This is my first ever story :DD Please be nice. Enjoy and R&R
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters or Shugo Chara.
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Amu Pov
"I still remember the tears, the pain, the agony, the helplessness. I still remember. I got over it. But you…
Sunshine began to stream back into my life. But you…
The tears turned into genuine smiles. But you…
The agony was replaced by aches in my stomach from laughing too much. But you…
The helplessness changed into courage, helping myself. But you…
But you…
Tears were tears. Agony was still agony. And the helplessness was there still deep down. But you… you couldn't take it, you had no sunshine or smiles or laughs and not an ounce of courage.
and up
and up
It built up.
No one could help, no. It wasn't they couldn't it was because they didn't No one wanted to break those walls you've built up. But one day they all crumbled, you were a helpless wreck. No. Not helpless...just... lost I guess. But I couldn't guess, I couldn't guess… because...because...because I knew… I knew but I didn't use my knowledge to help. I didn't help because I was scared maybe even afraid, terrified that I couldn't help.
Now...Now its too late.
Too late to help.
Too late to bring the sunshine back in.
But maybe now you have your sunshine back, your smiles, laughs and courage. Because all you needed was someone to be strong and help you. Rest well with mama."
A small applause gently erupted from the small audience.
My hand brushed against the casket as I placed a bouquet of flowers, blue roses. He didn't really like flowers but he had a liking to blue roses. They were majestic he would of said. And strong. All the values I have lost. I shook the feeling off and I retreated back into the crowd as the other guests spoke. I spaced out and robotically drove back home, the wind sifting through my light pink hair, French Rose my dad would say, he was a photographer and much knowledge behind his goofy smile and overprotective but childish personality.
My hand grasped the doorknob and it gently creaked open. I sighed.
"You know they say you get a wrinkle with every sigh"
I jumped. What the fuck?
"Well then I must have a heck of a lot of wrinkles. Thanks for clearing that up"
He grinned, "Lighten up princess"
"What, am I wrinkly AND fat, jee THANKS Kukai." I smirked and walked up the stairs and flopped onto the bed.
Ugh. I can't wait before I get enough money from my job to support Ami and I so that Kukai can leave and so that he didn't have to spend his free time cooking for Ami or picking her up. I hated depending on other people... but he WAS my brother but he should be out in the world doing what he wants to do as he was already 20. But honestly without him I don't think I could have made it the last few months as I was only 16 and Ami was 8 and working at the café didn't reel in that much money.
I just missed them so much…
After dwelling on my thoughts for a bit I dressed and headed for work. I chucked on a black lace shirt with a white singlet underneath. Then I found a cute black skirt to wear. I matched that with some mid-thigh high black and pink socks. I wore my trade mark boots that I bought on vacation with my parents a few years back. I threw a dark blue and black jacket into a small bag along with my phone and wallet.
I walked across the hall way to check on Ami, I saw her sprawled on her bed, still in her cute, innocent white dress. I sighed, she was so drained, emotionally and psychically for an 8 year old. Damn those wrinkles. I pulled up the blankets and kissed her on her forehead and left for work making sure I closed the door quietly.
By the time I arrived at work it was 4 pm I worked the afternoon/night shift 6 days a week as I still had school but thank goodness it was the holidays at the moment or I would be as tired as fuck, though it started in two days. Great. (A/N That means its Saturday at the moment (: )
"Yo, Amu! I'm just done finished up here, can you get them this?"
Nagihiko handed me a small slip.
I immediately got working, yawning occasionally.
It was almost 1am before someone else took over and I went home. I made sure I had washed Ami's bag so that it could dry tomorrow before school starts. I also rummaged through my closet to find my school uniform.
After my parents passed, they did leave quite a large sum of money. Though it was given mostly to me but I could only collect it at 18. Kukai didn't have such a good relationship with my parents. Though I think its fucked up, because Ami and I don't have anything at the moment.
Ugh. I need sleep. Before my head even hit the bed I fell asleep.
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