Justin woke to the sunlight shining on his face through the bedroom window of the loft he turned to see Brian sleeping peacefully next to him. Justin thought how beautiful looked sleeping although it's Brian he looks beautiful anytime but I loved to watch him sleep it was very soothing to see him looking so sweet and innocent. Innocent not really a word you would use to describe Brian Kinney but that's what I thought when I watched him sleeping. He must have felt me staring at him because he started to stir, he turned to me while rubbing his eyes.
"Your not drawing me are you?" Brian asked while yawning
Justin giggled "No not this this time I was just admiring you"
"Well I can't blame you there" Brian said with confidence.
Brian rolled out of bed and headed to the bathroom. I hear the shower running so he must be up for the day maybe he'll want to go get some breakfast at the diner. I should write in my journal before he get's out I can only hear him if he knew I kept a journal "You are such a Princess"
{It's so good to hear the shower running and to be able to go eat breakfast at the diner Hell it's good just to be able to eat breakfast at all
You never know how precious the little things are untill you almost lose them. It's been two months since the bashing and i'm doing better my hand is slowley recovering and school is getting easier and best of all I'm here at the loft with Brian and we are doing GREAT well as great as you can be with Brian Kinney but I have no complaints I'm just glad to be here. I'm thankful for everything that I have and I'm espically thankful for Brian without him none of this would be possible. Well the shower just turned off so I'm gonna go jump in there and I'll update soon.}
Justin stuffs his Journal back into his backpack and goes into the bathroom. Brian was just getting out.
"You could of joined me ya know"
" I know I just wanted to do some touch up's on a sketch before my class this afternoon" Justin lied but it wasn't a lie that could hurt anybody.
"Well you wanna go grab a bite to eat before I go into the office?" Brian asked while rubbing his head with the towel to dry his hair.
"Sure just give fifteen minutes"
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Thirty minutes later they were sitting at the diner with the guys
Justin was eating his pancakes listening to Michael bitch about his job at the Big Q and how his boss is always on his case I don't know why he doesn't just quit that job and do something else, something that will make him happy.
Brian was sipping on his coffee and reading his news paper as usual and Emmett and Ted were talking about Blake. Ted was still depressed over Blake running out of the Rehab Center and never contacting him. It's been two months but he's still heart broken Poor Ted hopefully one day soon he will find true love and be totally happy.
"Well boy's I'm off to work Don't miss me too much" Brian smirked while sliding out of the booth.
"Bye" the gang said in unison
"Justin you need a ride?"
"No I don't have class untill one so I'm gonna meat up with Daphne here in a little while and we are gonna go to the mall"
"Well you girls have fun, I'll see ya tonight" Brian said and bent down and gave Justin a kiss on the top of his head
"Later"
"Later
"I'm outta here too guys before my boss has my ass again" Michael whined
"Like that would be so bad" Ted joked "I'm going to I'm off to crunch numbers for the next eight hours"
"Me too I need to sell fabulous clothes to hideous people" Emmett said with his head cocked to the side and a big grin on his face
"Bye Sweetie you and Daphne have lot's of fun"
"Bye Emmett"
Justin finished his pancakes and gathered his stuff waved goodbye to Debbie on the way out and went to meet Daphne at the Mall.
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"So how are things going at home with Brian?" Daphne asked while searching through a rack of shirts.
"Things are great they have never been better"
"Well that's good to hear I just hope it stays that way"
"And why wouldn't it?" Justin was beginning to get annoyed
"Well it is Brian we are talking about and you know how he can just change his mind" Daphne never looked up from the rack of clothes she was searching through she just kept going on reminding Justin of how many times Brian has disappointed him.
It was different this time though Justin knew it but the more he listened to Daphne the more he began to wonder if maybe his happiness wouldn't last.
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Justin went to his afternoon class but he was very preoccupied he could not get what Daphne had said to him out of his mind ever since he moved back into the loft after the bashing things have been great between him and Brian. No fighting at all they wake up together shower together ,go to bed together. But what if Daphne is right what if one day it just all changes.
Justin Slides the loft door open "Brian I'm home" The loft is silent. The bedroom and bathroom are empty Brian must of went out to the clubs all ready. He could of waited for me to see if I wanted to go.
Justin thought. Since I have the loft to myself I can take a quick shower and write in my journal and do a sketch. There had been a vision that has been stuck in his head all day that he wanted to draw. When him and Daphne were at the mall he seen a Father and His daughter at a fountain in front of J.C Penney's and the father was standing behind his daughter and she was throwing pennies into the fountain.
After his shower Justin sits down at the desk and pulls out his journal.
As he was writing his thoughts about his earlier discussion with Daphne he failed to hear the loft door open. The next thing he knew he felt someone standing behind him and before he could turn around the said
"What are you writing?"
"Nothing I was just fooling around with some school stuff" Justin explained while closing his journal and trying to put it in his backpack but Brian grabbed his wrist.
"Let me read it" Brian was buzzed not totally drunk but he was buzzin pretty good.
"No it's nothing important, come on let's go to bed"
"No I want to read it" Brian snapped and he snatched it out of Justin's hand.
Brian was just about to open it and.......
"BRIAN NOOOOOOOO DON'T OPEN THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Whoa Justin what's your problem with me seeing your school work you've never had a problem with me looking before"
"This is just personal,and I'd just like to keep it to myself"Justin said trying to get Brian to give him his journal back. He didn't feel like hearing Brian rag on him for keeping a journal.
"Justin are you keeping secrets from me now?" Brian said with sarcasm
Justin could tell Brian was not gonna let this go so he decided to just go with the truth and deal with the teasing.
"Fine,it's my journal OK?" Justin sat down on the kitchen stool and waited for what he thought would be the worst torture ever.
"What?,since when do you keep a journal?" Brian asked sounding oddly concerned.
Justin suprised that the teasing has not yet started answered softly "ever since the bashing, my doctor thought it would be a good idea for me to write down my thoughts and feeling he said it would be a way to express my feelings."
"Hmmmmmm, well is there anything about me in here?"
"Huh?"
"I'm sorry do you not understand English?"
"You mean your not gonna tease me?"
"Why would I tease you?"
"Because your Brian and you think expressing your feelings is about the stupidest thing a person can do."
"Give me a little bit of credit will ya, just because I don't tell my inner most thoughts to everyone or write them down in a book doesn't mean that it's wrong for anyone else to do it, If your doctor suggested it then I'm sure it's a good thing to do. Is it helping you at all?"
"Actually I kinda enjoy it, it's soothing it feels good to just get lost in my thoughts"
"Well good I'm glad it's helping you"
"Thanks"
"For what?"
"Not giving me a hard time about it"
" I may be a asshole sometimes..........
"Sometimes?"
"Excuse me I wasn't finished"
"Sorry"
"But I wouldn't judge you for doing something that you enjoy and anything that can help you recover I'm all for"
"Thanks Bri"
Justin stood up and gave Brian a soft kiss on the lips. Brian returned the kiss and began to kiss Justin's neck and slid his shirt over his head.
"You ready for bed" Brian asked.
"Yea I'm ready just let me put my books away and I'll meet you in there"
Justin began packing his books into his backpack he was so relieved that Brian knew about his journal and everything was out in the open. No more secrets.
"Your not drawing me are you?" Brian asked while yawning
Justin giggled "No not this this time I was just admiring you"
"Well I can't blame you there" Brian said with confidence.
Brian rolled out of bed and headed to the bathroom. I hear the shower running so he must be up for the day maybe he'll want to go get some breakfast at the diner. I should write in my journal before he get's out I can only hear him if he knew I kept a journal "You are such a Princess"
{It's so good to hear the shower running and to be able to go eat breakfast at the diner Hell it's good just to be able to eat breakfast at all
You never know how precious the little things are untill you almost lose them. It's been two months since the bashing and i'm doing better my hand is slowley recovering and school is getting easier and best of all I'm here at the loft with Brian and we are doing GREAT well as great as you can be with Brian Kinney but I have no complaints I'm just glad to be here. I'm thankful for everything that I have and I'm espically thankful for Brian without him none of this would be possible. Well the shower just turned off so I'm gonna go jump in there and I'll update soon.}
Justin stuffs his Journal back into his backpack and goes into the bathroom. Brian was just getting out.
"You could of joined me ya know"
" I know I just wanted to do some touch up's on a sketch before my class this afternoon" Justin lied but it wasn't a lie that could hurt anybody.
"Well you wanna go grab a bite to eat before I go into the office?" Brian asked while rubbing his head with the towel to dry his hair.
"Sure just give fifteen minutes"
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Thirty minutes later they were sitting at the diner with the guys
Justin was eating his pancakes listening to Michael bitch about his job at the Big Q and how his boss is always on his case I don't know why he doesn't just quit that job and do something else, something that will make him happy.
Brian was sipping on his coffee and reading his news paper as usual and Emmett and Ted were talking about Blake. Ted was still depressed over Blake running out of the Rehab Center and never contacting him. It's been two months but he's still heart broken Poor Ted hopefully one day soon he will find true love and be totally happy.
"Well boy's I'm off to work Don't miss me too much" Brian smirked while sliding out of the booth.
"Bye" the gang said in unison
"Justin you need a ride?"
"No I don't have class untill one so I'm gonna meat up with Daphne here in a little while and we are gonna go to the mall"
"Well you girls have fun, I'll see ya tonight" Brian said and bent down and gave Justin a kiss on the top of his head
"Later"
"Later
"I'm outta here too guys before my boss has my ass again" Michael whined
"Like that would be so bad" Ted joked "I'm going to I'm off to crunch numbers for the next eight hours"
"Me too I need to sell fabulous clothes to hideous people" Emmett said with his head cocked to the side and a big grin on his face
"Bye Sweetie you and Daphne have lot's of fun"
"Bye Emmett"
Justin finished his pancakes and gathered his stuff waved goodbye to Debbie on the way out and went to meet Daphne at the Mall.
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"So how are things going at home with Brian?" Daphne asked while searching through a rack of shirts.
"Things are great they have never been better"
"Well that's good to hear I just hope it stays that way"
"And why wouldn't it?" Justin was beginning to get annoyed
"Well it is Brian we are talking about and you know how he can just change his mind" Daphne never looked up from the rack of clothes she was searching through she just kept going on reminding Justin of how many times Brian has disappointed him.
It was different this time though Justin knew it but the more he listened to Daphne the more he began to wonder if maybe his happiness wouldn't last.
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Justin went to his afternoon class but he was very preoccupied he could not get what Daphne had said to him out of his mind ever since he moved back into the loft after the bashing things have been great between him and Brian. No fighting at all they wake up together shower together ,go to bed together. But what if Daphne is right what if one day it just all changes.
Justin Slides the loft door open "Brian I'm home" The loft is silent. The bedroom and bathroom are empty Brian must of went out to the clubs all ready. He could of waited for me to see if I wanted to go.
Justin thought. Since I have the loft to myself I can take a quick shower and write in my journal and do a sketch. There had been a vision that has been stuck in his head all day that he wanted to draw. When him and Daphne were at the mall he seen a Father and His daughter at a fountain in front of J.C Penney's and the father was standing behind his daughter and she was throwing pennies into the fountain.
After his shower Justin sits down at the desk and pulls out his journal.
As he was writing his thoughts about his earlier discussion with Daphne he failed to hear the loft door open. The next thing he knew he felt someone standing behind him and before he could turn around the said
"What are you writing?"
"Nothing I was just fooling around with some school stuff" Justin explained while closing his journal and trying to put it in his backpack but Brian grabbed his wrist.
"Let me read it" Brian was buzzed not totally drunk but he was buzzin pretty good.
"No it's nothing important, come on let's go to bed"
"No I want to read it" Brian snapped and he snatched it out of Justin's hand.
Brian was just about to open it and.......
"BRIAN NOOOOOOOO DON'T OPEN THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Whoa Justin what's your problem with me seeing your school work you've never had a problem with me looking before"
"This is just personal,and I'd just like to keep it to myself"Justin said trying to get Brian to give him his journal back. He didn't feel like hearing Brian rag on him for keeping a journal.
"Justin are you keeping secrets from me now?" Brian said with sarcasm
Justin could tell Brian was not gonna let this go so he decided to just go with the truth and deal with the teasing.
"Fine,it's my journal OK?" Justin sat down on the kitchen stool and waited for what he thought would be the worst torture ever.
"What?,since when do you keep a journal?" Brian asked sounding oddly concerned.
Justin suprised that the teasing has not yet started answered softly "ever since the bashing, my doctor thought it would be a good idea for me to write down my thoughts and feeling he said it would be a way to express my feelings."
"Hmmmmmm, well is there anything about me in here?"
"Huh?"
"I'm sorry do you not understand English?"
"You mean your not gonna tease me?"
"Why would I tease you?"
"Because your Brian and you think expressing your feelings is about the stupidest thing a person can do."
"Give me a little bit of credit will ya, just because I don't tell my inner most thoughts to everyone or write them down in a book doesn't mean that it's wrong for anyone else to do it, If your doctor suggested it then I'm sure it's a good thing to do. Is it helping you at all?"
"Actually I kinda enjoy it, it's soothing it feels good to just get lost in my thoughts"
"Well good I'm glad it's helping you"
"Thanks"
"For what?"
"Not giving me a hard time about it"
" I may be a asshole sometimes..........
"Sometimes?"
"Excuse me I wasn't finished"
"Sorry"
"But I wouldn't judge you for doing something that you enjoy and anything that can help you recover I'm all for"
"Thanks Bri"
Justin stood up and gave Brian a soft kiss on the lips. Brian returned the kiss and began to kiss Justin's neck and slid his shirt over his head.
"You ready for bed" Brian asked.
"Yea I'm ready just let me put my books away and I'll meet you in there"
Justin began packing his books into his backpack he was so relieved that Brian knew about his journal and everything was out in the open. No more secrets.