From Leah's Point Of View.
Gathered in the Cullen's - ugh, I know - lounge room, each pair of eyes were on Jacob and the devil's child- I mean, Renesmee. The Loch Ness Monster was giggling beside Jacob, looking perfect as usual. It had happened so many times, I didn't even notice to plummet of my heart. Seth sat beside me, knowing of my tiny dilemma and squeezed my hand. I was so grateful to have such an amazing brother who knew exactly what I was thinking. The horrible thing was, I was never good enough for Jacob. I tried so hard until I just gave up. I mean, I really tried.
I flirted, I wore short skirts and low cut tops, but he'd never seen interested. That may have been from the fear that if he looked, he'd get his head thrown off, but I mean, just a peek wouldn't have killed him. . . I turned around and leaned on Seth's shoulder, muttering words of disgrace.
"We have an announcement!" The demon spawn giggled, seeming to have a hard time containing her excitement. I turned with a smidgen of hope she'd found out she was going to die tomorrow. I bet their blood sucking family would have found a cure for any type of disease; pneumonia, cancer, maybe even chicken pox? Ed- got an idiot pregnant and created a devil - ward gave me a sharp look that I took as a, 'keep thinking like that please!'
I smiled, innocently. Believe it or not, I only got along with one Cullen - the quiet and southern accented Jasper had been quite a talker when you caught his interest. He was sort of nice, and I liked that he wasn't a full vegetarian - that he could still snap.
"Come on, Ness! Tell us!" Alice laughed from Jasper's lap, who was busy reading a no doubt western themed book. Another thing I liked about him - he didn't care about Renesmee at all. Well, he didn't mean it in such words - he just didn't really bother to listen when she spoke, or care when she did something anyone of them could do in their sleep.
"Well, Jacob and I were planning on taking it slow," those were the very words that made tears fall from my cheeks and my heart break. Just those simple ten words made me ache inside. Appreciatively, Jasper's mood power helped me calm down quick enough not to run out of the room, but not strong enough to stop the tears that fell from my cheeks. I hadn't told Jasper about me, er, loving Jacob, but he'd guessed enough to know.
From behind the devil's child, Jacob gave me a look that said, what's wrong? But more in a shut up sort of way.
Rensemee looked up at Jacob before smiling, broadly. "But something has made us speed it up a little bit." Oh god, she's not. She can't be. No, no,no. Jacob's face lit up and he pecked Nessie's forehead. Jasper leaned over and took my other hand. I smiled, sadly, putting my face to Seth's shoulder. Though Nessie was about three years old now, she appeared to be in young adulthood, and she'd already gone through puberty, so I guess it was possible afterall. Tears fell down my cheeks as she said the two most dreaded words any girl in love with the other girl's boyfriend could say.
"I'm pregnant." Gasps, laughter, sobs, smiles, sobs, questioning remarks, sobs.
"Lee-Lee? Are you okay?" Ah, so those annoying sobs had been coming from me. Jacob's voice was close to my ear, which surprised me. I didn't dare look up at the eyes I knew were watching me.
"She's just a little upset. Somebody died," Jasper-thankgodforthatman- told them. Lied. Something died. My heart.
"Oh," Jacob's voice was surprised. What, did he expect me to tell him I wanted the demon spawn dead? I don't think so.
"Nessie, I can't believe it! I'm going to be a god mother!" Rosalie giggled, excitedly, probably doing that little happy dance the blondes created.
"Wait, you? The godmother? I think you mean me!" Alice argued, though she sounded as if she was smiling.
Seth pulled me up, covering my face as he pushed me out of the room. Jasper followed closely behind, carrying him book out with him.
When we were finally outside, I let out the sob I'd been keeping in for too long.
"Lee-Lee," Seth whispered, embracing me with a sympathetic look on his face.
"She's not worth your tears, Lee," Jasper whispered, his topaz coloured eyes on the window where he was glaring at Edward, who always seemed to be peeking through the window.
"It's over," I whispered, "it's not worth trying anymore." But I had to go on with my life. Jacob was taken, but I'd give it one last attempt. Maybe the spawn would have an abortion. One last go. . . But then what? I go kill myself? How? I bet a lot of people would have already tried - and failed.
Jacob's face appeared at the door, as he broke in with the embraces and crying.
"Hey, Leah." Jacob smiled, sadly, though you could see the happiness in his eyes. Oh god, I can't do that do him. . . I can't try and win him over. . . He's so happy - he's going to be a father. . . Jacob will be a good father. . .
"Excuse me," I whispered, abruptly. I pecked Seth and Jasper on the cheeks - scrunching my nose of course at Jasper - and hugged Jacob. I needed that one hug before I did what I was about to do. He wrapped his long arms around me and kissed my hair. I just held him for as long as I could, memorizing his musky forest scent, before pulling away. I leaned up on my tippy toes and kissed him on his lips before going inside. A couple of gasps were audible from behind me. I smiled, sadly, tears building in my eyes as I walked up the stairs in the leech's house. Jasper and Alice's room, Emmett and Rosalie's room, Edward's old room, ah, Carlisle's study. I entered it and shut the door behind me. I'd never cry another tear for Jacob Black, I'd leave him to his life. He'd be happy. . . he had to be.
I was careful to hide my thoughts until I reached that room. I locked the door behind me as I walked up to the cabinet. I reached for a thin vial in the cabinet and smelt it. Immediately I recoiled against the scent; venom. But it was exactly what I needed. I opened the vial once again and lifted it to my lips. This was it; I was ready.
"Leah!" was just a quiet sound as I gulped the liquid in the vial. I finished it in two moments and let death take me, happily.
"Leah, Leah, Leah, no!" Seth's voice was barely audible as I collapsed to the floor. I just smiled to the darkness, reaching for it.
"Ohmygod, Jakie," the annoying voice of that. . . thing whispered.
"Leah," Jasper whispered, sadly, "I understand why you did it." He lowered his voice at his last words.
I smiled a bit broader at these, feeling the need to fall asleep.
"What do we do? How do we save her? What happened?" Renesmee seemed to be going into a fit.
"Just shut up," Seth growled. "We can't save her. She's already half dead."
"Seth," Jacob snapped at him.
"Shut up Jacob," I groaned through battering teeth. Apparently, my last words were going to be of annoyance. Jacob shut up.
"She did this because of you two anyway, so why don't you leave and let her die in peace?" Jasper growled at them. I was really thankful for that man. Good luck Alice.
"Wait, our fault?" Nessie whispered, eyes probably popping out of her head like a fish. Oh, couldn't something be her fault?
"Yes, you're fault, mainly yours anyway," Jasper growled.
"W-w-what did I do?" Renesmee whispered; but she knew. God, she knew. She'd been one of the first people to know. She saw how I stared at him, how my heart broke whenever she touched him.
"She loved him. You knew it," Jasper growled at her. God, I could kiss him. Second thought, no, I couldn't. I open my eyes one last time and met Renesmee's stupid brown eyes. They'd always annoyed me, that she'd inherited the one thing I'd actually liked about Bella. Those chocolate brown eyes, instead of the dull extremely dark eyes I'd received. Rip off, much? The look I gave her was two emotions mixed into one; hatred, loathing and awe. She'd won; she'd finally gotten rid of me. There might have been some accusing looks in there was well, but I decided to ignore that particular emotion. There was no use in trying anymore.
The devil's spawn was good at pretending she didn't notice. "I didn't know anything." I let my eyes wonder to the one face I wanted to see before dying - Jacob Freaking Black. His face was confused and odd but their were big, fat tears running down his cheeks. I tried to take this in, but I couldn't. Sobs broke from my chest as the pain took over again, but I wasn't crying because of that. I was actually surprised the pain hadn't begun sooner. I wanted it to be over.
"I know what you feel. Anywhere Leah's near Jacob, you become a protective little brat." Jasper cried out, angrily. He was obviously going to miss me, and that made me smile for half a second.
"What are you guys talking about?" Jacob demanded. God, he was clueless. I wanted this to be over; I just wanted to hurry up and die. I wanted my Dad. . . Daddy, I'm coming. . . Seth squeezed my hand, right on cue.
"Leah was in love with you, you freaking idiot," Seth snapped, angrily. Tears fell from his cheeks. I reached over to wipe one of them through my excruciating pain. I tried to think of ways to compare it to - drowning? Burning, definitely. It was like being so thirsty you were dying. My throat was definitely dry, and I found it very hard to breathe right now. I don't think I can move my body at all actually.
"W-wait, what? Leah wasn't in love with me. I'd know. I loved he-" Jacob froze, eyes wide as he blurted out the words. I sobbed, softly. He'd loved me. That was all I'd needed in life, but I got it at death. My life was doomed to begin with.
"What?" Renesmee whispered, looking down at her stomach, that wasn't even round yet. Apparently that was going to be her next motive for persuading Jacob into doing everything she wanted - even if it meant death.
"I'm in love with Leah Clearwater." Jacob finally said after a long moment. "I always have been. . . But I never thought that she'd be. . ." Jacob's voice trailed off and more tears fell down his cheeks.
"But, Jake. . . you had sex with me! I'm pregnant." Renesmee was like one of those lost little dogs, playing with all the wrong things. Jacob's face became cold.
"I knew Leah wasn't interested." Jacob's gorgeous eyes met mine and I felt my lips tremble as the pain subsided. Why had I chosen to drink the venom. . . Darkness fell between my eyes and I couldn't help but let my head fall back into Seth's knees, as he'd kneeled behind me.
"So this. . . I was just a second choice for you? You're mine Jacob! You imprinted on me, but you love her?" The way Renesmee said that. . . Like loving 'her' or me, was a bad thing. . . That's why I was crying. It was Sam all over again. Jacob, I love you. . . I wanted to say it, but my voice box had gone. I was dying, finally, but now. . . I didn't want to.
"Leah was always the one," Jacob whispered, letting his head drop, then his whole body drop beside me. He took my hand, tears rolling down his face.
"Jacob! You're mine! Get over her! She's practically dead! And I'm having you're freaking baby!" Renesmee shouted, clutching her stomach. Jacob shot his head around, his eyes furious and. . . deadly. He stood up and walked up to her, towering over her.
"Don't speak about Leah that way. If you're going to use you're pregnancy against me, get a freaking abortion!" that's exactly what Jacob said. My eyes snapped open and I stared at him for one last moment. The pain had exceeded and blackness was filling me.
"I love you, Jake, , ," my last words were ones of complete honesty. I love you Jacob Black. Just before death, something bit into my neck.
My eyes snapped open.
A/N: I didn't quite like the ending. I kept switching ideas. . . At first, this was the original idea, then I thought maybe she would hear something about how Jacob loved Nessie or something and Leah would reach for another vial. . . THEN I thought Leah should be saved. . . So yeah. Major cliff hanger. Won't be many chapters. Just drabble. Please R/R.