What do you do when you fall? The answer is easy – you rise once again. But still, what would you do if your life is over? You would probably say to just start over again. It's not that easy… in words yes but in reality…. How do you get up, how to move on when you've lost everything? And even more important: what if that's not the first time that's happened?
Pretty depressing isn't it? You probably wonder who I am and why the hell am I asking you or even better – myself - those questions. Well, my name is Bella Swan, or at least that's who I am now, who I was before, when I was a happy teen girl, with a loving family, hot boyfriend and lots of friends. Nowadays I'm a 24 year old woman. One lonely, sad and confused woman, who is asking herself how to move on if she survives after the upcoming fight tonight.
However at least I'm not wondering how I got to this point of my life. I remember everything, thought maybe it would have been better if I could simply forget. Maybe then I wouldn't be sitting in that nasty bar drinking some cheap tequila, while some assholes are staring at me like I'm a peace of meat. Could've, should've, would've… It doesn't really matter now. It's way too late for me. My heart is broken, my friends and family pretend I never exited and worst of all – I might die tonight without being able to tell the people I care about my true feelings. One thing is for sure – tonight I'm bound to lose a lot. People will die, some of which my friend, lovers, brothers (not by blood, but something much more important – spirit, weapons, way of living). Most of them will never know how much I love and care about them. They hurt me badly and I pushed them away. I hurt them back. So I'm wondering
All in all, the sun will rise tomorrow; the real question is who will be there to see that…