The Decision
Hiya, minna-san! ^_^ I'm
writing this story, b/c I'm kinda confused myself right now (I think I like 3
guys…at the same time…hoe…) so I've decided to put one of your favorite CCS
characters in my shoes (well, sorta). I hope you like the story! (And can
someone help me?! There are too many cute, nice, sweet guys in this world!!!
AHH!!)
DISCLAIMER: *ish too tired
and confused to put in that she doesn't own CCS*
Li Syaoran lay on his bed,
thinking. In fact, for the past 22 hours, that was all he'd been doing. No
food, little water, and no rest. They had locked him up in his room,
because they wanted an answer. Now.
He sighed. 19 years old,
almost 20, and they were making him get married. 'They' are the Li clan
counsel. In exactly a month, he would turn 20, and on that day become one of
the greatest leaders in all of the Li history. Which was why they were making
him get married.
According to them, a leader
had to have a wife. For obvious reasons, of course: love, counsel, and, most
importantly, to produce an heir. What Syaoran didn't understand was why
they were making him marry someone he didn't love.
Of course, they had
buttered it up, saying "if you find someone that you truly, deeply love, you
won't have to marry Meiling." But he knew their intentions: it was Meiling, or
Meiling. So he had argued. Fought hard, using all the persuasion tactics he'd
ever learned. And then finally, finally, they had given in.
He smiled, thinking back.
After all, who had the right to refuse the future leader of the Li clan,
possibly the strongest clan in all China? No one. They had agreed that he
didn't have to marry Meiling on one condition: that he find another 'suitable'
girl by sundown of a month before his 20th birthday.
He had less than 2 hours
left.
Syaoran sighed again. His
mother, Li Yelan (AN-I finally found her real name!! Yay!! ^_^), had hinted,
ever so slightly about a certain Clow Mistress. She wasn't too forward, though,
being the woman that she was, but it had come up during dinner the past
night.
Sakura. The name, beautiful
and perfect went over in his brain. He knew that she was the one he really
wanted to marry; only she could ever capture his heart. He sighed yet again.
But did she love him back?
Oh, all those years in Japan, those wonderful years, when he was by her side,
saving her all those times. He had always wondered, always hoped and prayed
that she loved him back. But…he thought to himself, that will never
happen. Not in a million years.
I mean, look at the way
I treated her. Telling her she would never be good enough, that she'd never
capture all the cards. Well, did she show me. He remembered her excitement when they were finally captured.
And then, the sadness in
her face as he left on the plane.
Syaoran had never really
thought about that before. Was there something she had wanted to say? He
wouldn't of known, because he bolted off right after saying goodbye. He'd had
to, or else she would've seen. Seen the tears building up in his eyes, seen the
hurt he was feeling, because he had to go back home, had to leave her.
Tears welled up in his eyes
as he remembered. No, he told himself, blinking back the stinging tears,
I must be strong. I must not cry. He sat up in bed. Pull yourself
together Syaoran, you've got a decision to make. Come on, concentrate!
He got out of bed and paced
the perimeter of his room. They had locked him up so he could have peace and
quiet to make his decision. The one that would change his whole life.
He looked out the window.
The sun was almost down. An hour to go.
Should I chose Meiling? He battled with himself. I mean, I don't love
her like that, but I know she'll always be there for me, always take care of
me. He paused in his pacing.
But then there's Sakura.
I have no idea whether she loves me, or not, but at least I'll have tried,
right? But…he resumed pacing what
if I'm rejected? Can I live with that? Besides, if she does reject me, I'll
have to marry Meiling anyway.
His brow was furrowed in
thought. Meiling? Or Sakura? Marriage w/out love on my part? Or the possibility
of true love? Acceptance? Or possible rejection?
What do I do? Why do I
even have to marry in the first place? I'd be a much better leader alone. But he knew that was a lie. He couldn't be a leader
alone, he needed support for when things got too stressful, he needed someone
to love and to love him back. He needed…her…
But which one? Syaoran knew
that he loved Sakura, with all his heart. He would do anything for her, die for
her. But if she refused…
Where would his life be
then? Marriage without love, that's where. Maybe he could decline being leader,
maybe his mother could continue…but, no. He knew that that was out of the
question.
His mother was getting up
in her years, and no amount of magic could prevent that. Soon, as much as he
didn't want to accept it, she would be gone. And his sisters…well, they had
their own lives, their own families to run.
Thirty minutes and
counting.
He went into the bathroom
adjoined to his room, and splashed his face with water, in hopes that that might,
in some way, make up his mind for him. Nope. Didn't work. He sighed. Why
does life have to be so difficult?
He laid back down on his
bed, staring at the ceiling. Meiling…Sakura…Meiling…Sakura…
Ten minutes left.
Suddenly, it hit. Hit him
like a tsunami, crashing down on the beach. Of course! Why hadn't I thought
of that before?! He smiled and closed his eyes, content. Now all that was
left was to tell them…and that wouldn't be too long…
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"So," head counsel-woman Li
Yelan addressed Syaoran, "You have made your decision, I presume?"
He nodded.
She looked satisfied with
her son. Satisfied, and proud.
"Good. Now," she turned to
the full counsel, "we've agreed that if he does not chose Li Meiling, but
rather comes up with another, suitable bride, we will consent to their
marriage, am I correct?"
The counsel nodded in
agreement.
"Very well," she turned
back to Syaoran, "What is your decision, Xiao-Lang?"
He took a deep breath,
knowing that this decision would have effect on his entire life. Nothing could
ever change what he was about to say. He stepped forward.
"I, Li Xiao-Lang, future
leader of the Li clan," he took in another breath, "Have decided to marry…"
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AN-
Ohohohohohoho!!! Left ya
hangin' there, huh? *smiles* Who will our dear Syaoran chose? Meiling? Or
Sakura? ^_^ To tell you the truth, I don't know if I'm gonna continue this fic.
I mean, if he picks Meiling, what happens to S+S? And if he chooses Sakura,
what about poor Meiling? (That was for all you Meiling fans out there.
Personally, I don't like her, but I understand where she's coming from: loving
someone who doesn't like her. Been there. Done that. *sigh*) Well, maybe
if I get enough reviews, and maybe if I feel like it, then I might
put up another part. ^_~ You'll just have to wait and see! Well, I've gotta go
ponder on my own love life, right now, (any helpful suggestions? Onegai?!) so…
Ja ne!! ^_^
Trmpetplaya1 (trmpetgrl1@icqmail.com)
P.S. Oh, one more thing: I
changed the leaving scene (you know, at the airport) from the original to make
the story flow better. Ja!
S+S4eva!!!!!!!!!!! (even
though we don't know what'll happen next….^_~)