I do not own, nor am I affiliated in anyway with the show Rizzoli and Isles, I simply love the characters and making my own twist to there story.
Jane's POV
You can't, you can't say no anymore, you can't look at her and act like you aren't completely head over heals in love with her. Every part of her, you need her on this level that you never knew you could need anything or anyone, yet here you sit, looking in the most beautiful set of hazel eyes that have ever been, knowing that if she leaves, you will die. Maybe not physically, but emotionally, mentally, you would not be able to survive without her by your side. That is why you don't tell her, why you can't tell her, your best friend. If she knew you loved her, that you were in love with her, she would run and you would lose her altogether. But on nights like these, when she is setting right beside you, her head on your shoulder, and her hand on your thigh, it's nights like these that you start to think that maybe she loves you too, that maybe she wants to tell you as much as you want to tell her. So you turn your neck to look at her.
"Maur, you know that you can tell me anything right?" You say over the movie, hoping to pry it out of her, or at least give you some hint that she feels the same.
"Almost anything," she replies and you turn your head to look at her more fully, wondering if this is the clue that you were looking for.
"No Maura, anything, anything." You say stressing the word anything, trying to get her to understand without actually saying what you feel.
"Somethings, Jane, don't need to be said, I enjoy your friendship too much to truly tell you everything." She explains, and now you know, she might actually love you too.
I know, I can't tell you everything either." You say being encrypted enough that you wouldn't completely blow your cover.
"Really?" She asks, turning her body to look at you straight on.
"Yeah I mean I can't tell you about what I had for lunch, or you will give me a lecture." You joke, chickening out.
For a moment she shows disappointment before regaining her composure and giving you a disapproving grin. "Can you really tell me everything?" She asks on a more serious note.
"No." You reply not trusting your voice to much more, but when Maura doesn't say anything you decide to risk it. "I wish I could though," you say turning yourself so that your knees are touching hers.
"I wish you would, because you can," she says and you take a deep breath. "You see if I tell you everything you will run, it's what you do Jane, but I won't run." She finishes and you have never felt so close to telling her.
"You won't run?" You ask and you're surprised at how much you sound like a child.
"Never," she promised, a hopefulness in her voice.
"There is something I need to tell you Maura, and I hope you with be happy about it," you say and she simply nods for you to continue. "I love you Maur, and not in the way that a best friend is supposed to love a best friend, I am in love with you." You have to stop, you can hear your voice failing you.
"I love you too Jane, I am so glad that you finally, what is it you say? 'Grew a pair' and told me," she laughed
"God I love you!" You laugh pulling her into a hug.
"You can kiss me now you know," she says obviously trying to ease into the situation.
"Oh yeah," you smile a coy smile preparing yourself. You look into those eyes, and for a moment you lose yourself in them. These are the eyes that have seen you at your highest and don't think you were insane, and at your lowest and didn't run. These are the eyes that watched as you took a bullet to the ribs, or a fist to your face. These eyes watched as you screamed out in terror in the middle of the night. These are the eyes that showed so much excitement and joy at the thought of helping you raise a child, and so much pain at the realization that it would never happen. These eyes have cried, and laughed and held secret conversations that only your eyes would understand. These are the eyes that have been there through it all.
"Jane, for goodness sake, just kiss me already!" You hear her say and you realize that your moment lasted longer than you thought. You quickly close the gap between your lips and the ones in front of you. You try to keep it slow, not wanting to push things too far.
Lips move against lips, hand roam over backs, and shoulders, and lock themselves in hair. You back only when necessary and smile at the sight before you, Maura Isles is flustered and finally you are the cause.
"So that was…" you start, but pause, searching for a word that would come close to even describing it.
"Wow," is all the genius in front of you says.
"That's all you have to say? Nothing about how the current state of euphoria that we are in is caused by some chemical substance in our brains?" You joke making her as you run your fingers through your own hair.
"Somethings can't be described with science Jane. That's why we touch, kiss, make love, because somethings have to be shown, not explained." She tells you and you smile at how emotional she is, and how open she is with you.
"Well in that case," you start, moving closer to her, "I am gonna need a lot of time to show you how much I love you Maur." You whisper in her ear, pressing a kiss right below it.
"Jane." She sighs out and you're sure you've never heard a more arousing sound.
"I'm going to need forever." You breath against her lips before firmly pressing yours to them. Slowly like before, you move your lips with hers, trying to stay calm, but you can't except to moan when you feel her tongue run along your bottom lip begging for entrance that you resist.
As your tongues slide against each other it's almost as if a fire is set inside your best friend, and it almost startles you when you feel her move to straddle your lap. "God you're beautiful." She groans out as she begins to kiss your neck. You bite your lip to hold back a moan, but it slips out when you feel her teeth scratch against the sensitive skin behind your earlobe.
"Jesus Maur." You moan out, and your hips buck up, coming in contact with Maura's core. You hear it, the soft whimper from the beautiful lips that are now attacking your neck. Suddenly you realize where this is heading. "Maura, Maura honey we have to stop." You say pressing your hand on her back.
"What's wrong?" She asks searching your eyes for an answer. She's breathing heavily and there is blush across her cheeks.
"I'm sorry, but if we keep going I'm going to end up bending you over this couch and I don't want that, I want to do this right." You explain, rubbing your hand up her side.
"You are such a softy," She smiles before kissing your cheek.
"Yeah, well keep it to yourself," you joke.
"I should get up," She laughs taking in your current position.
"No, I like this, I like you here, on me." You stutter out.
"What do you think about us?" She asks, "What is our next step?" She adds before you can answer her initial question.
"I think I would like it very much if you were my girlfriend," you smile, a hopefulness in your eyes that you just can't hide.
"I would like that too." She says with a beaming smile on her face.
"Okay now that that is settled, when are we going to tell everyone?" You ask, a smile permanently on your face.
"How about at Sunday dinner? That way I get you all to myself tomorrow." She suggests and you've never heard a better idea.
"That sounds great Maur, how about we seal the deal with a kiss." You wink and make a show of puckering your lips out.
She chuckles as she moves her lips to meet yours. It's brief, and sweet, but it's perfect. "Now I am ready for bed, so shall we?" She asks, standing up and waiting for you to follow. You try to swallow the lump in your throat, you don't want to lose control quite yet.
"Hey Maura," you say when you reach the top of the stairs, "I think I'll sleep in the guest room," She shoots you a questioning look, "It's just I don't think I'm ready yet, and if we share a bed something will happen." There you go again sounding like a child.
"Okay love, but just know I'm ready when you are." She leans in and you kiss her, deep and passionately. "I love you." She says when you break the kiss.
"I love you too." You say pecking her lips one more time.
AN- Fin, reviews are greatly appreciated seeing as how this is my first ever fanfic. I will try to update on a weekly basis, but I am a student so no promises.