Right by Her Mind
Summary: They were there just trying to do their job, and for one Jessica Raschke there was always one who was watching out for his precious little girl ever since she was born. But for her there are five small voices protecting her from what life throws her way. But outside a little girl's head she has to deal with abuse, divorce and growing up, as everything changes around her, her mind..everything. But there is one voice who knows her best, he's been with her all her life slowly watching as it changes more and more, and even with the promise he made..he'll keep her safe. Because Anger promised he'd be there for his little girl, every step of the way, right by her mind.
A faint reddish light filled the darkness, as a soft hush of sound vibrated through the mindscape moving and pushing back on itself in a flow of colors. Swirls of red and crimson touching down mixing with vibrant violet purples and a flash of white and the dusk of reddish-browns all flowed till a form apparated. The light dimmed down, hardly floating like an orb till it dropped into the vast darkness and a spark of bright particles bounced and edged together.
They all mixed into each other till they all merged softly into a single form, that form watched as the last of the light etched itself out like an ember and vanished leaving him in the dark. He felt small, almost cold, without a way to see anything in front of his now formed eyes. What is this? He thought, as his eyes peered out into the inky blackness and just, where was he? All he knew was that he was here now, wherever he was?
And he was very much alone, "Hello!?" he called, edging his black shoed feet forwards, while his eyes adjusted to the plane, watching as a single prick of light danced into his vision as his foot touched down on the floor beneath him, "Anyone there?", he faintly called, waddling past the darkness and shielding his eyes from the harsh glow that blurred past.
His hand reached out and a large pale console with a single red button popped into view, slowly and determined he grasped it, wondering how the heck something like this was here of all places?
He tried to press it with his stubby red fingers, but he found to his annoyance that he was far too short, frowning he jumped, leering his fingers down to slam into it, until he saw the stand light up and a pale mix of red dance behind him.
For a time, he stood there with the dark around him, seeming to fade as time stood still and he watched, and waited with gleaming red-brown eyes staring at the enlarging screen that started folded up over him. His hand hit the button, sharp and fast, nothing happened.
The room was silent, till the screen glimmered in silver and opened inwards, largely held over his like an ornate window, he felt so small… And then he saw her, or rather he saw into the outside through her eyes.
"Hello Jessica, welcome into the world!", he saw through a woman look up and there standing over a tiny form was a woman with red curly locks of hair and a tired, worn kind of smile, one that danced over her lips as a tiny finger moved to grapple hers in it's own, "I'm your mom, do you know how hard I've worked to get you here!". His mouth opened, and he saw her.
A tiny bundled little girl with a few curls of red hair floating on her soft head, with small almost wrinkled fingers grabbing onto mom's, he stared as tears threatened to replace his grin.
"Hi Jessica…", he places one digit against the glass of the screen, as his large meaty hand closed around the girl's feet as he tried stroking her head, he could still feel his heart pounding into his throat, "Jessica…", he rasped, choking back on the dryness he felt in his chest. But just as quickly, his little girl was placed into the hands of some strange man, he could feel himself pull at the button.
As soon as he hit the button, right about the time the man held her for the first time, a loud angry cry pierced the room, making him reel back in shock at how loud her screams were, as she cried louder and louder till she hiccupped. He saw mom grab for her, and she instantly quieted but just as he thought nothing else would happen something behind him took hold, or rather took form.
As it flowed the room was lit up behind it, matching the brilliant glow it heralded as it filled up with green, and blue-greens, purples as it combed the walls and dwarfed him, reaching out the ends of a purple ceiling doming him into looking into the mix of sweeping particles it trailed. And a marble rolled slowly down a track and stopped an inch just at a place where a latch struck it.
The glowing orb seemed stuck till he pounded the rail, and it opened and started moving to the rail as it clicked against the slot that stood by the end of the wall. He ran with it, closing his hand onto the small marble, what was it? His eyes trailed it's course, and then it stayed lit on the wall, and waited.
"What are ya?" He clambered up to the part where it struck, and danced a finger along it's cool sides, as a loud cry rattled through the mindscape and played back in it's murky reddish deeps the man holding Jessica.
"Oookkaayyy, weird!", but as he turned his back, another dim figure took form, trailing purple-blues and a bit of pink, with mixes of silver and white playing with the now glowing world around him, though it faded his vision the longer he stared. As a strong little flare made its way towards him, he blinked his eyes…
In a minute a long person stood up, brushing herself off with a slight off-purplish hand while her pale and sickly quivering face looked everywhere but at him.
"Okay, who are you supposed to be?", he said, as his voice deep and rasping took her attention, she stared down almost craning her neck forwards to the shaking voice, "Are ya..uh..look I'm no good at guessin', so just who are ya?". He broke off, his nervous eyes narrowing as she started breathing harder whilst folding in her hands behind herself.
"Uh.I'm, hehe Fear, yeah..Fear!?" She gasped unsure of where she was and why a little red thing was talking to her of all things. Though her pale purple eyes were just as big as saucers, bloodshot and shaking, roaming around till they sped along the screen on the wall and a hand flitching over her long quivering fingers. She was a tall thing that was for sure, looking like a leaf in a hurricane and stalk thin as a nerve with long reddish curls held in a tight frantic bun.
Her exhausted face took up a mall worried frown as he stomped his way over, "I'm Anger!". He held out a hand which she never took, making him sigh, "Look..hey, ya see this..?", he jabbed his thumb at the screen, "This is Jessica, she's our..uh, well, she's our kid. But..I think something's off, 'cause that thing popped outta nowhere and well..heheh, here we both are!"
"Right that's good to know!" Fear said, as her hands leaned against the console, placing them down on the edge of the button as the little one's eyes flew open and she started bawling, "So, is there uh..any other in here?", she nervously chuckled, "Or is it..just the two of us?". Fear quickly glanced around scanning the large room but never caught anything there, "So you're Anger then?".
"Hehe, yeah!" He made for the button and slammed his hand down hard, as he saw that man stride right up and near, she cried, alerted by the sense of him, "What's with this guy anyways, I've only been 'ere for a brief time and look…". The man he knew as her 'father' came back, making her scream in mom's arms, and listening Anger could hear him mention that something wasn't right..with Jessica?
Fear leered, behind her shaking fingers she fiddled with her blue sweater's collar, "Something's off, is it safe for her? I mean..is he bad?". Anger just stared glossy eyed at her, and shrugged, he really didn't know..and he doubted he'd know anytime soon, "Is he hurting her?", she repeated, her quiet voice filled with pain.
"Just for now, I really don't know, but keep an eye on her anyways..till we can figure out what' goin' on, till then maybe we'll have some ideas that'll help her!".
He watched as a purple orb dashed itself by the two plain red ones, but one thought pounded in his head, why Fear and him first? Why are ya so fearful kiddo, it's your first day, your just a day old..why are ya so..scared..? He felt a lump slid down his throat as he continued hearing her cry, what do I do?
The quiet sound of shushing from mom came into the mindscape with faint humming, as her few words drowned out everything else in the room, time stood again. As his hands wove onto the button, and then it stopped… In a minute he found Fear's hand on his, just standing still gazing lifelessly up at mom as she took her kid and walked down the hall and said something about going 'home'.
We're goin' home my girl..we're goin' ta our home for the first time, he thought, it was as if Fear could read his mind as she lay a loose finger on his shoulder, her tiny grin forming on shaking lips. It was nice, he decided, to see her smile, be there for someone else, be happy..whatever that felt like.
"Fear, welcome home!", he almost sung as the door to their home opened just twenty minutes later, and they both saw with longing eyes the warm hues of the sea-blue walls, and the cream and faintly off purple rug on the floor, "We're home!". He allowed himself to smile.
"Yeah..we're home..", she followed him to the metal bars as a bright leering glow flared again, this time it was light blue, and dark with a dust trail of yellows and orange that spilled up the scape, like a twinkling star the particles formed and wove into one another, and joy was born.
"Hi!" She spoke as she shook his hand in her small dainty wrist, "I'm Joy, who are you two? Isn't this awesome!". Her wide blue eye twinkled as they scanned over the blue and purple control room, "I'm hooommmmeeeee!", she screamed. Anger's face scowled as he waddled away towards her, making for her hand, he stopped and glared, then realised just how bloody tall she was.
"I'm Anger, this 'ere is Fear and you..are very much getting' on my last nerve!", he huffed, holding out a folded piece of paper, "Just stand over there and don't…", his face dropped as Joy lunged at the button making Jessica giggle with delight just as her mom placed her over her crib, "touch anything!'.
"This is great, we'll all be like friends, and you'll be the daddy! And you can be the mom, and this is just great!", Joy called, hopping over the rug.
Tired bloodshot eyes turned to her, watching the delight as he simply sat down on the little red couch, "I'm just glad, we're 'ere…", he said smiling, making his way up to the screen after, feeling the slight cool of the metal surrounding it, "Look at our lil' girl!".
They all stood surrounded by a large group hug, as Joy's faint blue light illuminated everything around all of them, tears slowly stream down his face as he waited in silence as his little girl fell asleep. She held a small brown teddy bear with a missing button eye and a peaceful look on her face, happy..like nothing could ever harm her, or want to.
She was just their precious beautiful little girl, and even as he watched he felt something prickle in his chest, a strong feeling tugging on him, it grew and made him almost melt inside, not that he'd admit to that.
"Goodnight munchkin!", Anger replied, slowly sliding his heavy feet up the stairs to his room, as soon as he reached his new bed, he let himself plunk down, face first!
The trust of one tiny girl placed into the hands of one very small, but stubborn emotion, how could he protect her anyhow? She was so young, and..so innocent and so unready for anything but he would try for her.
Cause what else could he do, but guide her, maybe form more of those orbs, maybe let her be as happy as she should be..with a strong passion for life, a good will, a girl with a big heart that everyone could be proud of…
That's my girl! He mouthed as he faded into sleep, besides what could happen to her!
Oh, if he only knew.
Little bits of orbs floated in till they reached the outside of the domed HQ, the pearl like building held up over an abyss of black and pale blue, while greys and whites mixed into the dim hued outer crystal-like structures and headed to Long-Term Memory. The place was a bright and confusing place of small orbs, maybe magic no really knew, but one liked to watch it unfold every night.
Jessica may have been tiny, she was a late comer, tiny in the hands of a loving caring mother, she was known as Mrs. Raschke a woman who ran a small health spa and had a few books written under her. Grasping long fingers grabbed at the paned glass, watching slowly, softly as the orbs from a long day made their decent to the Long-Term, she was scared, scared of falling, but she watched.
No one knew she did this, maybe overcome her longing to keep them all together, but inside she was terrified of being..alone with the silence, she sometimes wondered if he was too, Anger? Fear stood, like a cloak in the wind, engulfed by the faint glows, till a hand reached her thin back, letting out a squeak of horror she bolted for the couch, and hid till he paced towards her hiding spot.
No one knew she did this, maybe overcome her longing to keep them all together, but inside she was terrified of being..alone with the silence, she sometimes wondered if he was too, Anger? Fear stood, like a cloak in the wind, engulfed by the faint glows, till a hand reached her thin back, letting out a squeak of horror she bolted for the couch, and hid till he paced towards her hiding spot.
"I'm sorry..." came Anger's harsh voice, "I'm sorry I scared ya, 'kay..about that..ya like watchin' the outside or somethin'?"
"Y..yeah..yeah..I do..it's just..", her face hidden in her sweater he barely heard her.
"Let me guess..afraid of heights..", Anger laughed, gruffly placing his hand on her shoulders, "Maybe a little massage help lose you up kid!" She blushed a little, sheepishly smiling till her face fell again, "What..what is it?" He demanded, clearly getting heated under the collar of his little sleeping shirt, "You hurt..in pain?"
"N..no", she clenched her chest tightly in, holding her fidgeting fingers still as she could, "May..maybe it's j..just me..or..is there, something to all…", he shushed her with a finger, drawing her into his wide arms.
"Just relax kid, I'm here..your safe..okay.. You'll be okay..or I'll fade trying..okay!?" He sounded so concerned about..Fear? His emotional opposite, then she saw the tired eyes, the roughly fuzzed up particles, he didn't sleep, "I'll protect you kid..don't worry..it'll be fine!"