disclaimer...i dont own xiaolin showdown. but hoo actuali does?

Living a lie - by animeang3l7

Chapter 1

Belonging

Rai's POV

I looked around, at my room. Well, if you call, a tiny spaces separated by rice paper walls, then yes. But I don't really care what it is, space, room, prison cell, as long as I was back at the temple, with my friends, on the xiaolin side.

I turned my stare onto the hung up pictures on the wall. There hung that happy moment I shared with my friends. Captured in a kodac photograph. They felt like a second family now. I looked at Omi. The yellow cue ball headed monk was just like a little brother to me. I looked to Clay. The texas kung fu fighting machine had stood in place of where my big brother used to stand. And then there was Kimiko. She was almost like a little sister. But things changed and I don't feel that close to her as then. Things had changed and my relationship with her definitely had. I went of focus after that and looked around again.

But I was back, where I belonged. Everything was back to normal. Or what I called was normal. I had survived. I had got through it. I had got through Wuya.

Flashback

"Wuya, I don't think I'm really down with this whole torturing the xiaolin warriors until they all swear loyalty to you."

"You don't?"

"Yeah, its just that. I...um...?"

"Thats enough, I do not give a fucks sake anymore about what you think. Do you hear me. Its always, I think that. I think this...BLAH BLAH BLAHH..."

"I just thought..."

"What did I just say? I don't want to hear you speak another word Raimundo! If you don't like being evil and doing all these evil things, then go."

"Okay then." I walked of and...

"Raimundo! YOU GET YOUR LAZY BONEY ASS RIGHT BACK HERE!" Look who's talking. MY ASS IS NOTT BONEY. BUT YOURS COULD PASS OF AS ONE. AND YOUR FACE. WHAT AM I CHATTIN BOUT? IT IS ONE!

"What? You just said that I could go?"

"I own you Raimundo. We had a deal, an unbreakable sealed contract. You cannot just leave."

"Watch me."

"Okay Raimundo. If you say so, then I'll just get your beloved friends...and" Instantly I turned around. How could I forget that, she had the power to-i don't want to even say. "And lets just see which one can die slower and more painfully."

"NO! Okay, you win. I'll stay."

"Good child."

"I wouldn't necessarily say that." called out a voice.

"Kim! Clay! Omi!"

"Yeah, and we've come for Raimundo and to kill you BITCH!"

End of Flashback

They really cared about me. That sounds soo sappy, for my liking, but they really did. Even though I had betrayed them and hurt them so badly, they still risked their lives to get me back. They're the greatest. Life's great. Well, I suppose it is...There's just one thing, if its so great and everythings cool as ice, then why do I feel still so empty and lonely. As if somethings missing? Like when I had turned evil and discarded my relationship with those who I most cared about? But I've got everything I've ever wanted and needed...I got everything back.

Thats when I heard some footsteps. The noise interrupted my deep discussion with myself. I turned round. My eyes fell upon the gaze of what seemed to be an angel without wings.And those halo's and dresses and that light. But to me she was an angel, a really buff one may I add. It was Kim.

"Hey Rai, what ya up to?" she smiled at me. I couldn't help but feel like soft and mushy. It was one of her rare smiles were it seemed so kind and sincere. One of those rare smiles that just makes your mind want to engrave it deep within it just so I could imagine it forever.

"Um j-just um? L-lookin-ng a-around." I had never been so tongue tied. I've talked to hundreds of girls. What was it about this girl all of a sudden that made me smile when things were wrong. When I felt so wrong. So alone. But none the less the thing that really stroke me as funny was that I've known her for like about a year, and I'm just feeling so strange as if its when we first met. What is it about her?

"Rai? Earth to Mr. Pedrosa? Kim to Rai?" she waved her hand in front of me. Those soft snowy white hands in front of me.

"Yeah, um soz. I kinda drifted of site for a bit!"

"Okay then...um, lights out at 10. See ya Rai." with that sentence said, she was gone. And my heart sank. I felt that emptiness arising again. Such a blank feeling.

"Yeah. See you." I said to the air surrounding me. I changed into some boxers. It was just to hot for pyjamas. I laid down on the quilt on the floor.

Nothing seemed right anymore. Nothing ever seemed right. I guess when I first came here, I felt really awkward about being here like I had no place, I didn't belong. When it came to the heylin side, I thought I could change all that with possessions and money, but the same feeling. And I finally came back, to what I imagined as home now. But nothing had really changed except for my piece of mind.

"I don't belong." I said.

"I don't belong with my family, my friends, the temple. Anywhere." I continued.

I got up and walked over to the kitchen to get some water. I tried to get that whole belonging thing out of my head. Its getting hot in here. Hasn't the temple heard of air conditioning! God...I'm sweating. I walked through the temple's halls, while looking at the outside world of silhouetted mountains through the glass windows. It was pitch black. There I saw a reflection of me. Hey, I still look buff even when I'm depressed-and sweating. Not the time to be vain...Need...water...

I finally got my legs working and reached the kitchen. There shone some light. Isn't everyone supposed to be asleep by now? But I guess not. The light came from the fridge. And there stood a japanese girl raiding it.

"Naughty Kim. You're supposed to be in bed by now." I taunted.

"Shut up. How about you Rai. Doesn't this rule apply to you to?"

"Nope."

"Shut up."

"Okay." I went over to the fridge alongside her to get some cold bottled water out. I poured it into a cup from out of the cupboard. As the liquid flowed from bottle to cup, another cup slid next to mine. I figured she wanted some too, so I poured it in. No questions asked, no statements told. Just pure silence.

"You know, you can talk?"

"Yeah, I know, but you prefer it if I just shut up...so..."

"Oh just shut up!"

"There you see."

"Fine I'll stop the 'shut ups' if you stop acting like you're the new guy round here. Anyways since when did you listen to me?"

"Wateva." There was another one of those long pauses of silence.

"Rai..."

"Yeah?"

"Why do are you doing this?"

"What?"

"Acting so strange. You made some wrong choices but they're in the past. So move on." I didn't want to listen anymore. I walked of. I turned to face the corridor, when -smash-...something just probably fell, a glass or something. Who cares. I ignored it. Kim can handle cleaning up a few broken glass bits. Its not that hard even for her. But thats when I heard a scream.

I ran back...but when I entered the room, the room spinned round and round. Until it stopped I saw two weary figures blur in front of me. When the world had stopped rattling with my brain there I saw one of the sites that I prayed every single second of my existence since that day not to see ever again. But how could it be avoided. How could she be avoided.

Wuya.

I couldn't help but just stand there. The shock and panic had got to me again. Kim laid on the floor. Unconscious. I didn't want to hear the truth, but like most things, I had to hear it. It rang in my head. Pushing all other thoughts away.

She was dead.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?"

"Why Raimundo? What did I tell you? I'll be back wouldn't I? And so...I AM! You will pay for betraying me. But I'll start with the thing you most cared about. HAHAHAHAHAHA!" she cackled away but keeping that deadly look at me.

"FUCK OFF BITCH! YOU ARE GONNA PAY FOR WAT YOU DID TO HER!" I shouted while walked over glancing at Kim on the floor. She was pale and whiter than she should have been. No what she should be...not been. Be.

"Kim, hang on..." I turned back to Wuya. I got into an attacking pose in an instant. I raged towards her to punch. My fist was clenched so tightly, that my veins had popped up and my muscles arose...then there was light... It blinded me. White light shone and blurred my vision to blank white. It erased all images of Wuya, Kim, the temple. Everything.

"Ah." I sat up straight away. Drops of sweat ran down the side of my face. It was dawn. What happened? Was that a dream? It couldn't have been, it felt so...real...

I twisted round to the left side of the room and got up. I stretched. I looked out of the window and saw a clear blue sky and green grass sway. I stared just at the site, not blinking. Just hoping that maybe things can stay like this. I turned to the other side of my room and looked at the framed photograph. There were only three figures. Omi, Clay and me.

"Kim..."

a/n hallo evrywun. yeh anotha stori...figures i supose. um wonder wot happened? can ya figures it out? if not? i'll tell ya nex chappy...i avent gotten 2 dat guddy part so plz stay tuned. der'll b mo excitement n humor as i go along... plz dunt diz itz...but i if ya wants it off den i'll do its..but cud i least get wun gud review:D