Four Says His Final Goodbye

by 67-fupw

Four still hasn't gotten over Tris. And he just wants to say all the things he should have said when she was still with him.

I will never stop loving you.

You broke my heart for the greater good, gave your life, thinking of others. And I love you for that. I just wish it didn't have to be this way.

Everything reminds me of you. When I look at the Pit, I remember that time when I said you looked good. I may have been drunk, but I meant it.

When I go to the old Abnegation sector, I think of how you held my hand as we were surrounded by Dauntless soldiers under simulation. How you gave me strength. How I knew that, as long as we were together, we would prevail.

I visit the chasm often. Remembering the feel of your lips on mine. Zeke keeps telling me to move on. But I can't, because I am still in love with you. Even though I know you are gone, I keep hoping that someday, somehow you will return. And then I will say all the things I should have said when you were still here.

You were the only person that I truly trusted. No one else made me feel that way. And now you are gone, I feel empty and broken.

I know you wouldn't want me to be this way. And even though I understand why you did it, I still wish it could have been different.

There was cake at your funeral. So I went.

When I look into the sky, I think of you, and hope you're having fun, with your parents and Will and Uriah.

I wish I could join you, but for now, as much as my heart aches, I am needed down here.

Forever yours,

IV.