Welcome everyone. I'm glad you're reading this story.
Anyway, This is a Brand New Plot Bunny that's been bouncing around my head. You always hear about Ravens Dark Past and about her being a tortured half demon and that's why she and Robin are so good together. They are both dark and understand each other Blah Blah Blah.
WHAT ABOUT STARFIRE! She was sold into slavery by her family and turned out to be owned by her sister that freaking hated her. She survived slavery for years in the comics where she was fucking tortured and Raped by any damn alien that came along. She was degraded in the WORST way possible. HOW could you forget that!
Wanted to explore the possible consequences her past would have on Starfire's Psych and What she hid behind her happy mask. We all know its impossible to always be that happy.
AN: Im using a mix of comic and animated history with a slight twist of my own. Mostly Comic
Sorry for my Rant. Enjoy! :)
Chapter Inspired By: Somewhere I belong and Easier to Run By Linkin Park
WARNING: Cutting, Angst, Implied Rape, Torture, Slavery, Possibly drinking and Drug Use, Implied Sexual Situations, slight implied incest
Summary: Starfire has always had that happy mask to hide the horrors of her past happens when her mask cracks and her past catches up with her? Can the Teen Titans save her from destroying herself? Or will she be overlooked as usual?
Welcome to Cracked Masks
Starfire stared at the glass of Scotch she was holding, her hand trembling. It was all coming back. She thought she had forced that time to the darkest deepest part of her mind. Apparently even that wasn't enough.
She could feel it, old memories and ghostly feelings creeping over her. She wanted to scream, to destroy something, to do something to take her mind of it. She had to do something. Go somewhere!
"It isn't like the others would notice anyway" She thought sardonically.
She had tried use them as a distraction earlier. Tried to call out for help without actually asking for it out loud.
If they actually looked at the alien princess, I mean really look, beyond her mask,
They would notice that the happy joyful naive being they saw everyday was just a facade to mask the broken scarred girl underneath. Some of that happiness was not faked, of course, but most of it was. She knew more about the universe than they thought, especially the dark sides of it. A part she has been very intimate with voluntarily and involuntarily.
A whip cracked sharply against her skin and she arched her back in agonizing pain as specks of blood flew everywhere.
Her sisters voice purred in her ear. "You've been a very bad girl Koriand'r. You know how we punish bad girls."
She felt the hands flip her over on her injured back. Someone... No!
Some MONSTER ripped her shirt open and a hand slid down her stomach, moving down and down and down until ...
Starfire gasped and stumbled, dropping her glass where it broke on the floor. She landed on her knees, breathing heavily, emerald eyes clouded with phantom pain.
She looked toward her closet, eyes wide. She knew where to go!
She raced towards her secret going out stash of clothes, hidden behind her uniforms. She was going out for a while. And she wasn't going to be Starfire anymore.
No, she was Kori Anderson. Resident "Fuck All" Rebellious Party Girl.
She trusted no one
Loved no one
And served No one but herself
Kori dressed in a green long sleeve sweater dress that hung off her shoulders and brought out her eyes. She paired it with a large black belt, earrings, and black pumps. She swiped some mascara on her already long and defined eyelashes and put on eyeliner, which focused in on her eyes and made her look more exotic than before. Grabbing her black leather coat, she left the room and walked into the living area.
She tried to put her usual perkiness in her voice. "See you later friends. I will be back at a later time."
No one even looked up at her or even acknowledged her words except for a unintelligible rumble from Robin and a dismissive half wave from Raven.
"What did she expect?" She wondered bitterly.
They didn't even acknowledge her fully when she was right in front of them.
Flashback
Starfire flounced into the room. She had started having nightmares about her past weeks ago and it was getting to the point that she was desperate enough to indirectly ask for help from her friends. She could feel the ends of her grasp of reality starting to unravel.
She had to keep her sanity
She hadn't come this far to lose it now.
"Hello friends! What are you doing?" She said with a bright smile
No one turned to look at her. Raven was absorbed with a huge tomb about some kind of dark archaic magic, Robin was looking over some cases or something and obsessing as usual, and Beast Boy and Cyborg were playing video games.
Her smile faltered before it was back to the previous intensity and she walked over to Raven. "How about we go and meditate Raven friend?" Starfire asked.
She was pinned with a glare from Raven, who was in too bad of a mood to realize how rude she was being.
"How about we don't Starfire? I am in the middle of something very important and No. You can't help. You would only interfere."Raven turned back to her book.
Starfire's smile faltered even more before moved on to Robin. She stood before him and opened her mouth to say something but Robin, who was frustrated at the lack of information about Slade coming in, snapped at her.
"Could you please move out of the way Starfire? I'm busy and you are just being useless standing here! Go do something and annoy someone else!"
He turned his back on her.
Starfire's smile almost dropped completely, but she soldiered on. Maybe Beast Boy and Cyborg would talk to her.
"Hello friends. May I play the video games?" She asked happily.
They didn't even bother looking away from the TV scene, much too involved in their video game to bother with Starfire.
"I'm sorry Starfire but I really don't think you can keep up with us." Cyborg said.
"Yea," BB added in callously and almost carelessly "No offense, but you can't even speak proper English. How do you expect to play this game?"
Starfire's happy mask dropped completely as she backed up from them all, and gazed at them with despair. If they had looked up, the would have seen the pain and desperation in her gaze. The would have seen the first crack in her perfect mask.
"But they were too absorbed in their own lives to notice her." She thought mockingly.
Right then and there she vowed.
If they weren't going to help her, she was going to help herself
The only way she knew how
Flashback
Walking into the nightclub, she remembered her promise.
She was going to help herself, the way she knew how.
If she was lucky, she wouldn't have to face the Titans until tomorrow
As she emerged herself in the drunken debauchery going on inside,
Drinking, taking drugs, and flirting dangerously,
She swore she heard a dark voice utter,
Welcome Back
But maybe it was just the Ecstasy and her own demented mind talking.
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