CHAPTER 1- REALISATION

Harry woke up abruptly and looked at his hands... so much of blood; he still couldn't believe that he is alive...

The war had ended two months back but there were a lot of casualties. The worst being Ron his best mate of seven years. There were also others starting Moody the auror, Tonks, Luna, Cho Chang, Dean, Seamus. Surprisingly Blaise Zabini fought against the dark. Even Draco joined Harry and fought against his aunt Bellatrix and killed her.

There are also many injured with Hermione who suffered the Sectumsempura on her neck leaving horrible scars. Fred had a permanent limp in his left leg while Percy who took the dark mark was killed by his own brother George. The Weasely family was devastated with the loss of two sons and two injured, Bill who had been infected by Greyback.

Harry killed Voldemort after a long exhausting fight almost losing his magical core. He was in coma for about ten days and slowly started healing. He stayed in The Burrow along with Hermione. It was almost September and Harry wanted to go back to Hogwarts to complete his newts. Even Hermione wanted to the same...

Harry came to the kitchen to have a glass of water and started thinking of his future. He never thought he would survive and gave a few thoughts about his future. Now he is fully free and didn't know what he should do. He was so engrossed in his thoughts that he missed the footsteps at back.

Someone cleared their voice and Harry almost jumped a foot. He turned back and saw Remus and slowly a smile spread over his face. Remus was always with him since the fifth year disaster, the death of Sirius. He helped harry whenever Harry needed the most and was the only true family Harry had. "So what are you thinking now" asked Remus with an amusing smile. He knew Harry was thinking something important from the look of his crunched face. He always found it entertaining to see. Harry saw and grinned" nothing much except what I should do in the future. Before I had always seen myself as an auror but now I can't."

His face slowly gained a painful expression. Remus immediately came and pulled Harry into his hand. He knew Harry still didn't recover his shock from Ron's death."Harry you need not think about it now. First complete your education and newts... there is still one whole year to decide, for now just focus on having a very normal school year" soothed Remus.

Harry nodded his head and was truly grateful for Remus being there. He could not imagine what might have happened to him otherwise. "Now stop thinking and go to sleep" said a yawning Remus... Harry said goodnight taking a last look at how the other occupant of the room was dressed...

As he flopped into his bed he remembered that Remus was only in pajama pants and his nothing to hide his abs. Ohh yes... the abs.. Harry blushed as his mind went into dirtier mode. The number of scars and scratches covering the body added a lot more to his dream. Remus was lean with broad shoulders. Harry's face now is a beautiful shade of red and he shook his face reminding himself that Remus was almost his father's age and his mentor. He can't fall for him. Harry knew he was attracted towards men in sixth year when he saw Neville and Blaise snogging.

Harry almost blacked out when he caught them in a dark corridor. He knew that Blaise changed in the beginning of sixth year but didn't know this was the cause. Even they were mortified being caught but Harry assured that he won't say anything and backed away. Harry remembered how he thought they were hot kissing and soon found out he was also the same, attracted to men.

He also knew he was attracted to Remus but always declined thinking it was a fatherly love. But, seeing Remus without his shirt made Harry think again. He started with his features. Remus face was also marred by scars from battles but HARRY found them sexy and manly. His eyes were blue with hints of amber reminding of the wolfish nature. Harry again started blushing dangerously when he found out a part of his body was standing upright. He was shocked that he was turned on by Remus that much and decided a cold shower is on his list to do in the morning.

He at last accepted the fact that he was in love with Remus and honestly didn't know how to express it. He slept and thought that if Remus was attracted to men. He decided he would speak to Hermione later and went to sleep with his favorite person plaguing his dreams.

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