As I sit here and wait,
body separate from my mind,
I think of you and your smile
your laugh, oh so charming,
Swooning me off my feet.
I think of your virtues
your purity, your kindness
which overwhelm me into security
but I stay guarded just to be safe.
I think of how you shock me to silence,
then you urge me to say something
but you don't realize that I can't.
I think of your warmth from our brief embrace
and how it made me feel protected,
safe from the world and her dangers.
I think of how everything feels perfect
and right when I am with you.
But then I wonder if you reciprocate that.
I wonder if everything feels like that with you when we're together.
I wonder if you cherish our few and quick moments like I do.
I wonder if they are your treasure, as they are mine.
But my mind strays from the subject to think of everything good about you.
I think of how I feel elated to see you,
and heartbroken when we depart.
I think of how I wish desperately that we had eternity to be together.
But just wishing makes nothing happen.
Wishing makes you hope,
and to hope for something like this
leads to disappointment and humiliation
if everything is one sided.
And so I think now of everything about you
that makes me happy, and I can find no end to that list,
which also makes me happy.
I think of the days ahead I have without you
and am grateful they are few.
I think of the hopes that form when I think you
might call, and how I feel crushed when you don't.
But then I think back again to our embrace and
everything is fine once more.
Everything is safe.
Everything is…
Perfect.