That's the Way I Love You.
The first time that I saw you, I felt something strange…something no-one had ever made me feel; lust. The first time I talked to you…it was so different than talking to anyone else. With anyone else, I couldn't feel my heart quicken its pace. With anyone else, I didn't feel the need to look them in the eye and never look away. With anyone else, I didn't feel the need to never stop. You always did bring out the strangest reactions in me, that no-one else could.
The first time that I touched you, was so different than touching anyone else. Your fingers were soft and little, against my big, sturdy ones…yet they felt perfect against each other. Almost as if mine were made to hold yours forever.
And after the countless times that I've spent talking to you, I always forget to mention how much I love the way you smell like blossoms do in the spring. That there's something about the way how I can't watch the sunset, with you by my side. Why should an alcoholic taste water, if the wine is just lying beside him; looking even more tempting than ever in contrast? Don't resent me for watching when you scream at Tyson, for sleeping too late; I do that not because I find it amusing when you're angry….there's something about the way your lips move when you are— I never get to see that when I'm with you— and it's mesmerizing.
You're something I never get tired of; I guess you could call it addiction. I'd hear you all day, and I'd want to watch you all night. I'd watch you all night, and I'd want to hear you all day, all over again. I can't get enough. I yearn to see your face every morning –knowing the way you keep making me feel—and I hope that I start my day to your smile. Just this little motion breaks every rule and crosses every single one of the boundaries that I'd spent years building for myself. Yet, somehow, I never regret it. You're worth it!
Do you realize what you've done? You've made the coldest of hearts feel what he'd forbidden himself to; love. Love, I'd been taught, was wrong. Love, I knew, was forbidden. Love had ceased to mean much to me, till you came along and changed that. And now, I feel it everyday in your tender little touches, I see it in your delicate little smiles, I hear it in your subtle little whispers. And I allow the feelings to engulf me. I let them sooth me, I let them calm me. And I like how these emotions make me feel. Love, I hadn't realized before you showed it to me, was exactly the thing whose lack of presence made me feel incomplete. But now that you're here, that feeling's gone. With you, I'm whole.
And that's the way I love you.
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Okay, so this is my THIRD one-shot, Kai/Hil…(adore this pairing to BITS)…yeh! I was writing a betrayal fic, a one-shot. It was about Kai's feelings when Hillary chooses someone who isn't him. So, when I started that, it evolved into THIS fic…And it's COMPLETELY different! Though, I'm still gonna work on that betrayal one as well. It'll be out soon…:p
Anyway, so, while the previous one-shots of mine revolved around sketching and chicken pox, this one was a little bit emo. It was pretty short, I know, but that shouldn't mean that it's not good. I warned you guys that it'd be cheesy and all, so don't review to say it was cheesy; I already know that, and that was exactly where I wanted it to go.
Especial thanks to Kai-Hil-Lover, as usual, who took the time to read this story and add something to it, before I posted it. I've kept all the changes you made, KHL. Tied everything together, they did…AGAIN…;p
I hope you guys liked it. No flames, please! I worked on this with all my heart…:)