Summary: "I just, I want to be alone for awhile." And she sighed, and that's all she said, all she meant before my lips crashed into hers to make her take back those words. Spashley, AU

Author's Note: I don't know if I'll continue this story, don't know if it's been done haha but one of my first really, so I hope everyone enjoys it, feedback appreciated :)

Spencer's POV

It was an ordinary day at King High, same people, same classes, everything was the same. But not; I haven't seen Ashley for days and that doesn't include seeing her drive past me in her Mercedes. Atleast I know she's alive, well, that's what I keep telling myself. Ever since that day she's been avoiding me like the plague, and she does have good reason for it.

"Hey baby" And he kisses me on the cheek. I smile involuntarily. At least I'm not alone these days.

"Hey, what's up?" It's easier to sound happy when he's around.

"Nothing, just missing you like crazy." And I giggle, and he kisses me again.

"It's only been an hour hun." But I blush anyway.

"Well, an hour is too long to be away from you."

"You're so sweet." Isn't he? Because that line sounds awfully familiar, it sounds like something Ashley used to say to me, and all we were – correction. All we ARE is friends. Although it doesn't seem like much these days.

And we continue to talk during our lunch break. What we did today, what we are going to do today, with the odd sweet thing that makes me blush. It's perfect. So why can't Ashley understand that? Why can't she be happy for me instead of being so selfish? Or maybe I'm the selfish one.

I see Ashley across the courtyard and my heart stops. She seems to see me too because she immediately turns around and walks the other direction. I tell Aiden that I have to go and I quickly give him a kiss before I start chasing after her.

"Ashley!" She walks faster.

"Wait!" She doesn't.

And it's a good thing that I'm a fast runner because I catch up to her, grabbing her arm maybe a little too forcefully.

"What do you want?" She spits out at me.

"I just want to know why you're acting this way..." Stupid question.

"You know why." And she looks pissed. More pissed off and maybe my hand that's holding onto her arm is shaking but I can't be too sure.

"Why can't you just be happy for me? I thought you were okay with this.."

"Maybe it's not the simple Spencer. It's never been simple with you." Her voice is cold and placid, no longer raised. And somehow my hand isn't on her anymore, and she's walking away. And it doesn't take long for me to realize she's gone, but it takes a longer time for me to start to wonder why I didn't chase after her.

Ashley's POV

Spencer and I have always been best friends. There's no line between when we weren't and when we were. It all kind of blended, like novel, or a movie; and there was no time before Spencer and Ashley.

She'd always stick with me, no matter how bitchy I was or how immature or anything. Whatever I did wrong she was always on my side. That's why I wasn't scared when I came out to her; I knew she'd always be there for me. And she just smiled and said, "I still love you."

And even if I wasn't nervous I was still relieved. Because losing Spencer would be like losing my life. And I sure as hell wasn't emo or suicidal. Maybe, that was only reserved for her.

I remember when we were little and we talked about getting married. And mind you, this was after we watched Cinderella and maybe I was a softie back then but hey, I was less than ten.

"Who do you wanna marry when you grow up Ash?"

"I don't want to get married." Spencer looked a little sad when I said this, I remember.

"Well why not!"

"Because boys are icky!" And they were, playing in mud and dirt. I had good reasoning.

"Well why don't you marry me? I'm a girl." I pondered about it, and even if she was only seven she made a lot of sense.

"Sure," I said. "I'll marry you Spence." And maybe if that didn't happen I wouldn't have thought about it. About how her eyes are so pretty, and her hands were so soft, and they were just idle thoughts. Until I got older and started to wonder why my heart beat so fast sometimes and I realized it was only around her. Maybe if her seven year old form didn't ask me so innocently to marry her, maybe I wouldn't have fallen for her.

But then, I realize that that would be impossible. That there was no way I couldn't have loved her. And I just didn't know until I knew, you know? And when that happened everything changed.

Everything.