a/n: let's hope i can actually finish this quickly!
haha not likely
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E: ephemeral étoiles (short-lasting stars)
prompts:
[title] etoiles
[word] ephemeral
word count: 479
channary and levana and all the things that could never be.
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Here is what I think of love.
((channary))
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She loved him.
She wanted him, needed him.
But no, that useless brat, Levana. She thought she could take him from Channary, but Channary would let her, Channary would not let love escape her again.
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Channary was alone.
Still alone, heartbreakingly, terribly alone.
She had a child… a child that would not have a good mother, a child with no father.
She wished… she wished that perhaps she could find love.
Love does not exist, she told herself.
That is why you cannot find love.
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She was glad when she found she had regolith disease.
She would die from it.
Let Levana have her crown.
Let the girl see what it was like.
Then let little Selene take it all.
Channary smiled.
Selene would make her proud in death.
Selene.
The moon amongst the stars.
Stars.
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From this day forward, you will be sun at dawn and my stars at night.
((levana))
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Want was a thing that dwelled like a deep-rooted tree in her heart.
Want, and need.
Need for love, a man, arms around her and smiling eyes.
Need for parents, a loving sister, a perfect family.
Need for beauty, joy, everything she could never have.
She gave up on everything she could never have.
After all, she would never have it…
What was the point in trying?
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She found him.
She found love.
She needed it, she wanted it, and every fiber of her being had a yearning for this, this which she could not have.
For he was a guard, and she a princess, but she didn't care, she didn't care, she just wanted him, him, and only him.
But Solstice was in the way.
Stupid, smiley Solstice, pregnant with a baby and loved by him.
She was not grateful for the wonders she had. Solstice did not know what it was to be alone and desolate and so very unloved.
Solstice was dead.
But still Evret did not love Levana, could not love her.
And so Levana kept on being heartbroken, and she couldn't believe what a fool she had been.
With a shriveled heart she became the queen that no one would dare question.
That no one would ever mock again.
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When the bullet hit her, all she could see was blackness.
Then sparkles appeared.
Gimmering white sparks, like tiny dots of fire, like glowing silver crystals in the night.
Like stars.
She stared at them as the life so rapidly left her, as she crossed the line between Life and Death.
She was free.
Levana Blackburn was finally free, free from the pains of want and need. All the wants and needs for love and family and everything she could never have.
Now, in Death, she could finally have everything she could never have in life.
She could find joy, in at least a dream.
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