" I want this time with you to be my last memory…". Hearing those words coming from my best friend was the most surreal thing i have ever heard in my life. This is not what i wanted to happen or even could fathom happening after saving william. But in spite of everything me and her have been through, whether she remembers it or not, it was the most special time i've had in my life. She was everything to me. The one to cheer me up when i was down in the dumps or to take me on these wild adventures like the time we broke into the academy. I wish i could go back to that timeline. The original timeline. It's been four years since then and i still can't wrap my head around the fact that she's gone and it's all my fault. Im standing in the bathroom of my apartment that i got a few blocks from the two whales diner. The mirror i'm looking in has water marks running down it and is cloudy as hell. The girl staring back at me doesn't look much better either.. I cut my hair much shorter after chloe died. After i killed her… i have bags under my eyes that are hella dark. My face looks like i haven't slept for days, sleep being a thing i don't get much of these days anyway. And i am a bit skinnier than i was before. I'm only wearing a tank top and jeans that i've had on for two days now. Should i take a shower? Nah. too much work at the moment. I walk out of the shower and into the living/bedroom. The place is a pigsty. There's clothes littering the floor and covering up some of the food that i've been too "busy" to pick up and throw out for the past few days. Dishes lining the sink and my handy dandy bong sitting on the table right next to my camera (not that i use it anymore). I have a dull job at the two whales as a waitress with joyce. It's not so bad. I get tipped pretty decently by a few of the regulars and joyce loves helping me out. We do get the occasional asshole or two every so often, but nothing caulfield can't handle. I throw myself down on the couch and flip on the tv to see what is in store for the another wonderful (shitty) day. My power stopped working four years ago. I realized this when i tried to go back in time a second time after fulfilling chloe's dying wish. Little did i know that that would be the last time i ever saw my best friend again. Now instead of jumping through time like the fuckin doctor, i have these really bad bouts of head pain. Kinda like a stellar rod being forced through my skull. I take meds for the pain but sometimes they don't help and i'm forced to sit there and have these super painful visions of the original timeline and a skull splitting headache. I guess this is gods big fuck you to me for fucking the timeline in a totally supermax kinda way. Maybe one day i'll see chloe again… whether it's in the original timeline… or in this one… i'll see ya around buddy… someday...