Heey guys, I'm loving the SWAC group, they're awesome. LOL. I know it's only been hours since my last update, I couldn't help it.
Anyways, this is a one-shot. Why I made it? I just wanted to show how you can get through anything... Everyone is different and I hope this helps. I also wrote this for those on fanfic who are struggling. I feel for you. I actually wrote this from my own personal experience. I hope none of you think I'm emo, or I'm copying people, but I wanted to help and try to understand others as well.
No, they don't understand. They don't get it.
Yeah, I might guess what you're thinking. What could I possibly be whining about? With hungry children out there, soldiers dying, people less fortunate than I am, and all I'm doing is thinking my life is worse? No, that's not where I'm getting at.
It's always the same thing. 'It'll get better', 'everything is gonna be fine', 'are you okay?'. Pssh. Sure, yeah, that's it.
They say they understand. But that's bull. They don't.
Everywhere I go, I put on a fake smile, hiding the pain. It's amazing how the ones who you think are true and the ones who think they know YOU the best, can't even see past that fakeness.
Dreading to go places? Yeah, I've been there. Wanting to be alone? Yep, been there too.
People saying that you're just over reacting and thinking you've gone crazy, does not help either.
Flashbacks of it happening? No matter how hard and how much you want to leave it behind, it crawls back.
Yeah, you'll get over it, but you need your time. I, for one, haven't been able to fully recover. How long has it been? A couple of months. Yeah, you might think I'm sad, but I'm not the only one.
Seeing people enjoying themselves makes you wish you could be that way again. But no, you think it over and you can't.
One day, you think everything is good again, until the memories come back and haunt you.
Crying yourself to sleep. That's another story. May seem extreme, but that's how I dealt with it.
Thinking your world had crashed and you feel unwelcomed by anything or anyone.
Once you start feeling happy, it comes back?
But then, you have at least that one special person walking with you through the whole thing, and never letting you fall. They're the ones who are real. They're the ones you know you can trust. They're the ones who will do anything to help.
For me, that was Chad. I still remember all the hurtings, but then I remember he'll never bring me down. He's the reason why I stay strong, and get through this.
I know its short, but I didn't want it to be too long. I also put in a little Channy to make it a little cheery. I hope this helps, and doesn't offend anyone. Dedicated to everyone! You guys are amazing people.