Warnings: abstractness and sap (what is with me and the sap lately? o.O)
Disclaimer: GW and characters not mine, writing not for profit
Pairing: 3+4
Kagi's notes: This is for you, Mal, as a thank you for lovely image this scene gave me. ^^ I suppose calling it a scene is technically a little inaccurate. Actually, it was little more than two sentences in the middle of Heero and Quatre's conversation, when Trowa comes in and finds out that Quatre is home. I don't write 3x4 because I don't get it--I can't get my head around it. I have no idea what it was about that scene that was any different than anything else I've read, but it suddenly made sense to me--I can *see* it. ^_^ And now the scene has been sticking in my head, and I couldn't get the *image* to leave me alone--so I'm writing it.
As usual, stuff in /italics/ is thoughts, emotions, or impressions.
~ Homecoming ~
Rain-walking
not too cold, just wet
coming down in slants of silver
tears i can't cry
feels good in a melancholy way
missing you
know you'll be back soon, but...
I wish....
wish you were here
so confused
things are strange
want to talk them over
with you
my world makes sense
not that you know all the answers
but i know
when i'm with you, I know
we'll find them out
together
you make someplace inside of me
warm
that's been cold for a long time
now there's you
but you're not here--you're away
and i miss you
want you here with me
all day, every day
but sometimes
neither of us has that luxury
so I let you go
and you let me, now and then
know that you'll be back
but I miss you
and that little bit of
sunshine
that touches my heart
every time I look at you
you give me hope
peace
a vision, for the future
an anchor in the now
trust
someone to read my heart
when I can't say it
you just know
coming home in the rain
feels like
I'm not home yet
until you are
when will that be?
wondering where you are
how you've been
open the door, already sorry
to be home without you
the first thing that I hear
is my name
looking up, shaking raindrops
teardrops
from my hair
the first thing that I see
is you
sun comes out
sunrays hit my soul
I call your name
before I know it I've taken a step
you draw me
like a moth to a flame
a smile, just for you
flickers across my face
"You're back!"
my world making sense again
everything right again
quiet relief, contented joy
though you look tired
I want to hold you
and still
there is something here
that neither of us understands
some things
that need to be explained
I feel sure
no matter what's wrong
no matter how long
you and I can handle it
together
-owari-
Note: Apologies if the rhythm is funky on this--it's Leth's fault. ^_~ I have had the 'Absolution' song for Ions stuck, stuck, ~stuck~ in my head for almost a week now, and it makes it difficult to concentrate in order to write poetry. But I did my best, no da...see what you think. ^^;