Hi friends! Don't worry, I'm still working hard on After the Wedding. This ficlet was inspired by a beautiful sketch of Kurt and Adam by keep-frozen on tumblr.
"I need to talk to you, Adam."
"Okay."
"Please listen to the whole thing before you judge me okay? "
"Okay," said Adam. Kurt watched Adam's throat bob as he swallowed hard.
"So when I was home, Blaine asked me to date him again and I said yes."
Adam looked crushed, but stayed silent.
"Please listen to the whole thing." Kurt pleaded.
"And then a few days later, he proposed to me."
Adam's eyes opened wide and his chin fell.
"And I said yes."
Adam couldn't seem to move. His mouth remained open in a stunned expression. He looked like he was in shock.
"He put me under so much pressure, Adam. He invited all these show choirs to serenade me, and all our friends were there, he even asked my dad to drive me to the place we met, and Dad wouldn't even tell me until I admitted that I knew about it."
Adam's brow wrinkled with confusion.
"I got so wrapped up in it that I said yes."
Kurt took a shaky breath.
"And the very next day, I gave the ring back.
And I got on a plane back to you.
"And I am so, so sorry," Kurt finished.
"I don't know what to say," said Adam quietly.
"Say you understand that Blaine manipulated me. Say you understand that my own father and all of my friends went behind my back and pushed me into it. Say you forgive me. Please, tell me you'll give us another chance."
"I need a little time, Kurt. This is all so strange."
"I know." Kurt nodded.
"I told Blaine that you and I were never serious. But the truth is, I wanted to be. I was just so afraid of getting hurt again. I figured the devil I know is better than the devil I don't know."
Adam's eyes lit with a sad understanding.
"You think that if you fall for me, I'll cheat on you," said Adam.
It wasn't a question.
"Yeah," whispered Kurt, his eyes glistening with tears he was valiantly holding back. "Doesn't everyone cheat?" Kurt asked in a resigned voice.
"I never have. I never would. What kind of idiot would be fool enough to cheat on you when you're so amazing?" said Adam.
Kurt's face crumpled.
"Come here, " said Adam, holding out his arms.
Kurt moved into them.
"We don't have to solve this all right this minute, Kurt. I would like to keep seeing you and figure out where we're headed. And I'd be glad….I'd be damn lucky in fact, if you wanted to date me exclusively. I just need a little time, okay? But I won't date anyone else until we figure this out. Not unless and until that's a decision we both make together.
Okay?"
"Okay," sighed Kurt, relaxing his tense body, melting into Adam's strong embrace.
"You have no idea what kind of pressure everybody put me under," Kurt mumbled into Adam's chest. "It was… I can't even find the words."
"Just let me hold you right now. And later you can tell me all about it if you want."
"Can I take you out for coffee?"
"Of course you can," said Adam.
Adam held Kurt.
Kurt let himself be held.
And they both let the world stop for a moment.