Robin's POV
Jason.
He's all I can think about. Bruce thinks it's his fault, but that's not true-it was mine. If I had been there for him, supported him instead of being angry for taking over Robin for me…. maybe he wouldn't be dead now. Jason was a hothead, but if I was the patient, and teaching adopted brother instead of the angry, jealous one, I could have helped him; I could have convinced him to listen to Bruce.
But I can't do anything now as Bruce drives me home in the batjet, back to Titans tower. I've been gone for two weeks, and I'm a little worried about them but…. I just want to go home, shut myself up in my room and be alone.
Pretend to be nothing at all. Then I can forget Jason or maybe just the pain his death brought. The jet lands and I hop out of the cockpit, shooting thanks at Bruce. I find Cyborg, Raven, Beast Boy and Starfire all waiting on the roof for me. They may be smiling but their eyes are full of worry and sympathy; I don't need it— Joker does if I ever see him again.
But I grin and greet everyone—put on a show for Bats, and I wait for him to leave. The second I hear his jet whooshing in the distance, I put on my mask. No, not the one that covers my eyes that protects my identity, but the one I wore when Slade was around, when Terra died and betrayed us, when Batman talked to me about giving up the robin mantle.
I dragged my bag into my room, making some excuse about unpacking and getting a quick nap to the others before shutting the door behind me. I lock the door and then slide down it with my head in my hands. How could have this happened? Why Jason… why not me?
I sat there for a while, and nobody came to check on me. Good, I don't deserve it. I was tired from a haunted and sleepless night, so I actually did end up falling asleep. It was only 11am, but I didn't wake until 1 in the morning. I pushed myself up and opened the door; I still have to go pee, and My foot clattered into something next to the door.
It was a small tray, with a bowl of my favorite soup, chicken noodle, a bottle of water and a little protein bar. There was also a note. It was small, colorful and it said something that made my sorrow and anger swirl.
It said: 'It's going to be okay—Starfire' I frowned and let out a whisper yell, not wanting to wake up the other Titans.
"It's never going to be okay, I failed him!" She was lying. Friends don't lie to each other like that. I was not okay; Bruce wasn't okay, all because Jason Todd isn't okay. And now they will never be okay.
So… did I depress you guys? Yay!
KKA