crystal. I look over and see her. Is her eyes watery? Yeah right, she never cared and she never will, I must be seeing things that's all. My head starts to feel fuzzy as my eyes have darkness creeping up on them more by the minute. Now I can rest and Seles will be happy too. So….
Goodbye